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[psychochick]

:wave: Hi ladies! I've missed you! I hope all of you are doing well.

I'm sorry for my long absence. I promise it wasn't intentional. I'm CD15 of cycle #5 ow. I had bloodwork done last week and on Sunday I had an ultrasound. I will go to see the doctor for the results tonight.

I got my hands on a clearblue opk kit. I started it on CD13 and got a negative open circle result. Yesterday on CD14 I got a flashing smiley. This morning CD15 I got an error, so I'm not actually sure how the test should be read.

I thought I would post a picture of the three tests to see if anyone has any insight. (the bottom is CD13, middle is CD14 and top is today)

I've missed being here and reading all of your updates!

I was wondering how you were doing I guess you were on a TTC break last cycle. I wonder if it's error because the control line is too faint? I've never ever had an error before on the digital OPK but the lines indicate that you were a definite positive on CD15. Time to BD

 

[lvksa]

That looks pretty darn close to a positive! A word from the wise, always test from a sample, that way if you have an error you can test again right away!

AFM: spotting has stopped! Barely visible brown marks when I wipe, that's it. I'm calling it a crisis averted. Two days until AF though, and I'm on edge. I'm hoping this is it... Temps just gotta stay up tomorrow!

I tested from a sample, but threw it before the error symbol came up . Won't do that again

fingers crossed for you

 

[lvksa]

I was wondering how you were doing I guess you were on a TTC break last cycle. I wonder if it's error because the control line is too faint? I've never ever had an error before on the digital OPK but the lines indicate that you were a definite positive on CD15. Time to BD

Had a break simply because my husband was out of the country .
I think the error was that there was too little urine when it tried to read the test. I think it took too long for the dye to show up and the device read it as an error.
I'm happy to hear that it looks so positive! I will do another test when I go home from work today I think.

 

[MagicDance]

Sorry to hear that psychochick..all the best for next cycle.

Hey lvksa.. good luck receiving all your results. Agreed looking positive on opk.
I had a break from opks this cycle and now I wish I hadnt haha!

 

[ritterknitter]

Psychochick- I'm sorry to hear your news. I am also one to worry about what others have gone through, and (after much anxiety) I've learned to remind myself that what was one person's struggle does not mean that it will happen to you. Sure, you'll have your own hurdles, but it should not deter you from something you clearly want so badly. Although I must agree with the "wait why am I rushing?" Mindset... Some days I want to be pregnant so bad and other days I feel like I could just NTNP just fine.

Abe- FX for you!! How exciting, even if it's confusing... I often find myself in the bathroom checking various orafices saying "WTF I thought it was supposed to get CREAMIER!!" This is the first cycle I am TTC and I've noticed CM before but never charted it, let alone dug around for it! Here's to symptoms getting clearer for both of us!

AFM, I am CD25- in the TWW. AF is due on Boxing Day, and I honestly would fall off my chair if I fell pregnant this month. I just don't "feel" pregnant. I feel like a raging b*tch with hormone issues. I can't wait til AF comes again so I can start the BD week! Hopefully we will be in our new house by then! Otherwise I'll have to BD while we are staying at my mother in law's... *shudder*.. I love my MIL like she is my own mother... But sexy time in someone else's house is just "ick" for me.. FX we will close on the house before then!

 

[beemeck]

hi girls!

welcome new ladies so glad to have more joining! and welcome BACK lvska!

I want to start off by saying that my thoughts are with you psy! I'm so sorry that you experienced such a close call. I hope you are doing well

GL Ab - looking good with your temps still high. keeping my fingers crossed for you....

Les - almost time to get down with BDing!

magic - where are you in your cycle?? sending you baby dust!

super - where are you? I miss you! Even though I don't always have time to comment, I'm always lurking

I'm just hanging out at 7dpo. Not much to report. I've pretty much given up hope at getting pregnant on my own now and if I do get a BFP it will be a big surprise. After falling pregnant our first go at it, I started back TTC thinking I was FOR SURE pregnant every month. After a few months of that, it went directly to always feeling for sure NOT pregnant and that's been accurate. I don't even test anymore. Just really takes a toll and I'm so ready to get some help. I have a PCP appt in Jan and my yearly pap Feb 4, so I will beg for help at those appts

hope everyone is getting ready for the holidays. I'm so excited for friends and family coming into town and time off work!

