Things I cannot say out loud....

[Spunky]

To all my friends who keep saying I will have another one, despite everything I have been through: "NO I am not having another baby, my body can't cope with carrying another baby let alone giving birth to one and we don't have enough money. STOP saying "oh you'll have another" and upsetting me cos I MENTALLY AND PHYSICALY CAN'T SO PISS OFF!"

To my so called "friend" - Yes I know you had the perfect pregnancy and the perfect, painless birth (apprnatley) with no tears or stitches or anything but stop rubbing it in my face - I feel like I have missed the first 8 weeks of my babies life because of what happened at my birth so just shut up about how perfect your birth was - you only needed to tell me once and not remind me every time we talk!"

To my hubby - "I love you loads but please understand how I feel about how I worry about how you might find someone else cos what's happened to me...don't just assume I'm ok just because I'm not crying all the time. I'm NOT Ok and looking after LO every day while your at work and I'm in pain is HARD. I need hugging - lots!"

OMG just read some of your previous posts about your birth/recovery. You are such a trooper, you should be proud of yourself and your family should bve too. I wouldn't have another if i had your experience either!!!

 

[stillinshock]

big hugs to everyone can so relate to nealry every post.....keeping me sain!! x

 

[cowboys angel]

Lyla, you've been awake for 12 hours. You are exhausted, can't even hold your head up! I gave you something for your teeth. Yes I think you're very cute when you play with your feet but I swear to god if you don't stop screaming and panicking every time I try to put you to bed and/or rock you and sleep soon, I am putting you up for adoption!!!!!!!

Also why the fuck are you blowing bubbles against my shoulder??

 

[MizzDeeDee]

to all

BabyBoo, extra hugs to you. I'm sorry you have to deal with that. We were told our LO would likely have some sort of birth defect, because of her umbilical cord deformity. We refused to do the amniocentesis, and I took a bit of crap for that. I absolutely would not do it though, and the specialist agreed with me. But there were some upset people over that. They thought I should do it so I would know if "something was wrong with her" and terminate "before I got too attached."

To you and babyboo....

No one should be giving you shit anyway...your choice....

What a bunch of assholes.

 

[Kalah]

SIL actually said did we not want to "start again" so we could "have a normal one".......just one of the many reasons I hate her guts.

Wow that is such an insensitive and just plain mean thing to say. I mean for one thing possible bladder issues is so not that bad at all! Do they not realize it could have been so much worse and they should just be happy for you that she doesn't have more problems?!

 

[Kalah]

I've got a crush on my neighbor lol oops!
No idea if he's interested in me or not though, but I get those butterfly tingly feelings when I'm around him and I haven't felt that in a long time so I'm just enjoying it!

 

[MizzDeeDee]

I've got a crush on my neighbor lol oops!
No idea if he's interested in me or not though, but I get those butterfly tingly feelings when I'm around him and I haven't felt that in a long time so I'm just enjoying it!

Like whoa. I was all like, " Isn't she married?" ... then I saw that you're single. When did that happen?

<<nosy.

 

[pinklightbulb]

To this cold weather: Feck off it's meant to be spring time dammit!!!

 

[Kalah]

I've got a crush on my neighbor lol oops!
No idea if he's interested in me or not though, but I get those butterfly tingly feelings when I'm around him and I haven't felt that in a long time so I'm just enjoying it!

Like whoa. I was all like, " Isn't she married?" ... then I saw that you're single. When did that happen?

<<nosy.

Yeah we broke up in August and I flew back to missouri two weeks ago, yay!
It's weird I didn't actually intend to get interested in anyone but I guess things like that just happen sometimes. I'm not acting on it yet but it's fun having that "crush" feeling and excitement

 

[MizzDeeDee]

I've got a crush on my neighbor lol oops!
No idea if he's interested in me or not though, but I get those butterfly tingly feelings when I'm around him and I haven't felt that in a long time so I'm just enjoying it!

