i came on here to digitally scream out loud....
i am hurt and in pain and i want to stop feeling like this....
other half and i have been together since 2004...we are not married
we are not the perfect couple
we are yet to have our rainbow
he has three boys....
in 2011 i started feelin tired and found out we had our first ever bfp
i was hypertensive throughout and she was stillborn...(feb 2012)
ever since the lost i dont feel whole..i constantly feel pain...and ever since then we have been seriously trying with no success...
i dont know why something will be given and then taken away..ya know
she was the perfect gift..his first daughter and my first child now in a grave.
now i have lost interest in the relationship and i met another guy who i adore to the point like yeah...now this is someone i can walk down aisle to meet...
he is fun to be with...he makes me feel on ....
after i have fallen in love and we made love which was the best love making experience i ever had....wow...
the ultimate heartbreaker comes.....he told he is married....
why didnt he tell me this before so i wouldnt fall in love ...
we broke it off for a while but i couldnt help myself we decided to still c each other mutually more for my benefit cause i have gotten so attached to him..he is like my living pillow..
it gets worse ...he told he had five girl babies with this one woman in the beginning who i now know is his wife who is expecting baby 6
i know its a happy time and i should be happy for him but i am angry....
why does one woman get to have six and there are some like me who cant even get one to carry home...
and it gets even worse....other half first son (age 18) is expecting his first child with girlfriend (age 17) they both have no jobs...
there are not one but two first time preggies right in my cubicle in my job....
so all i hear whole day is about baby baby..
it gets even more worse my only sister is most likely preggy with her first as well
oh dear GOD help me!
help us all....
i am hurt and in pain and i want to stop feeling like this....
other half and i have been together since 2004...we are not married
we are not the perfect couple
we are yet to have our rainbow
he has three boys....
in 2011 i started feelin tired and found out we had our first ever bfp
i was hypertensive throughout and she was stillborn...(feb 2012)
ever since the lost i dont feel whole..i constantly feel pain...and ever since then we have been seriously trying with no success...
i dont know why something will be given and then taken away..ya know
she was the perfect gift..his first daughter and my first child now in a grave.
now i have lost interest in the relationship and i met another guy who i adore to the point like yeah...now this is someone i can walk down aisle to meet...
he is fun to be with...he makes me feel on ....
after i have fallen in love and we made love which was the best love making experience i ever had....wow...
the ultimate heartbreaker comes.....he told he is married....
why didnt he tell me this before so i wouldnt fall in love ...
we broke it off for a while but i couldnt help myself we decided to still c each other mutually more for my benefit cause i have gotten so attached to him..he is like my living pillow..
it gets worse ...he told he had five girl babies with this one woman in the beginning who i now know is his wife who is expecting baby 6
i know its a happy time and i should be happy for him but i am angry....
why does one woman get to have six and there are some like me who cant even get one to carry home...
and it gets even worse....other half first son (age 18) is expecting his first child with girlfriend (age 17) they both have no jobs...
there are not one but two first time preggies right in my cubicle in my job....
so all i hear whole day is about baby baby..
it gets even more worse my only sister is most likely preggy with her first as well
oh dear GOD help me!
help us all....