Hey ladies! For those of you in the states, Happy Almost Thanksgiving.
Belle, your puppy sounds precious. What a nice distraction. I'm so sorry your sick this week though, and it sounds like you got it pretty bad, too. That is the worst.
MK, I'm really excited for you and your IUI. Fingers are tightly crossed that this plan is just what your body needs.
Wishn, seriously, talk about ironic. Sorry that the hubby was struggling this cycle. There is nothing more enraging than feeling like a possible pregnancy depends on bd'ing and then your partner not being up for it.
So reading about the bd'ing issues, I'll share what we're experiencing right now. I think my husband is a bit traumatized from the stress that TTC was for us. Sex has been entirely non-existent. He's loving and present and it's not like there's a conflict reason we're not being intimate. At first, I didn't even want to for the first couple of months because I was terrified of loss. But he didn't even attempt, so it was a non-issue. But last week, I tried to initiate and was super into it and he shut me down. He said, "have you forgotten the pressure and what it was like thinking we couldn't get pregnant?" And of course I wanted to kill him, because umm, no, I most certainly haven't. It was my body that was the problem-- it's not something easily forgotten. But he explained that we worked so hard for this pregnancy why would we do anything to jeopardize it, and it just feels like this emotional block for him. Like he feels it puts me at risk in some way, even though he knows logically it doesn't. So I get it. But it also really hurt my feelings and pride, feeling like he's entirely uninterested in physical intimacy with me (even though I know it's just fear and worry). It's crazy the scars that challenges with TTC can leave. We'll ease back into sooner or later, but yeah. Just kind of sucky.
