Crying as I write this. My husband and I made the decision to start TTC earlier in the year but couldn't do anything till I had a regular flow and I needed to go to the OB/GYN. We made the appt, got everything going. I did tons of blood work which found I wasn't ovulating. Doctor prescribed Clomid and I am on the last day of it today. We should be DTD Friday to get prego! HOWEVER, my dear husband decided to break the news to me last night that he has changed his mind and is no longer ready/willing to try to have a baby.
I am devastated! How could he do this to me? Especially since, two weeks ago we had a big blow out about me thinking he was not ready. Which he stated, he was in this just as much as I was. That he was upset that I thought anything different! SO, I apologized and told him I wouldn't bring it up again.... WTF? Now you change your mind? You couldn't tell me this before all the appointments, blood works, stupid pills, and sleepless nights. I was so excited to finally be able to TTC and here I am with the rug ripped out from under me and lay flat on the floor.
He says he's sorry that he had to do this and that he knows it's devastating me. But he just couldn't go through with it because then he'd hate his life and be miserable. I understand his fears about money, it's a logical reason. But this has been here the whole time and it has not changed!!!
What did I do to deserve this???
Sorry I just needed to vent!