TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[mnelson815]

Well even though ov was pushed back for me, it finally did eventually happen! It also feels a lot stronger this time, like possibly ovulating from both ovaries as I can feel my regular ovulation pains on both sides and they are a lot stronger this time. Here's hoping I can catch an egg this cycle!
Belle I definitely think it's worth at least one cycle of trying to see if it helps you with those issues since now I'm less bitter about it! Haha

 

[BelleNuit]

Mnelson so glad to hear that you O'd and that it felt like a strong one! I am thinking I will give it a shot, especially if it would help to delay my O a bit. It can't hurt so why not!

We are in the process of officially adopting our puppy today! She will go to live at the in laws until we move (Nov 14), but it's all coming together!

 

[greenarcher]

YAY! Please post pictures of her!

Glad to hear you confirmed O, Mnelson! How late did it end up being?

What is your second job star? Does DH work? I hope you guys won't have to worry too much about it... :/

DH said he doesn't want to try anymore, he just wants to NTNP. He doesn't think we should be having children (because we don't take very good care of ourselves). He thinks he's going to be a horrible, negative dad, and doesn't want to be responsible for bringing a child into this world. If it "just happens" though, then it's not his fault. Weird mindset, slightly depressing. Whatever. I'll still be trying. Taking EPO, maybe maca next month. But I won't be able to get husband to take any supplements, which sucks :/

But I've got to be grateful. My friend doing her final round of IVF had a worrying scan this week. Baby was measuring behind and had a slow heartbeat, which is not a good sign. I'm worried for her, she's the best person in the world, and she deserves this more than anyone I know. I believe her next scan is Monday. I'm not going to ask about it, let her approach me. It will either be good news that she'll want to share, or she'll be grieving and probably want to be left alone.

Please keep her in your thoughts, guys.

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh my goodness Green, I really hope for the best possible outcome for your friend. I cannot even imagine what she must be going through waiting for that scan, but I am thankful that she has a friend like you who can be a support for her. I think you're approach of letting her come to you is a good way to go about it. People often dont know what to do to help someone who is LTTC or going through IVF or going through something horrible like a miscarriage. I think the best thing we can do is ask them how we can help. Maybe they just need someone to listen to, maybe they need a day out for a distraction or maybe they need something else entirely.

I'm also sorry that your DH has checked out mentally from the TTC process. Guys have it so much easier, they can just do that. Us ladies really can't. At least you can still seduce him haha. I will still keep my fingers crossed for you that you will get that BFP quickly. It sounds like he has a lot of negative feelings surrounding fatherhood. I wonder if he might benefit from counselling? I'm sure getting him to go to counselling would be like pulling teeth (my DH also would refuse), but it can't hurt to try!

I will definitely post some photos of our new pup... just as soon as I can figure out how it all works haha

The packing for our move is going well, we had a very productive weekend that way. Its also been a nice distraction.

 

[greenarcher]

Amen for distractions. Do you have more packing to do this week? Thanks for the advice, that's what I actually did this weekend--I took her to the local beach and hunted for pokemon for a good distraction she's a great friend and her husband is awesome too.

Counseling is actually a really good idea. My husband has a psychologist that he went to for a while that really helped him. She also does family counseling, and we've talked about going before when we were going through a rough patch in our marriage. Maybe it's time to finally try it out.

Thank you so much for listening and responding. It's nice to still have you guys to go to about this.

 

[StarGazerRose]

I'll catch up tomorrow but i wanted to just gripe for a moment (more)
So I think I have a uti … I mean just my f'ing luck. And if I do then no sex of our vacation… Urgh!!! Seriously can't I have ONE thing go right????

 

[greenarcher]

Start the cranberry juice NOW! I personally do cranberry pills

 

[mnelson815]

Belle - Definitely post pics of the pup! I just love puppies and a little new one running around will be such a great distraction on the days when you need it!

Green - I am definitely keeping your friend in my thoughts! I can only imagine how scary for her, especially after finally getting that BFP through IVF that it can seem that much more fragile! Thinking such positive thoughts and I love the way you are helping her as well. I think it is definitely the best to not keep asking, I like the wait and have her approach when she is ready to talk. Although, I would be so nervous I would have a hard time trying to wait for the response but it is definitely for the best.

Also, my O was about 4 days behind on Femara, but did happen, and I swore it was both sides. I know you can't know for sure, but I definitely felt it on both and then a lot on the right on Saturday and then felt a lot of cramping on left on Sunday, so it could be possible.

I think its a tough situation with your DH. I think the counselling is a really great idea! Especially since he has done it before, I think that is a really positive thing to know he is open to the process. Did you guys have a talk before marriage about feelings on trying for kids? Has he always been indifferent towards being a parent or is it the stress of TTC that has made him rethink a bit?

 

[greenarcher]

I bet you did O from both sides! I know I've felt it on both sides before, when I usually feel it only on one side. I guess the only way to know for sure is if you conceive twins this month

Both of us sometimes have bad days where we just think we really shouldn't be parents. We talked kids before we got married, and he said he wanted kids, but he was scared he was going to be a shitty father. He doesn't want to raise our kids the way his mom raised him (little praise, lots of criticism; he can be very negative). I think the stress is getting to him, and he's a little depressed still looking for a job.

I told him, if you just love them, they'll be fine. Only way you can really screw up a kid is if they get hooked on drugs, knocked up/knock someone up, or die. Everything else you can recover from.

