TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[BelleNuit]

I used to get wish fulfillment dreams all the time (dreaming of positive HPTs), but now I just dream about telling people off who are ignorant about infertility. Those are strangely satisfying in their own way LOL

Your other dream sounds like you are overwhelmed, your literally up to your neck with life's problems, and your body betrays you while your at it. That's my take on it.

My tender bbs from yesterday are gone. I'm not expecting anything this cycle other than AF to arrive right on time. Depending on when my HSG is scheduled next cycle we may or may not be able to try (they will do them up until CD 11, and as I O on CD 12, it would be too late), so I'm going to see if I can get them to book it earlier in my cycle. The cycle after we will be going to Boston right during my fertile week (DH has a work trip, and I was like "no friggen way am i missing a cycle especially after an HSG when you are supposed to be more fertile LOL"). His work is paying for the hotels, his food, and his flight. So it's just my flight and consumables to consider, so will be a pretty inexpensive vacation!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Sounds great! An almost fee vaca!!! Have fun with that!

Yeah kinda makes sense what you said. But idk, sometimes dreams are just dreams. I still try to look them up, but most of the time I can't find anything that makes sense.

Well I gotta get hubby off my computer.

I'll let you all know if anything shows up on the test other than that stupid control line.

 

[BelleNuit]

Ya sometimes dreams are just dreams. A lot of times my dreams are wish fulfillment. If it's a very vivid intense dream then those tend to mean something.

 

[greenarcher]

Negative ept this morning :/ it's still early, but I had high hopes

 

[StarGazerRose]

I feel ya Archer.

Still no sign of a second line. 😫

Headed to the in-laws for dinner. Kinda think it's a good thing I didn't find out today. I wouldn't be able to keep it in. And I really don't want to tell anyone til I know it's a sticky bun! Well hubby might disagree but his parents spread the word faster than Twitter! So I don't wanna say anything til I know its something to actually spread word about. And I wouldn't be able to tell my parents any time soon either.

Still want a positive result though.
I'll be testing all week. (Not every day, just a few).

 

[BelleNuit]

Sorry for the BFNs today ladies, I hope it turns around for you!

I'm incredibly moody today (PMS is a B). DH actually had the nerve to tell me that my temper was the problem and the reason why we haven't conceived. Oh my! Did I see red after he said that!!!!!!

I don't think being irritable one day out of the month has anything to do with TTC and success. If anything bottling up my emotions would do even more harm. I am angry, livid that this is happening to us. Pretending I'm not will do F all.

I yelled at him that nothing we do or don't do will make an ounce of difference. We have already made ALL of the lifestyle changes possible and it hasn't freaking helped.

Ugh I could just RAGE all day today! I'm so freaking hormonal today and I know it only means AF is coming. Accepting that just makes me even angrier.

 

[sil]

Belle, sorry you are having a rough day. Sometimes husbands just don't get it. It sounds like he said it out of anger and I'm sure he doesn't actually believe that. Hugs!

Sorry for the bfn to those testing, but it's still early! I have my fingers crossed for you. I'm hoping someone sees two lines soon.

The dreams can be tough. I've had those a lot the past few months too. For me it was longing for a baby manifesting in my dreams, not a sign for bfp, but you never know.

Not much is new here. Still no ovulation. I am cd14 so this would be early for me anyways but I was secretly hoping vitex would be some miracle cure to a regular cycle. I'm taking opk in the am and pm so I don't miss it.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Omg I can feel the heat in that post ...
Yeah Hubbies don't get it, all they have to do is be there, have their two mins input and then wait... They don't get the feeling of what WE have to go through. "Don't Stress" is like a slap in the face!!! How can we NOT stress? Especially after trying for so long and it still not working.
And you can't really do anything while you are on your period anyways, cause well... ya just can't! So getting "angry" during the beginning of the cycle will not affect shit!

Bought some Clear Blue tests .... Hoping these work well. I didn't want another store brand and I didn't want to spend 40$ for a FRER either. Sorry but 40$ for only 1-2 tests is bull! I bought two boxes for 8$ and they each had a coupon for 2$ off!

