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[BelleNuit]

Green I think you can order it online too. Puma I definitely think Thursday was a positive OPK!

I actually don't think DHs parents will bother us too much about it. His dad is diabetic and is having a toe amputated next week. He's hoping he'll get to keep the foot. So they have other worries.

I ended up telling my dad and he had like every cliche for what not to say. "Really.... Your TRYING to have kids..." Gives a look of shock and disgust (as if I'm too young... Knew he'd react that way lol). "Well maybe just stop trying and it'll happen you know your aunt...." "Well life without kids would be okay...." "Well why didn't you tell us sooner?...." LOL it was comical... He said everything wrong. But apologized immediately after each thing and said he was sorry he didn't know what to say but that he was here to support.

 

[puma1986]

Yeah, Belle. You are clearly too young to be having kids, or SEX for that matter. *GASP*

LMFAO!

 

[BelleNuit]

LOL it's darn near indecent of me!!

 

[puma1986]

Good morning ladies!

Today wraps up day seven of my vacation. I'm totally not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. I'm really not sure what's going on with my ovulation, either. My temps are comical in their pattern. Up! Down! Up! Down! I told my DH last night that since my temps haven't reflected ovulation yet that I will surely ovulate in this next day or two. When he got out of the shower last night I give him the *wink wink* but he was soooo tired. So I conned him into waking me up this morning. Bwahaha. One of us three ladies better get out BFP this cycle. It's been TOO LONG!

 

[BelleNuit]

I agree puma! I'm sitting over here in my crazy tree completely losing my mind!!! 10 cycles is too long. I wouldn't wish this on anybody.

I hope you enjoyed your vacation! I'll bet you'll O any day now!

AFM, 12 dpo. Will see if I get any spotting today, so far so good but it's only 7 AM lol. I had another positive pregnant test dream last night. I usually have one every TWW. Wish fulfillment. They're wonderful until you realize you're dreaming. If I ever do get a + I'm going to have a hard time convincing myself that I'm not dreaming at this point lol

I've had very few symptoms this TWW, other than feeling extra emotional. I cried nearly all day yesterday, and when I wasn't crying I was either in a rage or completely numbed out. I don't know how much more I can take. It's a good thing DH is gone this weekend or we probably would have fought the whole time.

 

[puma1986]

Aweeeeeee Belle!!! You're so close to knowing! No spotting yet is totally a good sign. Let's hope this keeps up! I've had those dreams tooooo! Waking up is so disappointing.

Speaking of crying... There's an animated movie on Netflix that is AMAZING!!!! It's rated 5 stars and my father in law told us about it. He generally doesn't like animated movies. Have you ever read the little prince? I haven't but I am going to now!

The title doesn't do it justice. It's one of those movies that leaves you thinking. It establishes a deep connection to you, your view on the world, and your own thoughts. I highly highly highly recommend!!! And yes, you will definitely cry. The movie is a work of art, honestly. Let me know if you guys end up watching it and what you think! It'll help pass the time

 

[puma1986]

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fEPqgSNLfK8

Man I got emotional just watching the trailer.

 

[BelleNuit]

That looks like an amazing movie! I'm definitely going to watch it!

 

[greenarcher]

How odd puma! Are you still doing opks?

You guys.... so I bought a cute onesie for my friends babu shower and it came in the mail. I showed my husband, not even thinking. His response was adorable. It was "oh my god" then when I shook my head and said, no not mine, "awwww "

I have a better idea of where he stands and feels now. I makes me happpy.

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh Green, that is just the sweetest thing!! One day you will be buying onesies for your own little baby

Puma, that movie isn't on Canadian Netflix, so I cant watch it! Bummer!

It's 11AM and no spotting yet. Last cycle I started spotting around 3 PM, so not getting my hopes up yet.

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh no.... My MIL just showed me pictures of 3 kids bikes she just bought. A boys bike, a girls bike and a little toddlers bike.

This is what I was afraid of. I sent the following in return.

