Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[tamithomas]

Man I feel bad my sister who announced her pregnancy on my wedding day ended in ectopic

I've been in your situation. My friend had been doing the one night stand lifestyle for a good 10 years, suddenly he settles down with a girlfriend. They had been together for only 3 months only to find out they were due in 7 months. This was around the time that we had faced our own MC with our first bfp in 3 years. I was furious, but then felt extremely guilt for being furious as it ended int ecto.

This is what kept my sanity together which is what my DH told me "You had every right to feel how you felt, don't let anyone take that away from you. You're not the one who caused her to miscarry so the guilt should not be on your hands. You never wished her any harm. It just happened" And he was right. I still felt guilt non the less but kept that in the back of my head not to feel like I'm the one who made it happen.

 

[Jett55]

Yah I know I can't feel guilty I never wished any harm and things like that happen it's beyond our control. Anywho I hope everyone is doing well today I'm waiting to see if the witch shows.. this cycles been wack for me so waiting to see what happens

 

[ashntony]

Well on top of being overweight, having irregular annovulatory cycles, I now found out that I have stage 1 blood pressure and very poor circulation in my legs.... So I am going to leave these ttc forums for awhile... I don't think I am going to be able to ttc for a few months... Why does it seem that my luck never changes..... I am so done with wanting anything because it never works out for me.....

 

[Jett55]

My mil asked dh if we found out if I'm pregnant yet :/ ugg she's already wantin to buy me stuff let me just say this woman is a nut Job to say the least. So glad dh had to say somethin cuz now she's never going to leave us alone :/

 

[tamithomas]

2 vents for today:

1) Why in bloody blue doesn't "Teen Mom" on MTV provide birth control? The show is supposed to be about the hardship of being a teen mom, not letting them get BFP time and time again?! One bfp during teen years yea, I can understand but doing a show and letting it happen again while you preach that it's about discouraging the act? BS full stop.

2) I feel the worst shame possible right now. I did the worst thing a wife can do after bd'ing which we managed to do last night. DH couldn't finish because his asthma kicked in so what does my brain decide it's time to do? Cry. I basically had a full blown melt down about over all TTC from "why does it have to take so bloody long. Why does human biology make it so that each try has to feel like a century? Why is it so easy for every crack addict and dead beat to conceive yet every person I meet keeps asking me why I don't have kids yet because I'd make a wonderful mother." I'm not ashamed of my feelings, I'm ashamed that I threw a fit over something as lousy as him not finishing knowing we're out for another month and I got overwhelmed on how long a month actually is.

I managed to compose myself after an hour.. I go on Facebook, my friend went through a "lets post lots of cute baby videos" on Facebook phase and I just restarted all over again. Luckily DH didn't take it too hard. I don't want him to feel guilty whatsoever. Why can't this work out already!? Why does this have to be soo damn hard!

The only upside is I'm happy to report to myself that my timing was wrong. I usually O around CD14-17 and we're CD12. We will at least be able to try again. Can't wait to buy OPK's so we can give up the guessing game lol.

 

[WhitheartsQ]

My dh and I decided to start TTC this month. I am on cd 10, and we have been bding without protection a couple times. Then tonight while bding he pulls out a condom without saying a thing about it. I hope its just a one time thing and he hasn't changed his mind already.

Tami don't feel too bad about crying when you did, its an emotional feeling and I think we can all relate. Plus it sounds likeyou have a great dh for handling it so well.

 

[ashntony]

2 vents for today:

1) Why in bloody blue doesn't "Teen Mom" on MTV provide birth control? The show is supposed to be about the hardship of being a teen mom, not letting them get BFP time and time again?! One bfp during teen years yea, I can understand but doing a show and letting it happen again while you preach that it's about discouraging the act? BS full stop.

2) I feel the worst shame possible right now. I did the worst thing a wife can do after bd'ing which we managed to do last night. DH couldn't finish because his asthma kicked in so what does my brain decide it's time to do? Cry. I basically had a full blown melt down about over all TTC from "why does it have to take so bloody long. Why does human biology make it so that each try has to feel like a century? Why is it so easy for every crack addict and dead beat to conceive yet every person I meet keeps asking me why I don't have kids yet because I'd make a wonderful mother." I'm not ashamed of my feelings, I'm ashamed that I threw a fit over something as lousy as him not finishing knowing we're out for another month and I got overwhelmed on how long a month actually is.

