Nursejamie I'm sorry you're feeling down.
I used to cry every month when af arrived, often for a few days and it was just so draining. I think the reason I have been better lately is that I realized that I can't make ttc be all that I am. I was putting off things waiting to get pregnant which I realize now is just silly. Yes it's still on my mind every day but I am making am effort to not let it control my life and it is helping. I think I've also finally accepted the fact that it will happen when it happens and I have no control over it.
I like the way you think! I have been putting things off due to ttc as well. Which I need to stop doing! Having no control over getting pregnant is so true! There are only so many things you can do to "help"...but in the end...it's out of our control. I've been realizing this lately as well.
There's a song that has been helping me through all this. It's called "Lay it Down" by Jaci Velasquez She's a christian singer that I grew up listening to. Here it is if any of you want to listen to it. I listen to it all the time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mvbL5YmWv1c