Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[AlyCon]

Another BFP blasted across my FB news feed!! And although it stung a little like it always does, this girl and her husband are amazing people and deserve their bundle 100% I can honestly say I am happy for them it's nice to know my infertility hasn't made me completely bitter and incapable of being happy for others. For a minute there I thought I had sunk to that all time low but now I know I haven't

In other news I have to see a psychiatrist because I might be bipolar I've had pretty severe manic mood swings along with depression and eating disorders for years (I was suicidal at one point) but never formally diagnosed with anything because I never went to a psychiatrist. Once I was diagnosed with pcos I just blamed my hormones for all of that but in light of recent events (long story) I have realized that after years of suffering I need to finally seek help for my mental illness. Regardless of what my formal diagnoses turns out to be I don't plan on taking any anti depressants or anti psychotic drugs because of TTC and i just never liked the idea anyway so I really don't know what else there is besides therapy to help me. If anyone has experience with this any and all advice would be greatly appreciated.

I'm glad you are seeking help. I too have a passed with ED and have known several people to be diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. Sadly all of them too the anti depressant root out so on that part I don't have much advice except I wish you the best of luck. TTC is the only thing that keeps me on the root to recovery. Everyday I wake up struggling trying to fight the voice in the back of my head but then I think of our future LO and I think to myself it's more important then letting my ED control my life. Good luck

Thanks! Normally I can deal with my issues but lately I've been going through a lot and things have just gotten out of hand. It's to the point now where the mood swings are keeping me from functioning normally and it's taking a toll on my marriage. I'm already crazy about TTC but to add real mental illness on top of that is too much for my DH to deal with on his own. He's been there for me since the start of all this years ago but it's definitely time to go to a professional before it gets any worse.

 

[Amelia8083]

I'm really irritated at just how much this whole ttc process has aged me. I never realized it before. Had to get my new picture taken for my driver's license before it expired. 3 years ago I looked HAPPY in my picture and now I just look........... tired.

 

[Jett55]

I would get a positive opk on superbowl Sunday hope for bding next to nothin :/

 

[Teach2]

I'm so sick of thinking about TTC. I keep telling myself to stop but I can't it's driving me crazy. I really want to take a break but I know when I'm fertile and it would feel like a waste not to try. I've even considered going back on BCP but really that's just throwing the (lack of) baby out with the bath water! Meanwhile the second baby in as many months has been born into the family.

DH saw my pregnant friends husband the other day, he was telling me about it and said how excited he must be, it broke my heart. He wants a baby so much. This is so mentally draining I need a holiday from my head!

 

[Jett55]

I feel the same I'm finally starting to do stuff that keep my mind off of things especially things like meditation works great for stress relief

 

[cntrygrl]

Why is it when you type in Clomid success stories you just get a bunch of responses of people currently on Clomid and not pregnant. People search Clomid success stories to read of people who have had success getting pregnant with it. Not to read about dozens of women currently taking clomid.

 

[Nazz4]

Why is it when you type in Clomid success stories you just get a bunch of responses of people currently on Clomid and not pregnant. People search Clomid success stories to read of people who have had success getting pregnant with it. Not to read about dozens of women currently taking clomid.

I feel like EVERYTHING is like that, not even just clomid. I think that once people get pregnant they stop posting answers for the rest of us lol... just leave us in the dust.

 

[Fizzyfefe]

Why is it when you type in Clomid success stories you just get a bunch of responses of people currently on Clomid and not pregnant. People search Clomid success stories to read of people who have had success getting pregnant with it. Not to read about dozens of women currently taking clomid.

I feel like EVERYTHING is like that, not even just clomid. I think that once people get pregnant they stop posting answers for the rest of us lol... just leave us in the dust.

There was a point in time when people were getting upset by pregnant women posting their success stories in the TTC forums. Also, the rules state that you can't post BFP announcements in TTC. Maybe you would have better luck looking in the pregnancy forums?

 

[Jett55]

That sad feeling when someone already has a baby and finds out they're having twins wow really? You just had one now ur having 2 more gosh it's upsetting

 

[CakeCottage]

Why did you feel the need to text me and ask if I was pregnant because I said I was ill on Facebook? It really upset me

 

[cntrygrl]

Why is it when you type in Clomid success stories you just get a bunch of responses of people currently on Clomid and not pregnant. People search Clomid success stories to read of people who have had success getting pregnant with it. Not to read about dozens of women currently taking clomid.

I feel like EVERYTHING is like that, not even just clomid. I think that once people get pregnant they stop posting answers for the rest of us lol... just leave us in the dust.

