Thanks for the replies, it feels so much better knowing that others are going through similar to me, should have joined ages ago really!
After no sleep at all I have decided to phone today and speak try and speak to my consultant, they couldn't get me in his clinic yesterday so had to see someone else, if he agrees that I am not to take anymore clomid then I will have to go with it and just wait 18 months for IVF. As for this month then I am just going to carry on TTC, I had 4 last month and BFN so would hate myself if I didn't try. I know a multiple pregnancy wouldn't be a walk in the park but after 4 years of waiting I would be over the moon.
Will keep you posted.
I just wanted to give you some of my thoughts....
I got pregnant with my twins when my oldest was 18 months. We tried for one month and got pregnant. We were shocked to learn I was carring two babies!!!! I was 26, and was not using any type of aide, and there are no twins in our family. I now have 3 beautiful boys who are under 2.5 years of each other.
Having multiples isn't all hospitals and risks. I carried my twins for 38 weeks and they were born via (scheduled) c-section at almost 7 pounds each! They came home with me and continue to thrive! They were so happy in there (me
), I never went on bedrest, was able to continue to care for my 2 year old, and finally had to kick them out!!
Sure, having more than one baby increases risks, but my twins are both developmentally on track, actually ahead in many areas. My oldest, who was a singleton, is Austic, and developmentally delayed. His brothers are actually ahead of him in many ways.
I believe it is all relative. Being a mom (or parent) is hard. It is hard with 1 child, and it is hard with 3. My husband and I laugh because people always look at us and say "I dont know how you do it", or "I can't complain about one being hard, you had twins", etc. We always tell them that we thought one was just as hard as two. It is all you know, and you do what you have to do, you know?
Sorry for the rant...... but I will tell you a secret. After trying for 6 months for baby #4 to complete our family.....I just stared clomid. I would be secretly estatic if I had multiples again. I would be equally thankful for one baby too, but the miracle is multiples is such an amazing thing. I feel so blessed!!