 

[abennion]

Well ladies, 12DPO, temps this morning was still at 98.3 (for the third day in a row). I can safely say this has never happened before on our journey of TTC. AF is due tomorrow though, and she feels like she's coming, so we'll see. Still no more spotting. I'm still waiting for my cheapies to get here! I'll let you know if there are any updates, but I'm really hoping this is it!

 

[MsH15]

Big O is today for us... So Lots of Bd'ing after work *Fingers Crossed* Yearly well woman scheduled for next week so we will either have GREAT News or will be asking for help. 2 yrs trying on our own and 15+yrs together not trying/not preventing with no surprises. So one way or another we will get some information and answers for the beginning of the New Year... Just praying my body has healed completely after the ectopic and ready for the real deal. Hey, 30 lbs down and counting and feeling great.

Lots of Love and Baby Dust to all of you lovely ladies

 

[beemeck]

Big O is today for us... So Lots of Bd'ing after work *Fingers Crossed* Yearly well woman scheduled for next week so we will either have GREAT News or will be asking for help. 2 yrs trying on our own and 15+yrs together not trying/not preventing with no surprises. So one way or another we will get some information and answers for the beginning of the New Year... Just praying my body has healed completely after the ectopic and ready for the real deal. Hey, 30 lbs down and counting and feeling great.

Lots of Love and Baby Dust to all of you lovely ladies

Ms - how long ago was your ectopic? sorry if you already mentioned. I had a cervical ectopic though so the baby implanted in my cervix. I almost had to have a full hysterectomy but it was miraculously avoided, so all in all I didn't lose anything. But I have been unable to get pregnant since - the ectopic was our first try! So I just wanted to see what your experience post ectopic has been.

my periods remained the same - super regular beginning from 29 days after the loss of the baby. hormone panel checked out. But nothing in 7 months.

 

[MsH15]

Big O is today for us... So Lots of Bd'ing after work *Fingers Crossed* Yearly well woman scheduled for next week so we will either have GREAT News or will be asking for help. 2 yrs trying on our own and 15+yrs together not trying/not preventing with no surprises. So one way or another we will get some information and answers for the beginning of the New Year... Just praying my body has healed completely after the ectopic and ready for the real deal. Hey, 30 lbs down and counting and feeling great.

Lots of Love and Baby Dust to all of you lovely ladies

Ms - how long ago was your ectopic? sorry if you already mentioned. I had a cervical ectopic though so the baby implanted in my cervix. I almost had to have a full hysterectomy but it was miraculously avoided, so all in all I didn't lose anything. But I have been unable to get pregnant since - the ectopic was our first try! So I just wanted to see what your experience post ectopic has been.

my periods remained the same - super regular beginning from 29 days after the loss of the baby. hormone panel checked out. But nothing in 7 months.

beemeck - hey there, I'm sorry to hear about your ectopic. They def are not anything I would wish on anyone, not even my worst enemy. The emotional toll is horrible especially when you REALLY want it. My ectopic was just about 2 yrs ago. I did not fit any of the norms as I didn't have any pain or bleeding (I had two doc's on the case who actually contacted some "friends" in Tucson and Michigan for advice on my case. soooo much fun *rolls eyes*) We didn't find out it was an ectopic until our first ultrasound. It was also our first pregnancy in almost 16 yrs together. Needless to say since I didn't fit the norms it was a very long process because the doc's really wanted to save my tube since we do not have children yet and I am otherwise healthy as a horse. After two months of endless blood work and several doses of methotrexate, they ended up having to remove my right tube. Within about 4 months I gained so much weight. I was not allowed to do anything too physical since they didn't want to tube rupture. I was already down due to the ectopic and then the weight gain just added to that. My periods took a while to regulate again so I went to acupuncture. It really helped even if only to relieve stress. And my acupuncturist is the best, she is so thorough and made sure I understood everything. She also referred me to an OB/GYN friend who specializes in fertility so my well woman is scheduled with her. Anyways - periods are back to clock work like before the ectopic, but still no luck with another chance YET!!!... Just enjoying the BD'ing and saying lots of prayers.