I've tried the other forums as well.... Same thing...

 

[tamithomas]

Gah, being on a forced break is tearing me apart (long story short, main pipe broke, I get easy uti's if we don't wash before and after). Can't get it fixed until the spring when the snow starts melting because we gotta dig outside. Each O that passes I feel like "this could have been the one and we don't even know it." As if TTC hasn't lasted for what feels like a century. An early spring would be awesome, please mother nature? Would that be too much to ask?

 

[Limm]

AF is STILL late, despite BFNs.
Got to wait a fortnight for a blood test. If AF shows before then or the test comes back negative then I might have to have tests done according to my GP.
This on top of clothes not fitting anymore, me feeling more fat than normal, job hunting going terrible, living with parents too long and having no-one outside of here that I can talk to about it all resulted in me bursting into tears earlier.
Doesn't help that my birthday is on Friday and yet again lots of people who I invited are letting me down again for another year. Feel like cancelling the dinner and forgetting this one.

 

[Sunnyleah]

AF is STILL late, despite BFNs.
Got to wait a fortnight for a blood test. If AF shows before then or the test comes back negative then I might have to have tests done according to my GP.
This on top of clothes not fitting anymore, me feeling more fat than normal, job hunting going terrible, living with parents too long and having no-one outside of here that I can talk to about it all resulted in me bursting into tears earlier.
Doesn't help that my birthday is on Friday and yet again lots of people who I invited are letting me down again for another year. Feel like cancelling the dinner and forgetting this one.

I've done some reading since I'm about 5 days late with neg tests. Unusual for me. I've read that two weeks is not that abnormal for a positive test. Also there are rare stories where women are much further along or never get a pos urine test! Good luck . Hopefully we are both in that category of taking longer than typical to show a pos test.

And happy early birthday. When it rains it pours, and little things often hurt us more than normal

I'm hoping that you have a lovely birthday however to decide to spend it!

 

[Limm]

Thank you for your support.

I've cancelled my dinner plans for now because certain people can't make it and I'm not feeling overly cheery about it all. Hopefully my mood will change. Could do with a happy day.

I'm almost 2 weeks late and will be around 4 weeks late by the time of the blood test. Fingers crossed I'll get some answers soon. I don't feel pregnant though (apart from my left boob hurting and a few twinges) and find it hard to imagine myself having a family. Sorry to sound so morbid.

 

[Astridastrid]

AF is STILL late, despite BFNs.
Got to wait a fortnight for a blood test. If AF shows before then or the test comes back negative then I might have to have tests done according to my GP.
This on top of clothes not fitting anymore, me feeling more fat than normal, job hunting going terrible, living with parents too long and having no-one outside of here that I can talk to about it all resulted in me bursting into tears earlier.
Doesn't help that my birthday is on Friday and yet again lots of people who I invited are letting me down again for another year. Feel like cancelling the dinner and forgetting this one.

Awww happy birthday Limm when it comes !

 

[Jett55]

I wish you a bfp for your bday Limm

 

[Twag]

arggghhhhhh

Vent over!

 

[CakeCottage]

Twag be careful as we're not supposed to vent about other BnB members! X

 

[Iwishforababy]

Hi I am new here but i have looked at boards over the last few years, i think its lovely how you are all supportive of one and another and are in the same boat so you understand the feelings etc that coming with TTC. Myself i have been trying for nearly 7 years since i was 25. My husband was 38 when i met him and had a vasectomy which we had reveresed in 2006 but that scarred over so we visited Dr Dawson in Hartlepool in Jan 2011 for a 'redo' as yet nothing has happened. In the meantime i have seen my niece and nephew born then my brother split with the mum, out of my 10 close friends 3 have had children one girl has had 2 in that time and one is pregnant now. I feel so bad as my friends are scared to tell me as they know how long i have been trying, I have 3 stepchildren who live with us aged 24,18 and 17. There mum was the person who suggested my husband have the vasectomy as she didnt want anymore children and now is the mother of a 3 year old from a one night stand. That hurt the most that she could have more children and i cant even have one and as she hasnt paid any CSA for her other 3 i support them going out to work while she sits on benefits. Oh i sound bitter! but i am glad i discovered this thread just to get things off my chest. I dont tell anyone these feelings as i dont want people to think bad of me! We have tried conception XR, fertiliaid, preseed and mixture of zinc and different vitamins through out the years but no sucess.
Anyway thanks for letting me vent and good luck to you all xx