Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[MillieTTC868]

Hello everyone new to this thread I feel you ladies on the anxiety and painful journey me and DH has been TTC for almost a year with no success. I've been diagnosed with pcos in 2010 but I don't think nothing serious happen to my tubes or doctor would have told me. I had a stillbirth in 2009 and from since then I haven't had a bfp nothing. im currently 14dpo period was suppose to come yesterday I think and It didn't I don't want to get my hopes up like always but I truly hope this month is the month. I tried the fertilitea this cycle anyone else tried that...


wish everybody baby dust

 

[AlyCon]

Life is so cruel and unfair. I have so much pain built up inside. But I can never show my true feelings. I guess it's a good thing I've perfected my fake smile. Here goes..

 

[MissCassie]

Everyone around me is falling pregnant at the drop of a hat!

But not me! It makes me sad! Especially when people aren't even trying and it just happens!

 

[MillieTTC868]

AlyCon- I know exactly what you mean I do the same thing

MissCassie- I feel the sadness you feel its like the universe isn't on our side

im 2-3days late and still bfn currently 16dpo lastnight my husband ask me if I don't believe in God and that it will happen I do believe in him with all my might but I just breakdown and cry it shouldn't be this hard

 

[DBZ34]

AlyCon- I know exactly what you mean I do the same thing

MissCassie- I feel the sadness you feel its like the universe isn't on our side

im 2-3days late and still bfn currently 16dpo lastnight my husband ask me if I don't believe in God and that it will happen I do believe in him with all my might but I just breakdown and cry it shouldn't be this hard

You know, there are plenty of women who believe in God with all of their heart who are struggling with TTC. In fact there's a whole thread of us on BnB (https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/t...-ladies-ttc-we-can-encourage-one-another.html ). It's taken a while, but there are more than a few success stories on this thread.

One woman had been trying for six years and has just finally been blessed with her first successful pregnancy (with triplets!)...some of us try longer, some less, but at the end we have a testimony and I think the journey has the potential to bring us closer to God.

It has nothing to do with how much faith you have, it has everything to do with God's plan in your life. It's not our timing, it's His timing and sometimes it seems like it's never going to happen..but don't give up! You can do it!

 

[wantbabynow]

I have just found out my sister is pregnant today, she is due on Jan 4th, she's about 3 stones overweight, smokes and only has one tube? I've had tests done nothing found, healthy wtf, she already has one; I cant even have that. I'm not going to any family events on either side of my family anymore, I'm an outcast and a joke - I wont be happy for others, I F**king well want my own baby. I've had enough of "be patient" "you're completely normal" are you trying xxxx. F**k you and your advise. My period is due on Sunday and at the moment I cant stand my husband, who understand f**k all about my feelings "aren't you happy for her?" yes d***head I am but what about me. I can't stand it I wish I really didn't want it as much as I do - I've no faith in ANYTHING, I'm not knocking anyone else's faith but mine has disappeared

 

[lady124]

So, I see my endocrinologyst once every 2 months approximately. My next appointment was scheduled for the end of June. I have just received a letter delaying it to the 8th of August, a whole six weeks later! I feel like crying.

 

[tamithomas]

I come to this thread to send you all the courage in the world as I know this weekend is tough for all of us. We must remind ourselves that this weekend is not an attack on us LTTC'ers but a reminder of what our goal is. At least that's what I've been telling myself to keep sane. Lots of love Ladies

 

[pb921124]

Everyone around me has just had or announce they are pregnant with their second. My dh and I are trying for our first and he wants three... but really all I NEED is one.

I know we haven't been trying that long but I've waited so long to do it the "right" way that I feel like I'm running out of time. I'm so happy for my friends and family around me who are so easily filling out their family, but at the same time its so hard to see a baby without a little pang going off inside me and the doubt creeps in that maybe i'll never be able to have on of my on. It seems so unfair that it comes so easily to some, without them even trying for it, and here I am wishing with all my heart and everything I have for a bfp. While I would love to have three little ones one day, if I could just be preggos with one, I would know that no matter what the future brought with trying for more, at least I had my one.

 

[DBZ34]

Today....Today is so hard.

 

[AlyCon]

Today....Today is so hard.

^This.

 

[Sam10]

I agree. I made the mistake of logging into Facebook. It made me want to delete the entire thing. Of course there was that one friend who had to announce she's pregnant. Sigh. On top of that I do not have a mother of my own to share the day with.

 

[RainbowBaby13]

I agree. I made the mistake of logging into Facebook. It made me want to delete the entire thing. Of course there was that one friend who had to announce she's pregnant. Sigh. On top of that I do not have a mother of my own to share the day with.

 

[RainbowBaby13]

My ttc buddy told me that thru are struggles we still deserve to hear a happy mothers day. So happy mothers day to all of us who are ttc and not have yet conceived are babies


today wasn't hard but as the day went on and I started seeing pictures on Facebook of young moms with their babies and newborn arrivals on here it did make me a little sad because had I not miscarried with my first pregnancy this would have been my second mothers day with my little angel. I just want my little angel and no pregnancy will make me ever forgt about my first angel.

 

[tamithomas]

Today....Today is so hard.

Amen. I was doing okay until I was told to keep my negativity to myself and that no one wants to hear about my infertility issues on a joyful day. Hell to the no, I'm supposed to have a toddler in my house right now but because of a miscarriage I don't. I wished everyone happy Mother's day, I liked everyone's posts on Facebook. How dare anyone tell me to keep my emotions to myself when I support everyone.

Then a bfp anouncment from a drunk party go-er 18 year old.

Needless to say the encouragement I tried to rally myself up with yesterday completely fell flat on my face.

 

[DBZ34]

AlyCon, Sam10, Rainbowbaby-

Tami - WHAT?!? Are you serious? How dare they say that to you!!! I would have been furious!! I AM furious! And if I was you fb friend and saw that, I would have gone off on whoever posted it. Or was it in a private message? Not that it makes it any better. Some people...seriously, who does that? GRRR.


Facebook is the devil. I probably should have just avoided it. I cried. Mostly because Mother's Day was supposed to be the day I told my family that I was going to be a mom of twins and I'm not. And I still haven't quite gotten over it. But then again, I should have a toddler running around and the picture my MIL posted of my SIL (who got pregnant 2 weeks after I did and I found out the week after I mc'd the first time) in the hospital with her daughter right after giving birth kind of broke my heart.

 

[tamithomas]

It was PM thankfully and I did block/delete the person after giving that person a piece of my mind as it wasn't anyone important in my life thankfully. One of those friend of a friend back from high school ordeal. With "friends" like that, you don't need enemies.

I'm so sorry for your loss DB

 

[crayons]

Three days ago sister announces she's having a baby.

Other sister just announces tonight that she's going to have a second baby.

Frickity frick frick.

 

[seanw]

Mothers Day sucked went to work and got told because I didnt "qualify" I didnt get a flower.

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Mothers Day sucked went to work and got told because I didnt "qualify" I didnt get a flower.

that's heartbreaking to hear, I am so sorry hun