Like whoa. I was all like, " Isn't she married?" ... then I saw that you're single. When did that happen?

<<nosy.

Yeah we broke up in August and I flew back to missouri two weeks ago, yay!
It's weird I didn't actually intend to get interested in anyone but I guess things like that just happen sometimes. I'm not acting on it yet but it's fun having that "crush" feeling and excitement

Yay! I bet it is exciting! It's okay to have a little crush...nothing wrong with a little flirting either.





Dad- I can't believe you sent me back a text message saying "wOrd".... so funny because you don't know what that means.. you're 67... made me laugh so hard.

 

[keeks1987]

Ethan - please sleep in your Moses basket. You sleep in it for daddy. And for me during the day. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm creating a rod for my own back letting you sleep with me.

Mike - thank you for not being mad when a glass of wine at the pub with an upset friend turned into a bottle.... and 2 pitchers of cocktails. You're right, I did need to blow off some steam.

To me - the above drinks do not make me a lush. Or a bad mom for leaving Ethan. He was with his dad. Also, you sobered up pretty quickly after Ethan was sick all over you. Twice. Hence why your poorly baby is sksleeping on your chest.

MIL - not seeing Ethan since last Tuesday is not a particularly long time to not see him. I Don't like people. Calm down. We'll see you tomorrow. I'll be wearing Ethan so you can't walk away with him again. Muwahaha

 

[Kalah]

I've got a crush on my neighbor lol oops!
No idea if he's interested in me or not though, but I get those butterfly tingly feelings when I'm around him and I haven't felt that in a long time so I'm just enjoying it!

Like whoa. I was all like, " Isn't she married?" ... then I saw that you're single. When did that happen?

<<nosy.

Yeah we broke up in August and I flew back to missouri two weeks ago, yay!
It's weird I didn't actually intend to get interested in anyone but I guess things like that just happen sometimes. I'm not acting on it yet but it's fun having that "crush" feeling and excitement

Yay! I bet it is exciting! It's okay to have a little crush...nothing wrong with a little flirting either.





Dad- I can't believe you sent me back a text message saying "wOrd".... so funny because you don't know what that means.. you're 67... made me laugh so hard.

WORD -

 

[Lettuce]

Word... cool grandad...

 

[Ozzieshunni]

My dad would do something like that

EX Husband: YOU ARE THE BIGGEST DEADBEAT IN THE WORLD! I fear for your baby, I really do. You sicken me with the way you treat your wife (my friend). I hope she leaves you. She's already considering it. You fuck up everything you touch. At least if she leaves, you won't fuck up this child I HATE YOU! I'm so glad I left and fuck you for telling people I changed. BULLSHIT! You sat on your ass all day and played video games. It's no wonder I left you! You should have seen it coming. By the way, my DH is 100000000000000000000 times a better father than you will ever be!

 

[Lettuce]

You ex husband married your friend?!! Or did you become friends afterwards? sorry, so nosey. He sounds like an ass anyway.

DD... Im sorry for getting mad last night. I know it's not your fault, but waking up at 1am laughing is not funny! Xx

 

[Ozzieshunni]

He married the friend that introduced us. He manipulated her with a bunch of bullshit. She's seeing how much of an asshole he is now. I really fear for her and that baby. She's going to be doing it totally alone once he realizes it isn't all unicorns and rainbows.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Or even worse, he'll play devoted daddy around others and slack off at home.

 

[Lettuce]

Oh that is worse! Poor girl. sometimes you're better going it alone!

 

[MizzDeeDee]

Or even worse, he'll play devoted daddy around others and slack off at home.

Sounds like a real winner.

 

[MizzDeeDee]

Oh baby: Did you really have to cry three separate times when I tried to hand you to your dad this morning? Did you really have to look at him and cry? I thought we were over that. Your poor dad said "Bye baby that hates me."

Just let Dad hold you for a few moments....you're his little girl and you needed a bottle!