Trying To Conceive #1+ Vent Thread

[Jaxie086]

VENT: My husband and I have been together a long time. We waited many many many years to get married because of him being in med school. We started dating at 16 and didn't get married until 27. Then we waited a year a half after marriage to start trying to conceive. It feels like my whole relationship has been one big game of waiting. Waiting to get married and waiting to conceive, all because of med school. It just gets frustrating when my ultimate goal in life is to be a stay at home mom and raise beautiful, happy, healthy children. Don't get me wrong, I would do this whole waiting thing over again in the blink of an eye, just to be with him. It just helps sometimes to type out how I'm feeling. (Idk where all that above came from, that's not even the point of my post lol)
I am very close to ovulating (like, a day away, according to OPK). We BDed last night but (TMI coming up....) he accidentally fell out of me just as he was about to go. This unexpected feeling of pure disappointed swept over me, I actually got tears in my eyes (he didn't see, it was too dark in the room). I know we have other chances to BD but for some reason that was just so disappointing to me, especially being right around Oing time. When he woke up this morning before work, I asked him if he wanted to do a quicky but he said his stomach was bothering him. Which was true because he had just spent 10 minutes in the bathroom lol.
I know I'm overreacting, but just needed to get this out. VENT OVER.

 

[Renaendel]

Cycle #40....
Still trying for #1. Failed ivf last month and gearing up to use our last frozen egg in a few weeks. Don't even want to post in my journal anymore because it seems like everyone I have known here is pregnant or working on number two. There are so few of us that have been here for years left.

Broken...

 

[mrsberries]

Vent! TTC conceive for 13 months and this may sound funny but like in my real life I'm having trouble getting into an online community lol . Anyway a little background on myself, We are seeing a fertility specialist since early September. We had sperm analysis, a HyCoSy and bloodwork. Aside from sperm motility being slighty low everything Is good.... fast forward Im 5 days late which never ever happens and Im getting all BFN. What kind Of sick joke is this?

 

[Chloe26]

Venting.

Everyone around me seems to be getting pregnant. One of my best friends is apparently a few months along, and she doesn't even want a child. My niece who is very young is very much pregnant and is due later this winter. It just sucks, when you want a child very badly, yet have to actively try to have one. My OH and I have been NTNP for two years and have had two CPs. It just sucks, especially when people that don't even want children just wind up pregnant... yet here we all are, desperately wanting to be pregnant and are struggling.

I know this is only my first cycle actively trying to conceive, but it's still hard not to get jealous. I'm terrified it's going to take years to even get pregnant. Or worse, I won't be able to have children. I know that probably makes me sound like a sourpus, but it is what it is. haha

 

[jjohns50]

I know how you feel! My FI and I have been ntnp for quite some time, and actively TTC since July, and i am only on my third cycle since then. In the mean time, a very competitive, rude & overall toxic family member has become pregnant. No job, no place to live (until her parents bought her a house), not married or even engaged, and no vehicle of their own. It is hard dealing with challenges like fertility when you actually have your life together together. I really thought I would have the first Great grandchild in the family since FI & I have been working so hard to do things the right way! My best friend is also pregnant, & is due in Jan. However this does not bother me at all. I understand it is not a competition, but others do not! It is still hard not to let it get to you & make you constantly think about your own struggles. Keep your head up! there is hope, even if it doesn't come easily. I also get worried about the possibility of never being able to conceive, since I am still young & having trouble but I think it is important to keep an open mind. Sorry for the rambling, Good Luck!

 

[Elfgirl87]

I just need to vent for a minute. My husband and I have been trying for sometime to have a baby. I had a chemical back in July and can't seem to get my body to O again. Meanwhile, his brother and his wife just had a baby. The baby is three months old and she's pregnant again! They live in a horrible place and can't really afford to kids. I broke down crying when I found out. I couldn't help it. My friend at work just got pregnant too. Right after being on bc for six years. Life isn't fair sometimes. Why can't the people that really want babies have them? Ok, rant over

 

[Firefly Skies]

Ugh. I've been more and more open about our fertility struggles, but I still get the comments. Last night, one of my coworkers found out I was taking my husband on vacation for his birthday, and she made several comments about getting pregnant (because "I'll be more relaxed").

Trust me, we've been on, what, three vacations? Relaxing is not my problem. I don't even know what to say when people make these comments or questions, because the better part of me has lost hope for the idea that this is something that will happen for us.

So I just go, "Ha. Yeah." If I'm feeling saucy and someone asks about children, I'll go: "Well we've been trying for two years, so I guess whenever it happens."

 

[MsH15]

This morning I hope to simply be a blessing to someone TTC. My husband and I are high school sweet hearts, going on 16 years together. We have never tried to prevent pregnancy, but never stressed about TTC either. After 16 years we have only been pregnant once about 2 years ago and sadly it was an ectopic pregnancy and was doomed from the start. We were so happy when we found out that I was pregnant we NEVER ever thought it wouldn't last long. needless to say, I was heart broken but trying my best to stay positive and put on a brave face. Naturally I did not fit any of the norms in regards to ectopics so the treatment course was pretty tough on us, eventually ending up in a tubal removal. But I was safe and healthy and that's all we could really ask for at the time. Well it's been 2 years, fully recovered and still healthy, but no signs or glimmers of another pregnancy. BUT... we have faith and know that it WILL happen when it is meant to be. It can get so discouraging as a woman to feel like you can love your husband better than anyone in the world, take care of your home like no other, maintain a career and still there is one thing that you can't seem to get right and it's nothing that you can actually control... I mean lets be honest, you can maintain a healthy lifestyle, you can get medical treatment and assistance (if you have the money for those expensive and toll taking processes), you can chart and monitor and plan... Hell, you can live on your back with your legs open and there is still no promising that it will happen for you. So in an effort to lift my own spirits and maybe encourage someone else who is also having trouble achieving their hearts desire to become a parent (mother of father) I'd like to say, step out on faith and just go with it. Stay positive and be a blessing to those around you. Enjoy your spouse and the many joys life has already given you and hopefully you will blessed as you have tried your best to bless others lives as well. As for me... I am patiently awaiting the day I can celebrate the news of the greatest blessing of all...