"The trike is very cute. I know D let you know that we are trying to have a family. I just want to make sure you know that it's not going well. We are going to see a fertility doctor this week and are getting fertility testing done. I do not have any hope that this will happen quickly.... If it even happens at all. So I very kindly just want to make sure that these bikes aren't related to what D told you. I don't want you or P getting too excited because we aren't there yet. We don't even know if we will be able to have kids at this point. I don't want you to feel disappointed if this doesn't work out. I literally have no hope any longer that it will. We've had 11 cycles of disappointment already. I'm not thinking about bikes or a nursery. I'm thinking about fertility testing and treatment options. We just aren't there yet. I'm sorry."

I don't want to seem harsh, but I want to be very clear with her that this is the reality. I know she is just wanting good news because her husband is having his toe amputated this week, but I can't give that to her. Getting pics of kids bikes that may never be used hurts me intensely.

 

[BelleNuit]

Ugh, she wrote back that I should relax. FML.

 

[BelleNuit]

MIL showed up unannounced, probably in attempt to make me feel better, and told me story after story of friends she has who struggled to conceive and who conceived after 2+ years of trying. She keeps telling me to relax. She should know better, her first husband had MFI and they tried for years and nothing happened. Relaxing wouldn't have helped her situation, why would it help mine?

Oh and she said she's going to keep buying stuff and that I shouldn't worry about it. It's like talking to a wall!

Rant over Lol.

Otherwise is 4PM and no spotting yet. I keep checking internally, almost hourly LOl. My poor cervix has never seen so much action! I'm really hoping I don't start spotting! I'll consider that a very good sign!

 

[greenarcher]

Ugh, that's so frustrating.... especially as she should know what you're going through!

That's really promising Belle! No spotting is excellent news! 12 dpo and you haven't tested! You are more patient than i!

I think I od today? Or maybe tomorrow? Only got in 1 bd. Husband left this morning for interview won't be back until tomorrow night

 

[BelleNuit]

1 well-timed BD is all you need! I hope your husband's interview goes well! I will keep my fingers crossed for him!

Green, I just hate testing so much lol. Plus DH isn't even home until late tonight, and if I got a BFP I would feel horrible waiting for him! AF is due Tuesday. I don't even have any pregnancy tests. If I don't start spotting tomorrow I'm going to be super tempted to test. I've never NOT spotted before AF.... EVER... In the back of my mind I'm thinking it could be the maca that has helped reduce the spotting, so I'm trying not to let myself get too excited yet. Too early.

The light cramping is definitely driving me up the wall though. Ugh.

 

[puma1986]

1 well-timed BD is all you need! I hope your husband's interview goes well! I will keep my fingers crossed for him!

Green, I just hate testing so much lol. Plus DH isn't even home until late tonight, and if I got a BFP I would feel horrible waiting for him! AF is due Tuesday. I don't even have any pregnancy tests. If I don't start spotting tomorrow I'm going to be super tempted to test. I've never NOT spotted before AF.... EVER... In the back of my mind I'm thinking it could be the maca that has helped reduce the spotting, so I'm trying not to let myself get too excited yet. Too early.

The light cramping is definitely driving me up the wall though. Ugh.

OH MY. I would lose it on my MIL. Relax?! Relax?! You should have been like... "THIS is exactly the reason I didn't want anyone to know".

I'm excited for you! Why?! Because you're Belle and you deserve a BFP!!!! I so totally hope this is your month. If so your baby will be born late April or early may!!! Springtime.

 

[puma1986]

Ugh, that's so frustrating.... especially as she should know what you're going through!

That's really promising Belle! No spotting is excellent news! 12 dpo and you haven't tested! You are more patient than i!

I think I od today? Or maybe tomorrow? Only got in 1 bd. Husband left this morning for interview won't be back until tomorrow night

I think I might have Od today too, hooray!

Belle's right. It only takes one time mamasita!
My fingers are crossed that this month will be our month!!!

 

[BelleNuit]

Ah! I'm so excited that you guys have O'd! Now the symptom spotting can continue lol.

It was super annoying of her Puma. I'm trying to see it as coming from a good place. That annoyance will be a lot easier if I actually am pregnant this cycle lol. I so hope this is it.

 

[BelleNuit]

What if I didn't actually O until CD 15? Maybe I'm only 10 dpo and that's why I'm not spotting yet.

 

[puma1986]

What if I didn't actually O until CD 15? Maybe I'm only 10 dpo and that's why I'm not spotting yet.

CD 15 would be reasonable based on your charts. I'm still optimistic for you this cycle, though. It's hard to say for sure!