Things I cannot say out loud....

[Natsku]

mmm battered mars bars *drools*

Colonoscopy next week

 

[Lettuce]

A pizza supper! Yas.

I think the worse thing I've ever eaten is sausage roll on a roll...

Sorry to hear that Nats, but at least not surgery! X

 

[Natsku]

I could really go for some nice greasy food right now

 

[tanya]

Dh worked up in Glasgow once and had a sausage wrapped in kebab meat battered and deep fried! I hunted for ages to find one when I went up but never did

 

[Eliza_V]

Colonoscopy isn't too bad Nats, I've had both that and a Sigmoidoscopy IMO, the worst part of it is the laxatives you take beforehand (but that's obviously over fairly quickly) and the funniest part of it is all that air they've pumped into you has to come back out On the bright side, it's clean air, so it doesn't smell!

Jen, please sleep for your Mummy! Poor Lettuce needs a break!

Broken.. that woman on the bus sounded awful. Don't worry about it, you wont have to see her again

DH: Just grow up. Seriously, you're 30 next week. You're making me feel sick again as when I get angry, that's how my body automatically reacts. I don't want to get how I was before. Seriously, just grow the fuck up!

PND: Please go away. I know it's hard to do it when DH is there making things worse and dragging you back down when you're trying your hardest to not spiral, but just please, go away. I want to be able to leave the house again (other than when i drag me and LO out for her swimming lesson and one baby group, purely because they've been paid for in advance) and not add borderline agoraphobia to my list of current ailments.

 

[Natsku]

I had one done last year, hated it, but this time they'll sedate me so shouldn't be so bad.

 

[Lettuce]

oh vixie, your DH needs a swift kick in the goolies!

 

[tanya]

Good luck nats!
Vixie- give your dh a smack and tell him what he's doing to you.
The not going out thing I totally understand, I struggle with social situations, I don't understand how they work, I know I need to make friends but am never sure how. I force myself to go to baby group most weeks and visit my mil far too often but I lived with her for about 9 years so I don't have to try to be something I'm not around her.
I dont know what wrong with me, I don't know how to talk to people so I don't, there's a nice lady at baby group with a little boy the same age as Flynn, I want to invite them round for a coffee and for the babies to play but don't know how without sounding like a creepy stalker I feel bad coz she always comes over and starts a convo ad we can chat fine but I'm confused how to ask.
If I'm out on my own with Flynn (which doesn't happen that often) I don't speak to anyone except him, I get anxious that people are talking about me and judging my clothes/baby/parenting/buggy etc etc
I've pretty much always been the same and I've tried to change a few times and failed, only friend I managed to make was a woman I worked with who was pregnant at the same time as me, we still meet up occasionally and she actually understands how hard it is for me, she doesn't expect me to visit all the time and is happy with once a month or so and knows to give me plenty of warnig to prepare coz I don't like changes in my routine ever.

A few people have told me they think I'm autistic lol

 

[Fergie]

To all the ladies here

Oohh i've never had a deep fried marsbar, where on earth do you get them ??. The weirdest thing i eat is a pork sausage roll dipped in lentil soup . Sounds totally manky but it's good ... honest

Boo mummy loves you so much and i'm sorry truly sorry i called you Zara. I know you're your own person, but there's been a couple of times lately that i've sat and wondered what she would have been like. Whether you and her would look the same, have the same easy going nature, if she would have my stubborn streak too. I feel so guilty afterwards and OH i know it's okay to wonder what she would have been like, but i still feel like shit for doing it.

It's been a hard few weeks but on the plus side we are waiting for the paperwork coming through for our wee farm cottage . It's only a rental but it's the hell out of here . Fingers crossed the council don't piss about with the paperwork.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Ooooo, where are you moving Fergie?

 

[Fergie]

My OHs best friend owns a farm about 5 mins up the road. He's just built his own house and said we could have his old one, but when put in for planning permission he changed the use of the cottage to non residential and now it's to be changed back. It's still in my home village but at least it's not living down here

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Yay

 

[Natsku]

Ooo yay that sounds nice!

 

[BabyBoo36]

Fergie, I adore the name Kayleigh, and am humming the Marillion song now! Pud's fave song is "Lavender" by Marillion - takes after her rock chick Mum!

 

[Fergie]

Thanks Boo. The OH picked her name ... well i say picked, it was the only one we agreed on and he thought of it first but i got first say in her middle name Jean. She's named after me (Leigh) my nanna and her gran (OHs mum) Jean.

This is Kayleigh Boos fav song. https://youtu.be/pqmTMiIMG74 I'm rather chuffed with it. She hits the table along with the drumbeat. The OH reckons she's gonna play the drums like me, i think it secretly peeves him as he's the musician in the family .

This is however my own personal choice of song i'd rather hear her attempt
https://youtu.be/SBjQ9tuuTJQ

 

[Natsku]

She has good taste

 

[Fergie]

How are you feeling Nats ?

 

[Natsku]

A little tipsy

I actually feel pretty healthy and Maria comes home tomorrow so all is good.

And I've made an appointment with the hairdresser for next week, I'm going to drastically change my hair to celebrate my new life - any ideas? I have no freaking idea what to do with my hair, I just want it a lot shorter (its very long right now)

 

[Fergie]

A haircut is as good as a change !!

I chopped mine off when i hit 30. Granted the first is an OLD piccy, but you get the gist. It was long enough i could sit on it and went from that to the short one

Best thing i ever did. You just do whatever makes you happy . I'm glad things are getting better for you

 

[Natsku]

I'm scared of making a change but I think its necessary.

Your hair suits you