Some of you know me, many of you do not.
My name is Jennifer, I am 30, and my husband and I started ttc in November. It was a whirlwind ride. I had all the symptoms. All the signs. I got on a great multi vitamin, revamped my entire diet, and my doctors said I was a model patient. They said it was refreshing to see someone care so much and work so hard. Well, I did. We wanted this baby. We were so excited.
Even as of this morning and afternoon, my husband and I were laughing over my strange cravings, oogling all the changes in my body (Oh, the list was long) etc. This afternoon I went to the e.r. with shortness of breath (which I have had for a month anyway) and a slight discomfort in my belly. No one was worried. Not me, not my husband, my best friend (and mother of 3). We thought they would say....well, really anything other than what they said.
A long night into the wee hours of the morning and the doctor came in and said, great news! Nothing's wrong and you're not pregnant!
Wait, what?
He went on to explain I "just miscarried " and he would send me on my way soon. He came back in with a smile on his face like 30 mins later and actually asked me if I was feeling better.
He went us on our way, we don't have a car right now so we had to wait an hour for a cab.
We are home now and I just feel so lost. So empty. Part of me says to forget about it because I couldn't be that attached so early on. The sane part of me knows better. And part of me says hey it wasn't time, just accept it and move on. But I can't just do that, either.
I feel so confused. So hurt. So.....
Someone please help me shed some light on this. I know I couldnt have done anything different. I know it was no one's fault.
Anyone who has gone through this, please help me with how you felt, how long it has been since you had one, how you feel now, how you have dealt/are dealing with it. Anything else that you can share. Anything is a help.
My name is Jennifer, I am 30, and my husband and I started ttc in November. It was a whirlwind ride. I had all the symptoms. All the signs. I got on a great multi vitamin, revamped my entire diet, and my doctors said I was a model patient. They said it was refreshing to see someone care so much and work so hard. Well, I did. We wanted this baby. We were so excited.
Even as of this morning and afternoon, my husband and I were laughing over my strange cravings, oogling all the changes in my body (Oh, the list was long) etc. This afternoon I went to the e.r. with shortness of breath (which I have had for a month anyway) and a slight discomfort in my belly. No one was worried. Not me, not my husband, my best friend (and mother of 3). We thought they would say....well, really anything other than what they said.
A long night into the wee hours of the morning and the doctor came in and said, great news! Nothing's wrong and you're not pregnant!
Wait, what?
He went on to explain I "just miscarried " and he would send me on my way soon. He came back in with a smile on his face like 30 mins later and actually asked me if I was feeling better.
He went us on our way, we don't have a car right now so we had to wait an hour for a cab.
We are home now and I just feel so lost. So empty. Part of me says to forget about it because I couldn't be that attached so early on. The sane part of me knows better. And part of me says hey it wasn't time, just accept it and move on. But I can't just do that, either.
I feel so confused. So hurt. So.....
Someone please help me shed some light on this. I know I couldnt have done anything different. I know it was no one's fault.
Anyone who has gone through this, please help me with how you felt, how long it has been since you had one, how you feel now, how you have dealt/are dealing with it. Anything else that you can share. Anything is a help.
I hope there will be some more than firm words written to that hospital regarding the doctor!