I've had pains along my left side, not like cramping, -- they go from my ribs down along my side, not quite to my hip -- but maybe like muscle pains. I've had them before all this, and keep pining it off as gas as it comes and goes. Idk what it is... it's just weird.

Anyways, I'm going back and forth of feeling in and out of the game. Earlier I felt out, and now i'm kinda back in? ... Haven't been totally emotional the past two days (except for watching my sappy tv show..that doesn't count).
Urgh I just wish I knew one way or another! I hate this Limbo crap!

 

[sil]

Star when will you test again? Clear blue can be bad for evaps so make sure to check in the time frame. I have everything crossed for you!

 

[BelleNuit]

My mind is powerful beyond all belief... I can prevent implantation from EVER occurring just by getting angry! Its SO effective I plan to teach other women this trick as a form of non-hormonal birth control!!!!!

I'm feeling snarky today.

bbs hurt, nips hurt, and I'm freaking irritable. I'm even developing a cold (starting to get a sore throat). FML. AF is just around the corner.

Thanks ladies for putting up with grouchy bear Belle. I'll probably be like this all week UGH

 

[StarGazerRose]

I think I'll test tomorrow morning, probably Wednesday or Thursday and over the weekend.
I've been reading some find out Two Weeks after missed period. That's nuts.

I really wanted a pink test but they were all the new twisted handle fr, and the store brand (after hearing bad stuff about the new fr I didn't want to risk it - plus they cost nearly twice as much)

I'll keep you all updated!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Girls I think i'm going nuts! I think i'm seeing where the line SHOULD be, but not sure if I'm seeing a line. I practically put the thing in the light bulb trying to see if it's got something or not.
I took a few pictures...

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[sil]

Post pics when you can star! I'm excited for you! Ahhh. I am such a poas addict in the two week wait. I love looking at other people's tests too. I hope this is it for you!

 

[BelleNuit]

Very excited star! I can't wait to see your pics! As long as it has some color to it its a line. When I first started testing I'd over-saturate the stick and end up with this bright white line that would get me all excited LOL, it wasn't anything though! Hope it has some color for you!

 

[StarGazerRose]

It's being a pain... I can't get it to load multiple pictures ...
And it turned my picture ..?! ... so weird

Check my previous post girls.
I still think it's a negative.

Belle, that's awesome I think I did that the other day...I was like what the?
I'm gonna try to send the other picture to the computer and post it.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Here is photo 2:

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(I'm not really trying to hide the picture, it just saves space and loading time )
I was struggling getting good lighting and NOT show my nasty bathroom

 

[greenarcher]

Star - I'm not sure I see anything on that, yet! I'm horrible with blue tests though.

Belle - how is our angry bear today? Feeling any better? You caved to the temptation to test yet?

Sil and Puma - hope you ladies are doing well!

10 dpo today, and BFN on an IC. Starting to lose hope, but the reviews for this cheapie are so mixed, false negatives, false positives, really early positives, really late positives. I don't know what to think. I'll probably take another one tonight, then tomorrow use a real test with FMU.

I used a +|- EPT on 9 DPO, and that was clearly negative too.

I'm thinking this isn't going to be my month, and it's bumming me out. I really wanted to sync up with my two friends.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Yeah I'm getting a bit worried. I am now 17dpo (according to my counting) But what I keep finding is that my hsg might be just too low to read on these tests ...
I'm kinda crampy but I can't tell what "cramping" it is ... *eyeroll*
I hate being a girl!
I wish I could just turkey baste this thing and be done with it!

I bought two boxes of those tests, I might exchange one for a FR ...as much as I don't want to, it's a pink test.
I need a test that will catch like a 0 hsg!

And now that AF is late, I'm worried she'll show her ugly face while we're on vaca! I did my math before we planned the thing, and she wasn't supposed to show anywhere near it, so she better stay away!!! I want some hubby time!!!

OMG my arms ... I feel like I slept on them wrong, for the past few days. They are just achy! I stretch them out and they hurt worse! What a pain -- literally

Oh I'm testing again on Wednesday! I need a line folks! It's just ONE LITTLE LINE!!!

 

[greenarcher]

How late are you?

 

[StarGazerRose]

How late are you?

She was supposed to show yesterday