 

[BelleNuit]

Mnelson I'm sitting here anxiously waiting to see what femara does for you! If you end up with a positive this month I think I'll pretty much HAVE to try it haha

Green that is so positive that your DH is willing to pursue counselling. So many people don't when it could be of benefit to them.

I only have a couple pictures of puppy because she has to live at the inlaws until we move on Nov 14, but I'll post the couple that I do have. She is such a sweetie and growing so fast!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Green, I work in the frame shop at Hobby Lobby. Honestly I don't do much being such part time. But it's still a job that pays over 10$ an hour.
DH works too, so we're still doing alright.
It's just a crap shoot cause I just feel so defeated about all this. I mean I was my way of getting more experience in the field.

And now I can't event tell if I'm ovulating or just having pains from this UTI I think I have. I'm calling the doctor today anyways cause I have to schedule my day 21 blood test (which is tomorrow or Wednesday) so I'll probably just request to have a urine test to verify what I think.
Urgh. Every time I have things planned out in my head stuff just falls part! I was so happy about this cycle and now I know it's not possible. Grrr I just hope my blood test does come back high enough for ovulation, then at least one thing would go right this cycle.


Belle, ooo I wanna see pictures too! I can't wait! I love puppy pictures!!!
How exciting, moving and new puppy smell!!! Urgh I'm envious!

Green, I hate that your hubby feels that way, but I guess that's how men cope. Maybe the psychologist can help make him feel better.
Oh and give hugs to your friend and keep up the support.

Mnelson, it seems that I too ovulate late in my fertile window (as it hasn't adjusted quite yet) I'm taking 5mg of Letrozol. This cycle is a little messed up and I just hope that I get good test from it still.

 

[Illa]

Hi Everyone,
Hope you all had wonderful weekend.
Belle: Yay for puppies.. .what breed are they? Can't wait to see pictures... Hope your move goes smoothly

Mnelson: Good luck this cycle, hoping for eh BFP.. when would you be testing?

Green Archer, I will be thinking of your friend, keep us updated. I am sure she enjoyed the pokemon hunting with you . I kind of understand where your hubby is coming from... eventhough I really really want a kid, sometimes I wonder if I would be good mother... whether this is the right thing to do... bringing a life into this world and grooming them to be a good person is a very big responsibility, so I am constantly asking myself that, and DH has to calm me down... anyone else feel that way... don't get me wrong, I really really want a baby, I fully realized how much I wanted a baby when I got my AF last week, and literally broke down in the bathroom...

Star: Hang in there... things will take a turn for the best.. maybe it won't be a UTI.. and things can go as planned...

 

[greenarcher]

Illa, breaks my heart to hear about your break down. I don't think you're alone at all in feeling that way--it's a huge thing to handle. Teaching values and ethics, trying to shape them into good people, but not micromanage their lives. This shit sounds hard.

Doesn't mean we don't want to do it.

 

[mnelson815]

Totally agree with you ladies. When you think about it on the small scale like "I just want a baby" it can seem not so taxing. But then, when you think, I am going to mold a human life, it is a really big commitment. In all honesty though, I cannot wait. I believe it will be the absolute hardest thing I will ever do, but I also can't think of anything more rewarding. I can definitely see though when the fear and anxiousness about the situation can definitely take over!

I also feel like I need these puppy pics soon! I'm dying over here!

I will be testing around the 4th. I get spotting usually leading up to AF, so that usually means I am out. So I am not sure if I will actually test if that happens, as I kind of already know the result and hate seeing those blazing BFNs month after month! I am a terrible POAS addict though. Who knows what I am going to do?!

 

[greenarcher]

Her appointment is in 20 min. I can't concentrate on work.

 

[Illa]

Her appointment is in 20 min. I can't concentrate on work.

Hang in there Green... I will be thinking about her.
Let's hope for the best!!!

 

[StarGazerRose]

So I called early this morning and they got me an appointment in hours of my call --thank god!! I don't know what I would have done if I had to wait.
Anyways. Its not a UTI its a bacterial infection. I gotta take pills twice a day for a week. So my last pill will be right before vacation. But still no sex til after the pills are done.
But yippie for not a UTI meaning not as long to wait and vacation isn't totally ruined.
Now to figure out if I ovulated. That test is Wednesday. And I'm eager to see if I did, with all this stress I need more good news.
My boss found a connection to someone who might be able to find something quickly for us. But I'm still applying to tons of other places.

--
I fell the same about the afterwards part of becoming a mom. It's a huge responsibility that no one has given before. (Especially with us first timers) but I afree that it's one of the biggest blessings that you can get.
I'm sure we are all ready for it!

Come one Belle!!! We need pictures!!!

 

[BelleNuit]

Sorry guys I think I must be in a different time zone than most of you! It's still early afternoon here and I won't be home till later this evening to be able to post those puppy pictures! She's a Shepherd Pit Bull cross so will probably be a big girl!

Mnelson I hear ya, I hate seeing those blazing BFNs too! So much so that most months I don't test at all unless I have a specific reason to.

Green I'm still hoping everything is going well for your friend!

 

[greenarcher]

They didn't find a heartbeat. It's tearing me up inside, and it wasn't even my child. I can't imagine what she's going through right now.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Belle, It's almost 4 here (3:43p)
No worries when ever you get them up they will be loved!

Archer… honestly have know idea what to say here. It's heart breaking to know that they've put so much into the process and still can't have a kid. I hope that they can find another way to get the kid(s) they want.