Ok ladies I have jumped over here to I am so glad we have this now 35+ ttc1st as I worry so much about being to old to concieve and having everyone telling me oh you mustn't wait much longer and it really seems like it is now or never!
My journey so far got married in 1996 met my then hb when I was 14 we got married after 8yrs I was 22 oh was 27 I wanted tostart a family straight away but he wasn't ready so i would never off lied and had a mistake as I knew this would be most the special time in my life and wanted him to feel the same so I waited.......and waited.....and fecking waited....
I finally told him right i am not taking the pill anymore I have been on it for 16yrs I am 30 we both have great jobs and every year you tell me next year and I like an idiot believe him and wait again.
I have read every book about child birth over those 16 yrs I could have trained to be a mw! we had a beautiful 4 bedroom house in the country OH earned loads of money we had everything or so I thought
when i came off the pill our sex life virtually disappeared i thought it him worrying about being a dad and I truly think he was pertrified with the responsibility he would say what if I am not a good dad?
So long story short he went to work one night and when I came home I found a strange mobile in the living room he rung told me it was a work phone and to turn it off he seemed really strange so i thought hmmm i wonder...... I immediately jumped in the car and went to see my best friend and together we looked thorugh it to discover pics of a girl he worked with naked texts messages etc... so that was it my world was destroyed, OH came back begged forgiveness we tried conselling for 6 months and I stayed for another 2yrs but I couldn't get over it and in this time OH was desperate for us to ttc, I knew even though i had waited all this time and it was all I wanted, this was not the man to be a father to my child.
So I left my hardest thing I ever done went to my dads and started all over again met my lovely bf (who was 25 then) a month later and we have been together since
I panic I have left it to late but am glad I am not having to struggle with a lo and all the pain of sharing them with hb.
Divorce hearing is this Tuesday and I am so nervous, but if everything goes well me and oh will be moving to a lovely House in the country
We have made an offer and it was accepted I just need the settlement from the divorce, am living in OH apartment at the minute.
I want my
this month as when we move to our new house in March I can annouce my
and my life will be complete. So girls sprinkle me with fairy dust cause these last few years have been tough and PMA this year is my year
Lisa