heading to the Drs, see if its a BFP and or if the infection/mirena did damage. I am so NERVOUS!!!
2:15pm, I am back and no good news AT ALL. BFN, and my cervical cancer came back most likely, its pretty big, the spot. I have been, pricked, prodded and squeezed. 6 tubes of blood, an abdominal ultrasound, the internal pelvic they are going to do in 2 weeks, I need another biopsy and I need to journal all I consume, weigh myself daily and no estrogen anything, no soy, and no babies until they know that it isnt malignant or if so that it is gone. I went through this with my last pregnancy and had to have a cone biopsy done after cryo at 10 weeks pp didnt work. they actually cored it all out then and it was gone and my cervix showed no signs that it ever happened and my blood work has been good until now...7 yrs later. One of the 3 doctors, not sure which one said to test again on Friday and again on Monday and she said if it is positive to call immediately so I can be seen same day and we can figure it out. I guess she needs to have plans A through F taken care of. I told DH and he is trying to be my rock, my family is upset, they are looking at me like I am dead...we don't even know what it is yet. But I get why they are being this way considering all that I went through before. I wonder though if it popped up because I am pregnant and not because of the BCP...
In 2 weeks it popped up, I start BCP and pop! So estrogen is not something I can do obviously. I am so scared and sick and sad. I may never be able to have another baby, I may not be able to give my DH a baby. My friend died last year of cervical cancer, she didnt catch it in time and it spreads VERY fast. I atleast caught this right away, I will be careful and be healthy and try and fight. I have a gut feeling its malignant again, I will have it removed and do what they tell me. I want another baby but the baby I have needs me and I will accept what ever happens and we will be okay. I just can't believe this has happened.