I managed to compose myself after an hour.. I go on Facebook, my friend went through a "lets post lots of cute baby videos" on Facebook phase and I just restarted all over again. Luckily DH didn't take it too hard. I don't want him to feel guilty whatsoever. Why can't this work out already!? Why does this have to be soo damn hard!

The only upside is I'm happy to report to myself that my timing was wrong. I usually O around CD14-17 and we're CD12. We will at least be able to try again. Can't wait to buy OPK's so we can give up the guessing game lol.

I feel the same!!!!!! I hate Teen Mom with a passion it hasn't helped young girls avoid pregnancy. I actually kmow some that when they got pregnant they wanted to try and be on teen mom.

 

[W.F.O.M]

I'm new here ladies but just wanted to say I can relate to most of what's been said

 

[tamithomas]

Well...sorry for the 3rd rant of the day but hey, that's what the vent thread is for right?

Anyways..remember that person I told you about who slept around for 10 years, never even discussed kids, suddenly settles down within 3 months of a relationship he was due to be a father in 7 months but the girlfriend lost it the an ecto? My prediction was right. They're bfp again, 10 weeks. She got a bfp the first month after the ecto. I wish them the best but it's so unfair! The guy is as fair from responsibly as it gets even for a 30 year old. DH had already known since week 6 but he withheld the information from me because he knew I would brow a casket if I had find out so early on and I appreciate him for that but still.. so unfair.

 

[CakeCottage]

Another pregnancy scan posted of Facebook!!! seriously grrrr

 

[AlyCon]

My husband comes home tomorrow so I'm happy we can get back to TTC. But I got sick and didn't take my Metformin for over a week so now I have to work my way back up to 2000mg. I'm starting out with 1000mg a day, and after a week I will double it. I hope I don't have too many side effects but Im desperate to Ovulate so I don't care!!

And of course FB is full of BFPs, preggos, and babies... Maybe one day I'll be so lucky

 

[ashntony]

I am on CD 69 and still no sign of AF.... I am ready to have a period so I can start a new cycle.

 

[Fizzyfefe]

Ashtony, have you been to a doctor yet?

 

[AlliCat]

My body is making me so frustrated... How long is a Clomid cycle usually last? Was on 100mgs days 5-9 (March 20-24). Had my day 21 blood work done and my progesterone was only at 1.2. How likely is it that I ovulated late and if so when? Anyone else ovulate after the range that the doctors give us or know anyone? Why can't my period just come so that I can start my next round or can't a pregnancy test be positive?!?!?!

 

[cntrygrl]

If your progesterone was that low I'd say you probably didn't ovulate. Try using OPK's or temping to help yourself out.

 

[Hoping girl 2]

Vent for today... Temps keep dropping but by but very month so I know af is right around the corner but cp getting higher and higher every day - cant even reach it today!!! I know cp is not reliable but annoyed cause part of me can't help hoping even though I know it's pointless...

 

[Limm]

57 days late, no AF and BFN at the doctors yesterday.
Last night I got woken up by intense pain in my lower abdomen (kinda like period pain but more painful.) Lasted for over an hour but managed to take some ibuprofen and get some sleep. No sign of AF still.
What the heck is going on with my body?!

 

[Hoping girl 2]

Ugh, last minute family lunch planned for tomorrow. With my sister in law and her two kids. And my other sister in law with her baby and new bump. Both of which she conceived in her first month without really trying even though she was 38 and 39. And my mil asking if 'we've had any good news'. AND on the day af is due. Kill me now. What a great way of spending my Sunday

 

[despttc]

Here's my story. I've 2 friends who conceived while on birth control(barrier) and absolutely didn't want babies. Another 2 who conceived exactly on the month of their marriage and most of my friends who got married months and years after my marriage are preg or have kids. And here I am,stuck with a mind full of babies and having none.

PS: I really really thank bnb because I've felt a lot better after sharing my thoughts here

 

[despttc]

I am on CD 69 and still no sign of AF.... I am ready to have a period so I can start a new cycle.

Your TTC journey looks a lot like mine. Keep your fingers crossed and expect a miracle