Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[twinboys]

hi..i am new here...i have been on this site for such a long time thinking that i am not alone....i have been encouraged by all whether bad news or good news....please forgive me for the long words...not sure about the abbreviations yet..
my husband and i have been married for 15 years and have been trying for about 8 years but still unsuccessful....last month i really thought i was but was once again devastated when i got my menstrual....i had all the symptoms (i thought i did) but then AF arrived...i have been very depressed felt like giving up and felt that the one thing that i wanted so much more than anything else in the world, i could not have....every symptom i had, i kept checking on the internet to see if i was pregnant, it drove me craaazzzy...i am a christian and now i have put that first and put my bible scriptures into place...its not about me anymore but what Jesus wants from me.....I am not saying this is difficult for me going thru this stage...(8 years is very long)...but what i am saying is that I am a very strong and willful person, had a very tough marriage and this has just made it a whole lot worse...i just have to stop with all the feelings eg...when i used to see pregnant women it should break my heart, then people saying it will happen when its time, I am going to be 36 years old this year...(where is the time), and then "dont stress yourself, let it happen naturally, when you are not thinking of it, it will happen"....so yes there is so much more i can say, but i dont want to break myself or u....

I really believe that My God will not forsake me as my purpose here was to be fruitful in my womb and to multiply, no doctor will tell me otherwise....all i can do i speak for myself when i say........."i will not give up because i know God wont give up on me.....I have also trying many medication but no success...i am still on Pregnacare Conception which i only started about 3 months back...

Ladies, stay strong and keep the faith, i really do believe that one of these fine days i will be posting my BFP......

by the way "twinboys" is becos i believe that is what i am going to blessed with.

God bless and loads of Baby Dust to you all.....Watch this space ....OUR TIME IS COMING AND STAY STRONG..

THANK YOU TO YOU ALL FOR BEING WHO YOU ARE ....

 

[FireLyte]

@Twinboys: You are one strong person if you've been trying for 8 years and haven't given up yet. Better yet, you not only still have you faith, but seem to be very strong in it. Best of luck to you, and I hope your BFP arrives swiftly.

 

[AlyCon]

Another BFP in my face.. And this one seriously BLOWS MY MIND!! But in a way, it doesn't. Because life isn't fair. And I should know that by now.

 

[Teach2]

Loving your faith Twinboys! We celebrated the 1st birthday of a boy at my church on Sunday. We call him the miracle baby because his mother was told that she would never conceive. Another couple tried for years with no luck, a visiting pastor told them to buy baby clothes and they were pregnant the next month! God can do all things, your faith is an inspiration to me at 1yr TTC.

 

[MissyLissy]

To my friend who never wanted children, ever, and still doesn't, even though she just got an oops BFP after taking out her IUD for ONE MONTH while she was waiting for her husband to get a vesectomy. Screw you. No...that's not fair. This isn't your fault. Screw you, life.

To my employee (I'm a manager) who just had a baby with whom she is always complaining about, who told me "I should wait to have kids because that can really ruin your life." SCREW YOU!! I wish I had a valid reason to fire your ass.

To the OPK's that have never turned positive in the six months I'vs been trying, even with metformin and femara, you just devestate me. Not sure where to go from here....

 

[Limm]

Everyone keeps telling me to relax. If they're that certain that I'm not relaxed enough then they should pay for me to go on holiday or keep quiet. I can't believe I have women telling me to not stress about it, women who have been TTC themselves before.

I should be happy that we have doctors willing to help, but seriously, WHERE THE HECK IS MY PERIOD?!! Years of having no problems and yet the MINUTE we start trying it's like my uterus went on strike. 60 days late and counting....

 

[tamithomas]

My vent is a bit mild today. Dear DH, did you really have to accidentely wake me up? lol I was having the most amazing dream that I was 8 1/2 months bfp, big as a house walking up and down the house because of contractions. In my dream I apparently decided home birth without any mid wife would be awesome (not that I have anything against that but it's not my preference) and I could actually feel the contractions through the dreams. To make it even more of a dream, I had a bath tub where my computer is in the living room lol. But I was really puzzled when I woke up that I could feel the contractions right in the dream like as if it was real. What a beautiful dream, if only it didn't have to end.

 

[AlliCat]

Everyone keeps telling me to relax. If they're that certain that I'm not relaxed enough then they should pay for me to go on holiday or keep quiet. I can't believe I have women telling me to not stress about it, women who have been TTC themselves before.

I should be happy that we have doctors willing to help, but seriously, WHERE THE HECK IS MY PERIOD?!! Years of having no problems and yet the MINUTE we start trying it's like my uterus went on strike. 60 days late and counting....

I feel the exact same way. I was perfectly fine in all aspects (regular periods, good flow, felt ovulation) then got blood work done and since then I have been out of whack (late, short barely there periods, no ovulation).