 

[lesondemavie]

Hi all, Pretty sure I O'd sometime yesterday, but no BDing. We were both just so exhausted after running around/hosting my SIL and brother. They left this am, but we'll see them again when we head down to the family on Thursday. Work was good...my boss basically told me at my eval today that the director of training position is mine once we have the staff to restructure a bit...and I've been working my tail off putting in my own time all year carving out that position for myself. Still I just feel a bit down all around. Not sure if it's because I feel like we messed up the plan yesterday, or if it's that we're coming up on 6 cycles which is when my PCP said we could go back in for testing (and while I want to go in I'm also terrified), or if it's just that the holidays have been a time when my youngest brother (not the one that just visited) typically ODs or attempts suicide. I just can't shake this overall feeling that something bad is going to happen...so probably the brother thing and unrelated to ttc yea? He's actually been sober for over a year now...so there's hope that we won't spend another holiday in the ER. It's just after a decade of ups and downs it's hard to really trust it...I hope I do one day...just not there yet. I'm sure the feeling will pass. Ugh...so sorry to unload...I know we're all going through a lot...I'll make sure to check back in when I'm feeling better .

FX and the happiest of holidays to all!

 

[Trr]

Oh les- this breaks my heart. I have a brother in treatment right now and I'm always so nervous to have any alcohol or anything out in the house. Even my non alcoholic beer.

I really hope all your hard work pays off.

Love this site for venting.

 

[ritterknitter]

Ms- sorry you're having so much trouble! You seem like a super strong woman. Here's to hoping your time is coming soon!

Les- it's hard having family go through that. I don't have any experience anywhere near that, but I've had to act as a mom to my own mother before when she was in the hospital going through a hard time, so I know how it feels to be walking on egg shells, wondering every time the phone rings if that phone call is what you fear. You've got support here not only for getting preggo but also other stresses!

AFM,
If I'm not pregnant this month, then AF needs to show up and kick these crazy hormones to the curb!
I was an emotional train wreck last night. Had my @$$ handed to me over the phone by a customer at work, and apparently that was the last straw because I spent the next 30 minutes sobbing to a co worker. Normally that kind of thing sucks, but doesn't make me cry. I'm also going through a lot of stress in other areas of my life and I just hope that in the next few days I'll get AF and everything will regulate.... I also feel like being on BCP had been keeping everything in check for the last 11 years and now my body is like "HAHA Let me show you what you've been missing!!!"

Anyone else ever feel like a hormonal train wreck right before AF, and then much MUCH more sane after she arrives?

 

[beemeck]

Big O is today for us... So Lots of Bd'ing after work *Fingers Crossed* Yearly well woman scheduled for next week so we will either have GREAT News or will be asking for help. 2 yrs trying on our own and 15+yrs together not trying/not preventing with no surprises. So one way or another we will get some information and answers for the beginning of the New Year... Just praying my body has healed completely after the ectopic and ready for the real deal. Hey, 30 lbs down and counting and feeling great.

Lots of Love and Baby Dust to all of you lovely ladies

Ms - how long ago was your ectopic? sorry if you already mentioned. I had a cervical ectopic though so the baby implanted in my cervix. I almost had to have a full hysterectomy but it was miraculously avoided, so all in all I didn't lose anything. But I have been unable to get pregnant since - the ectopic was our first try! So I just wanted to see what your experience post ectopic has been.

my periods remained the same - super regular beginning from 29 days after the loss of the baby. hormone panel checked out. But nothing in 7 months.

beemeck - hey there, I'm sorry to hear about your ectopic. They def are not anything I would wish on anyone, not even my worst enemy. The emotional toll is horrible especially when you REALLY want it. My ectopic was just about 2 yrs ago. I did not fit any of the norms as I didn't have any pain or bleeding (I had two doc's on the case who actually contacted some "friends" in Tucson and Michigan for advice on my case. soooo much fun *rolls eyes*) We didn't find out it was an ectopic until our first ultrasound. It was also our first pregnancy in almost 16 yrs together. Needless to say since I didn't fit the norms it was a very long process because the doc's really wanted to save my tube since we do not have children yet and I am otherwise healthy as a horse. After two months of endless blood work and several doses of methotrexate, they ended up having to remove my right tube. Within about 4 months I gained so much weight. I was not allowed to do anything too physical since they didn't want to tube rupture. I was already down due to the ectopic and then the weight gain just added to that. My periods took a while to regulate again so I went to acupuncture. It really helped even if only to relieve stress. And my acupuncturist is the best, she is so thorough and made sure I understood everything. She also referred me to an OB/GYN friend who specializes in fertility so my well woman is scheduled with her. Anyways - periods are back to clock work like before the ectopic, but still no luck with another chance YET!!!... Just enjoying the BD'ing and saying lots of prayers.