 

[MsH15]

Venting.

Everyone around me seems to be getting pregnant. One of my best friends is apparently a few months along, and she doesn't even want a child. My niece who is very young is very much pregnant and is due later this winter. It just sucks, when you want a child very badly, yet have to actively try to have one. My OH and I have been NTNP for two years and have had two CPs. It just sucks, especially when people that don't even want children just wind up pregnant... yet here we all are, desperately wanting to be pregnant and are struggling.

I know this is only my first cycle actively trying to conceive, but it's still hard not to get jealous. I'm terrified it's going to take years to even get pregnant. Or worse, I won't be able to have children. I know that probably makes me sound like a sourpus, but it is what it is. haha

Oh how I feel you. Every time I turn around I am faced with women who just magically get pregnant just by thinking about sex when here I am actually having to try with no success as of yet. No matter how happy I am for those expecting, my heart still feel this small twinge of jealousy. BUT you know, IT WILL HAPPEN for us too! I just have to believe that... IT WILL happen! Stay blessed and encouraged

 

[MsH15]

UGH.. it is so tough not to have that twinge of jealousy every time a girl-friend sends out an announcement or a baby shower / gender reveal invite. Don't get me wrong, I am super excited and happy for their blessing... I am just impatiently waiting for mine.... *sigh*
Still praying for a special Christmas gift

 

[MsH15]

TWW is killing me! That is all... Have a good day Ladies.

 

[ridley2909]

Ah I could scream. Ttc number 3 my ovulation tests are getting darker. I have been patient with dh the last two weeks. He is ill. Told him he may have to suck it up tonight and take one for the team and he is in a huff saying he is too ill and I'm pressuring him which he told me not to do. All I need is ten minutes of his time compared to the 9 months I would be carrying the baby and the labour etc. Men grrr...

 

[MumDreamz]

As I read through the forums I see all the latest medical assists and my husband won't even let me try one. Obviously something is wrong with us and we should see a physician and get it straightened, but every single time he argues with me.

 

[autumnmm]

This is killing me! This will be my first and this two-week wait is so hard.

Today I am 8DPO (roughly) and I swear I felt some implantation cramps yesterday. I've already tested twice with bfn (I know, two week "wait"). I had very sore nipples for the past week but they seem to be less sensitive today. This is so hard!!!!

I'm thinking of waiting to test again until Wed.

 

[Byfaith]

I was on the pill for 6 years, came off Feb 2015 and I have since then had just 4 periods. I am now on the 5th and it came yesterday after 58 days in which the last two weeks I thought I was pregnant coz I was nauseauted, my boobs were heavy, I was having some fluttery feeling in my tummy as if something unusual was going on.

I really tried not to involve my DH in my excitement but I did and then yesterday just when we had bought the PT ready to check today morning AF visited. I am devastated. How can I regulate my periods inorder to atleast know my ovulation time. though we have sex every other day if not daily. And does anyone get false pregnancy signs? I have also been taking agnus castus(the tabs), Folic acid and B6 for almost a year now.

 

[Byfaith]

I was on the pill for 6 years, came off Feb 2015 and I have since then had just 4 periods. I am now on the 5th and it came yesterday after 58 days in which the last two weeks I thought I was pregnant coz I was nauseauted, my boobs were heavy, I was having some fluttery feeling in my tummy as if something unusual was going on.

I really tried not to involve my DH in my excitement but I did and then yesterday just when we had bought the PT ready to check today morning AF visited. I am devastated. How can I regulate my periods inorder to atleast know my ovulation time. though we have sex every other day if not daily. And does anyone get false pregnancy signs? I have also been taking agnus castus(the tabs), Folic acid and B6 for almost a year now.

 

[Zeri]

I was on the pill for 6 years, came off Feb 2015 and I have since then had just 4 periods. I am now on the 5th and it came yesterday after 58 days in which the last two weeks I thought I was pregnant coz I was nauseauted, my boobs were heavy, I was having some fluttery feeling in my tummy as if something unusual was going on.

I really tried not to involve my DH in my excitement but I did and then yesterday just when we had bought the PT ready to check today morning AF visited. I am devastated. How can I regulate my periods inorder to atleast know my ovulation time. though we have sex every other day if not daily. And does anyone get false pregnancy signs? I have also been taking agnus castus(the tabs), Folic acid and B6 for almost a year now.

Sorry to hear about AF. Do you take opks? That can help you narrow down your most fertile/ovulation time.

I agree your cycles need more regulating ,as 4 periods in a year isn't much. Have you been to a doctor to check your hormones and make sure everything is okay?

 

[PrincessTaz]

I feel like all I ever do is wait! I hate ttc and I hate the 2ww even more!

 

[TWIN58]

Having no symptoms but still have to wait for AF

Depressed AF due tomorrow but still have BFN. This usually means Im out.......


So depressing....

 

[chocolatechip]

Just struggling a bit with all the people in my life getting pregnant as I'm still in the waiting part. I'm trying not to be a total spoilsport, especially because I am actually excited for some of these ladies, but it's hard to fight the internal battle alone. Sigh.