 

[Hoping girl 2]

Vent for the day, a common one... Facebook! New settings mean that not only am I greeted by no friends' baby scan pics and bfp announcements, I'm also subject to those from people I don't even know just be size someone I do know posted something on their walls... NOT INTERESTED!!!!!

 

[tamithomas]

Vent for the day, a common one... Facebook! New settings mean that not only am I greeted by no friends' baby scan pics and bfp announcements, I'm also subject to those from people I don't even know just be size someone I do know posted something on their walls... NOT INTERESTED!!!!!

or when they like someone elses baby related stuff. So annoying.

 

[ashntony]

Well i am now on CD73... looks like i am drinking parsley tea tomorrow and then I will cross my fingers and hope for a miracle

 

[AlyCon]

I hate the phrase "It will happen when it's suppose to" or "when the time is right" especially from people who KNOW my situation. Seriously what part of I DON'T OVULATE are you having trouble understanding?!?! To have a baby there needs to be sperm and egg. No egg= NO BABY! Plain and simple. So please tell me when this "right time" is supposed to magically happen?? I could understand if I had regular cycles and I ovulated every month and it was just an issue of BD at the right time to catch the egg. But as I said before THERE IS NO FREAKING EGG!! So guess what, there won't ever be a right time unless I MAKE IT HAPPEN! I'm dieting, exercising, taking medication, and BDing even when I'm not in the mood! And all this is really just a shot in the dark because Im still not ovulating but each day could be the day it finally happens! But it never is, yet I still keep trying. Meanwhile everyone else around me is pregnant and having babies, even those that DON'T DESERVE them!

And somehow even considering all this, you still have the nerve to tell me to relax and it'll happen when I least expect it!! Yeah that's not going to happen, unfortunately I will never truly have a surprise BFP. Just another thing pcos has ruined for me. I don't know why I even try to confide in other people.. Now I know to just stick to the vent thread. Thanks to BnB and all you lovely ladies

 

[ashntony]

I hate the phrase "It will happen when it's suppose to" or "when the time is right" especially from people who KNOW my situation. Seriously what part of I DON'T OVULATE are you having trouble understanding?!?! To have a baby there needs to be sperm and egg. No egg= NO BABY! Plain and simple. So please tell me when this "right time" is supposed to magically happen?? I could understand if I had regular cycles and I ovulated every month and it was just an issue of BD at the right time to catch the egg. But as I said before THERE IS NO FREAKING EGG!! So guess what, there won't ever be a right time unless I MAKE IT HAPPEN! I'm dieting, exercising, taking medication, and BDing even when I'm not in the mood! And all this is really just a shot in the dark because Im still not ovulating but each day could be the day it finally happens! But it never is, yet I still keep trying. Meanwhile everyone else around me is pregnant and having babies, even those that DON'T DESERVE them!

And somehow even considering all this, you still have the nerve to tell me to relax and it'll happen when I least expect it!! Yeah that's not going to happen, unfortunately I will never truly have a surprise BFP. Just another thing pcos has ruined for me. I don't know why I even try to confide in other people.. Now I know to just stick to the vent thread. Thanks to BnB and all you lovely ladies [/Q
UOTE]

Exactly!!! My friend keeps asking any luck yet? NO I DON'T OVULATE! ugh... people don't understand how frustrating this can be.

 

[wellsk]

An extremely faint BFP has made me want to scream! I feel like there's no way I could be pregnant and it's just my head messing with me as usual.
I want this so badly, I'll be devastated if it turns out to be a BFN or another chemical. Please, please let this be!!

 

[Hoping girl 2]

An extremely faint BFP has made me want to scream! I feel like there's no way I could be pregnant and it's just my head messing with me as usual.
I want this so badly, I'll be devastated if it turns out to be a BFN or another chemical. Please, please let this be!!

Ill keep my fingers crossed the line gets darker tomorrow. Hugs and kisses in the meantime!! Xxxx oooo xxxx

 

[wellsk]

Thank you so much hoping!
Feeling so desperate now, blah!

 

[lamago]

An extremely faint BFP has made me want to scream! I feel like there's no way I could be pregnant and it's just my head messing with me as usual.
I want this so badly, I'll be devastated if it turns out to be a BFN or another chemical. Please, please let this be!!

Yes, please, please. FX for you!

 

[wellsk]

Thanks so much Hun

 

[AlyCon]

An extremely faint BFP has made me want to scream! I feel like there's no way I could be pregnant and it's just my head messing with me as usual.
I want this so badly, I'll be devastated if it turns out to be a BFN or another chemical. Please, please let this be!!

Fingers crossed for you!!

 

[wellsk]

Thank you for all the wonderful well wishes!
I hope I can come back with good news. But I think that I'm probably fooling myself into wanting something so bad that I'm probably imagining it, if you know what I mean?