amotherslove
MamaToLilyLucyAndLila<3
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i posted this is the miscarriage section too.. i dunno where i fit.. i was just hitting 12 weeks.. i dont know when second tri starts.. and my baby.. is a baby.. and.. god i dont know..
this morning before my class i went to the washroom, and when i wiped there was a bit of brown discharge... honestly.. i didn't even think it was cause for panic logically.. but emotionally i lost it so my mother and i went to the hospital... after a transvaginal US, abdominal US and bloodwork, they have confirmed that my baby has no heartbeat and my hcg is low.. hasn;t grown since my last scan which was at 10weeks.. they told me my options.. said i could wait to see if she passes naturally.. or take a pill to open the cervix.. or have a dnc... i'm.. wrecked.
i know this doesn';t mean anything to those who CAN have other kids. it's just as rough, because ut's THAT baby... but.. the man who got me pregnant.. the love of my life.. has left me.. i can't try again.. i wanted this so bad.. my cousin is due the same date as me.. my friend is due around then as well.. everyone around me has babies and is pregnant.. and why me? why? i did everything right.. i don't understand.. my baby is inside of me.. dead... and i'm just waiting to expell her? the hospital gave me a container to put her in if i wish to bury her... it looks like a tub of icecream.. this is all so morbid... i want to be sick everywhere...
this morning before my class i went to the washroom, and when i wiped there was a bit of brown discharge... honestly.. i didn't even think it was cause for panic logically.. but emotionally i lost it so my mother and i went to the hospital... after a transvaginal US, abdominal US and bloodwork, they have confirmed that my baby has no heartbeat and my hcg is low.. hasn;t grown since my last scan which was at 10weeks.. they told me my options.. said i could wait to see if she passes naturally.. or take a pill to open the cervix.. or have a dnc... i'm.. wrecked.
i know this doesn';t mean anything to those who CAN have other kids. it's just as rough, because ut's THAT baby... but.. the man who got me pregnant.. the love of my life.. has left me.. i can't try again.. i wanted this so bad.. my cousin is due the same date as me.. my friend is due around then as well.. everyone around me has babies and is pregnant.. and why me? why? i did everything right.. i don't understand.. my baby is inside of me.. dead... and i'm just waiting to expell her? the hospital gave me a container to put her in if i wish to bury her... it looks like a tub of icecream.. this is all so morbid... i want to be sick everywhere...