thanks love - and so sorry to hear about your experience too! my docs were also consulting with other docs because the last time there was a cervical ectopic in Pittsburgh was 15 years ago that made me feel so on edge! So are you saying you were pregnant for 2 months after finding out it was ectopic?? Sheesh, I thought my process felt long. I was hospitalized immediately upon seeing it was a cervical ectopic and stayed there for a week receiving MTX and preparing for surgery. they also took their good old time because they wanted to to avoid hemorrhaging, but in the end I did before the surgery was scheduled anyway.

I started acupuncture this month too! I really liked it and will continue to do so. But everyone (doctors, acupuncturist) just keeps telling me that everything is fine, everything looks good, etc. Which is frustrating because I just know it's not. I dunno, maybe I'm wrong ... or just desperate for help! Glad you are in with a great ob/gyn. I might switch too .... I really loved mine because ultimately they saved my life (and my uterus!) but they are too laid back now. Or I'm too high strung But when you are ready for a baby, you're ready! I was ready a year ago so now I'm so far beyond ready it's not funny..... glad you joined and I'm hoping that your time has come!

 

[MsH15]

Big O is today for us... So Lots of Bd'ing after work *Fingers Crossed* Yearly well woman scheduled for next week so we will either have GREAT News or will be asking for help. 2 yrs trying on our own and 15+yrs together not trying/not preventing with no surprises. So one way or another we will get some information and answers for the beginning of the New Year... Just praying my body has healed completely after the ectopic and ready for the real deal. Hey, 30 lbs down and counting and feeling great.

Lots of Love and Baby Dust to all of you lovely ladies

Ms - how long ago was your ectopic? sorry if you already mentioned. I had a cervical ectopic though so the baby implanted in my cervix. I almost had to have a full hysterectomy but it was miraculously avoided, so all in all I didn't lose anything. But I have been unable to get pregnant since - the ectopic was our first try! So I just wanted to see what your experience post ectopic has been.

my periods remained the same - super regular beginning from 29 days after the loss of the baby. hormone panel checked out. But nothing in 7 months.

beemeck - hey there, I'm sorry to hear about your ectopic. They def are not anything I would wish on anyone, not even my worst enemy. The emotional toll is horrible especially when you REALLY want it. My ectopic was just about 2 yrs ago. I did not fit any of the norms as I didn't have any pain or bleeding (I had two doc's on the case who actually contacted some "friends" in Tucson and Michigan for advice on my case. soooo much fun *rolls eyes*) We didn't find out it was an ectopic until our first ultrasound. It was also our first pregnancy in almost 16 yrs together. Needless to say since I didn't fit the norms it was a very long process because the doc's really wanted to save my tube since we do not have children yet and I am otherwise healthy as a horse. After two months of endless blood work and several doses of methotrexate, they ended up having to remove my right tube. Within about 4 months I gained so much weight. I was not allowed to do anything too physical since they didn't want to tube rupture. I was already down due to the ectopic and then the weight gain just added to that. My periods took a while to regulate again so I went to acupuncture. It really helped even if only to relieve stress. And my acupuncturist is the best, she is so thorough and made sure I understood everything. She also referred me to an OB/GYN friend who specializes in fertility so my well woman is scheduled with her. Anyways - periods are back to clock work like before the ectopic, but still no luck with another chance YET!!!... Just enjoying the BD'ing and saying lots of prayers.

thanks love - and so sorry to hear about your experience too! my docs were also consulting with other docs because the last time there was a cervical ectopic in Pittsburgh was 15 years ago that made me feel so on edge! So are you saying you were pregnant for 2 months after finding out it was ectopic?? Sheesh, I thought my process felt long. I was hospitalized immediately upon seeing it was a cervical ectopic and stayed there for a week receiving MTX and preparing for surgery. they also took their good old time because they wanted to to avoid hemorrhaging, but in the end I did before the surgery was scheduled anyway.

