TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[puma1986]

I'm on Adderall. I have ADD - Inattentative type. Not hyperactivity.

Belle: the Doc told me I shouldn't take my meds if pregnant because of the risk it poses to the child. I've read various statistics regarding Adderall and pregnancy. Lab rats who were given Adderall while pregnant had a significant number of birth defects so it's classified as a class C drug.

It has saved my life. I wasn't diagnosed until a couple of years ago. I actually was sent to a nueropsychiatrist because of memory loss and what he found was that I wasn't experiencing memory loss. Instead, I simply wasn't retaining information of stimuli around me because I was struggling to focus. I couldn't focus. I couldn't stay organized. I was extremely depressed. I couldn't even remember conversations I had earlier in the day. I went to numerous doctors or diagnosed me with bipolar, bipolar depression, general anxiety disorder, et cetera.

I went from struggling on a daily basis to being correctly diagnosed, on the correct meds, and being known for my attention to detail, organization, and thoroughness. I've received 3 separate awards just in the last year. My late diagnosis and medication have literally saved my life. This is a 180 turnaround from before.

Now....having said that.... I will gladly go off my medication for 9 months to have a healthy baby. Despite how zombie-esque and clutter minded I might be lol

im happy you are ok now puma. you're awesome !!!

D'awwwwww

 

[puma1986]

Since its 138am WEDNESDAY morning....

*CLEARS THROAT*

Achem.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR GOLDENNNNNNNNNNNNNN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUU
(and maaaaaaany more)

*******EDIT: I clearly need to go to sleep since I cant even get the day right. Since now, it's technically TUESDAY.

That's okay. ILL SING YOU happy birthday twice dang It. Why?!? Because you deserve it! So brace yourself for round two in under t-minus 23ish hours!

 

[TJ Islander]

LOL....Golden's Birthday? Happy bday girl!!

In other news, i tested this morning: Negative. the whole time i was sleeping i knew it was negative.

 

[BelleNuit]

Happy birthday Golden!

TJ sorry about your BFN!

CD 8 here and still creamy cm. I'm thinking I might O a little later this month just like last month. Which I think is a good thing. I'm hoping it means my hormones have finally evened out a bit since my anovulatory cycle (which I think was brought on by massive stress)

 

[GoldenRatio]

Omg Puma! You are so cute Thanks ladies for bday wishes! As i was reading, i questioned the day too "Holly Sh*t is it Wednesday already?"

Hehe really nice of you guys, i love this thread and i love all of you. Not leaving until everyone gives birth

TJ I was 6dpo last night and i tested before shower with 1 hour hold, and it was bfn hehe not sure why i did that. Yay for dam bfns
my temp went down too sooooo i got no hope this cycle.

 

[TJ Islander]

i still want to keep a little hope. its 12 dpo. i dont feel pregnant at all. im getting more cramps. i remember the last few months i stopped getting pms symptoms all together. i would only get cramps after AF started. now im getting cramps 6 days before..my cervix is still really high and soft. oh well...will see guys

 

[GoldenRatio]

Def there is hope TJ! even after af arrives, i do a test just incase

 

[TJ Islander]

i almost cried just now...so usually we get schools that come to us for presentation on rock and minerals. these are usually 4th grade kids. we would talk to them abt rocks and then show them our little museum.

so at the the start of it i asked them to introduce themselves and tell me what they wanted to be.

one of them was named Savannah thats my baby's name

omg...i want my baby i cant take this anymore

 

[GoldenRatio]

Aw dont worry hun, ur Savannah will come Im assuming thats a girl name? i might be wrong

She will be so cute with her curly hair? will she have curly hair?

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh TJ the last few days waiting for AF or your bfp are the absolute worst!

 

[OhHappyZ]

I'm at CD10, just waiting till next Monday so I can start with my OPK's. At least then I'll have something to do. Right now I check my cp and cm, but it's just wet, like no actual fluid, so it's borrrringgggg. Can I just be in the tww and symptom spotting already? At least then there is some excitement.

 

[puma1986]

Aweeeeee Ms. TJ!!!!! She will come!!!

 

[GoldenRatio]

OhHappyZ, i hate the beginning too! so boring until 7dpo.

 

[TJ Islander]

Aw dont worry hun, ur Savannah will come Im assuming thats a girl name? i might be wrong

She will be so cute with her curly hair? will she have curly hair?

Yes a girl ..lol... Not sure about the hair haha

but ironically that little girl had some serious curls. she seemed to be half Chinese/black. the cutest little thing.

 

[TJ Islander]

i now realize i hate the whole ttc process.
1. waiting on AF to end
2. waiting for fertile window
3. trying to have sex on the right days. i get miserable if i missed days.
4. then the tww, esp when its getting close to the end. being so confused about symptoms and the emotional roller coaster.
5. and finally the disappointment thats almost inevitable, or so it seems.

every time i see pl on fb having babies its so hard. and they talk about how happy they are..i dont get jealous but i get sad for myself that i've yet to experience that joy. and no matter how much i want it or pray, its not up to me in the end.

 

[BelleNuit]

It's true TJ, no matter what we do, to some degree it's out of our hands, and seems to be a matter of pure dumb luck.

Probably my favorite time of the whole process is the week leading up to O because then you can at least do something!

 

[puma1986]

This is real honesty. It IS hard. Really freaking hard. But thank God we don't have to go through the pain alone and we have each other. Eventually, every single one of us are going to have our bouncing baby. And remember to kick your DH's butt's if they sit with their laptop on their lap because the heat kills the sperm!!! I think I told you ladies before, but there was a couple who was TTC for like 2 years and they found it his laptop was killing their little swimmers. The month he stopped putting the laptop on his lap, is the month they conceived!

 

[BelleNuit]

Such good advice puma! My DH works from home and often has his laptop on his lap.... and he bikes.... and we like hot baths lol. This month we've cut out the baths, and he's working at the desk now, and is wearkng looser fitting pants. He still bikes, but that's exercise at least

I've also managed to cut back to one cup of coffee a day... it's a friggen miracle lol I was reading caffeine can reduce your fertility by 50%!

 

[OhHappyZ]

There are just so many things that can change your odds. It's crazy! Then some people do it all wrong and get an oopsybaby. Wtf man?!

 

[BelleNuit]

I know! My dad and step mom had an oops baby. She had an IUD, he had a vasectomy, and they are both in their 40s.... SOMEHOW they got pregnant! Lol it blows my mind. I thought I would get pregnant so quickly!