I started acupuncture this month too! I really liked it and will continue to do so. But everyone (doctors, acupuncturist) just keeps telling me that everything is fine, everything looks good, etc. Which is frustrating because I just know it's not. I dunno, maybe I'm wrong ... or just desperate for help! Glad you are in with a great ob/gyn. I might switch too .... I really loved mine because ultimately they saved my life (and my uterus!) but they are too laid back now. Or I'm too high strung But when you are ready for a baby, you're ready! I was ready a year ago so now I'm so far beyond ready it's not funny..... glad you joined and I'm hoping that your time has come!

Bee - Yes I was pregnant for two whole months and it was not trying to go anywhere. Apparently my right tube was a comfy home And much like you, EVERYONE who saw me kept saying "Everything looks great, all is well, etc.." and there I was fighting not scream at all of them, "UM NO!!! Obviously everything is NOT great and well!!! " I just felt like the medical professionals who were taking care of me saw the data and facts but so easily forget/overlooked the emotions and fears we were experiencing at the time.. So yup, the data and facts may be great, but sorry folks, I could have been doing a whole better.. lol I also felt like my docs office got way too comfy with me. It was a running joke that they could just give me blank blood work orders because knew all my codes for the panels they needed to run. And the lab techs let me show the trainee's how to draw my blood since after 4 months I had become a pro... smh... But hey we both made it through and thank God for that... It can be sooooo frustrating though. Very glad we crossed paths on here, we seem to have a similar journey and it def helps to have someone who relates. I enjoy spreading baby love and encouragement to other women who actually have to TRY like myself. How great would it be to just think about babies and end up pregnant 10 seconds later like 99.9% of my girl-friends.. lol Oh, I was doing some research on meds since I have this pesky cold and I saw a lot about Mucinex and it being helpful in conception. So out of need and well, curiosity now, I got some this morning and and trying and I must say as far as relieving my cold symptoms, I'm def sold. This stuff works great. If you try it as well, make sure you get Just Mucinex, not the DM or Sinus ones. Nothing with a decongestant. I'll keep you posted otherwise. Baby dust and baby angels coming your way!

Les - I'm so sorry that your feeling down. I understand that anxiety of Christmas' passed. Hang in there. Sending prayers and good vibes your way.

 

[beemeck]

yes, the emotional aspect of most of the docs just isn't there, which I understand but it doesn't make it any easier. My entire practice jokes with me too! I can just call and say it's Brittany and they know lol. I was getting blood drawn every week for over 2 months. how funny that we have that random fact in common lol. It's def been a journey for us both...

in the spirit of discussing new things to try - this thread is full of those! A lot of us are doing red raspberry loose leaf tea which is supposed to help with CM too and lining. I have a ton of CM to begin with, but I do do the tea and have even more now. Also the vitamins - vitex, black cohosh, and maca root for both men and women. You can look all of these up to see what specific things they help with but I'm doing most of them now. Just started the vitamins though.

 

[MsH15]

I really avoid taking meds unless I am on my death bed.. But I have been researching and getting info on Vitamins and natural remedies lately.Not a fan of the oils, all the smells are a lil much for me.. But I am becoming more and more a fan of the natural ways and methods.
Ask your Acupuncturist about ear seeds to promote relaxation and stress relief.. they are simply wonderful :0)

 

[lesondemavie]

Haha ritter, I totally feel like that every time. Estrogen dips a few days after O, and then again just before AF, and it takes feel good neurotransmitters like serotonin and dopamine down with it. Also PMS is the worst after coming off of bcp. Not to mention you're noticing every bump and bubble thinking, "could that mean I'm pg?" FX that you get your BFP, but if not you should feel better after the cramps pass (also worse after bcp).

Ah, just realized, that could also be why I'm feeling down! Forgot I'm probably crashing now right after Oing.

 

[abennion]

So ladies, 13DPO and AF is due today, it's 5:30 and still nothing the latest AF has shown up is 9:00pm the night of AF. Here's hoping! I've also got sore boobies and underarms, and after my 3 hour nap my temp was 98.9. My cervix is high, soft and from what I can tell closed. All good signs but I still fear she's coming. I'm hoping we've got a late implanter and I'll get my BFP tomorrow or the day after at 14-15DPO. Here's hoping this is it!

 

[MsH15]

abennion - Oh my goodness... GL what a great Christmas gift that would be! *fingers crossed*prayers sent*jig danced*good JuJu sent out in the universe*