TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[greenarcher]

Dude nice! Hurray for early O! Less waiting your bd coverage looks great either way!

I'm still short on ewcm. Epo not helping with quality, just quantity. Womp womp.

 

[BelleNuit]

Green.... I've definitely turned green on more than one occasion following a pregnancy announcement lol. Your not alone! Happens to the best of us.

Puma so stoked for your ewcm! Haha

 

[BelleNuit]

I'm feeling angry and irritable this morning. Probably PMS which means AF will be on its way. That thought makes me so depressed. I know its too early to count myself out (only 9 dpo), but my mood always starts to tank around this time in my cycle.

I'm going to focus on my plan to call the doctor tomorrow to see if all of my test results are in. That might distract me from my feelings. I might cancel/reschedule that dinner date next week if I'm feeling truly miserable. I don't need to subject myself to that on top of everything else. I actually have no desire to see her at all.

 

[greenarcher]

Irritability is a sign for everything, not just af! Too early to be out!

 

[BelleNuit]

Thanks Green that makes me feel better about things. O must be coming up soon for you??

 

[greenarcher]

Should be! Still no ewcm in sight. Husband has to prepare a presentation for an interview, so he's been stressing and harder to get in the bed :/

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh boy interviews are stressful enough, never mind when a presentation is involved! I hope it goes well for him! When is it?

 

[greenarcher]

Monday!

Are you not planning on testing early? Waiting until Sunday?

Puma, positive opk yet? Ride the cowboy?

 

[puma1986]

Belle: Yeah, I would definitely not waste my time if you truly have no desire to see her. Sounds like way too much stress. You're the painter of your own life. No need to paint yourself into a situation which would cause you to feel depressed or stressed out. Just say "I'm sorry, I wanted to come but I have some really important things I need to take care of and won't be able to make it. I hope the dinner party goes well!" I bet that a huge weight will be lifted off of you. As for your emotions - you have a lot going on!!! You definitely cannot attribute AF's arrival by how you're feeling emotionally at 9DPO! If you did implant this cycle already, your hormones will be totally out of wack and messing with you anyways! Remember, we are here for you if she does show, but I am crossing my fingers for you super tight this month!!!!

Green: Good luck to your DH! Interviews are always exciting. You can't blame him for being focused! I would try to help him get ready for it (if there's anyone you can contribute!) so he has more time in the evenings for BD time! My OPK this morning still wasn't quite positive yet. I'll take another one this evening. Still lots of EWCM and my libido is rising rapidly, so that's great news!

It's been so long since I've seen BabyC! I saw that she posted in another forum (bumpbuddies) recently. I definitely miss her and hope her pregnancy is going well! I haven't heard from Golden too much either recently so I hope she is doing well, too! Anyone hear from TJ? Is she doing okay? I don't have facebook anymore so I can't check up on her.

 

[BelleNuit]

I honestly don't know what I would do without you ladies to keep me sane during the last week of the TWW each cycle! Thank you puma, I'm definitely going to see how I'm feeling with the dinner date next week, and I don't see any reason to torture myself over it. Thank you I know its a little crazy to blame emotions on AF lol. I just want it so much by this point that I'm becoming crazy myself! I know I'll be able to count on you guys to help me get through it if she does show. Either way, next week we will be on to the next step, whether that's a pregnancy or starting with a fertility doc... will just have to wait and see.

Green, I'm not planning to test at all until AF is late, which would be Wednesday (the day of our fertility appointment ironically). AF is due Tuesday. But I should start spotting on Sunday if AF is planning to show, so I guess I'll have some suspicions by Sunday either way.

Puma, sounds like you are heading into your peak fertile days! Woo Hoo! I have a good feeling about this month for you! As always, my fingers are crossed extra tight for the both of you!

Ya, I was wondering about BabyC and saw she had posted elsewhere (is that cheating???? LOL). I'm going to bet that no news is good news, but our little chat group is definitely much quieter these days as a result. Golden seems to pop in every now and then, so I'm assuming shes around. TJ is still posting on facebook, so we can presume she is doing okay I haven't heard from her in a long time either and I hope everything went okay with her job interview!

 

[puma1986]

So back around March I bought 100 of the clinical guard hpt tests. I remember joking about how I would donate them to whoever hadn't conceived it if I got my bfp quickly. Its no laughing matter. I'm down to 8 tests and just bought my second batch of 100 tests. Sigh.

At least it gives me the freedom to POAS many times a day during my tww.

 

[BelleNuit]

Lol! I love that puma!! I've been there too.... I keep buying more pre-seed and swear each time it's my last tube... It never is lol

 

[BelleNuit]

This will be your last batch of Internet cheapies, of that I'm sure!

 

[greenarcher]

Thanks for the luck ladies! I've been listening to him present and offering advice. I'll be glad when it's over.

Is the dinner scheduled for before or after af is due?

Puma, I think we might be cycle twins again and o at the same time. My libido is nuts today, to the point of distraction. Opk yesterday not even close (yes I broke and took one). I'm due to on saturday.

I really hope you don't have to buy more hpts, but I totally feel you with the guilt free testing!

 

[greenarcher]

Where do you buy preeseeed? My Kroger didn't have it

 

[BelleNuit]

I buy it at London Drugs. I don't know if they have those in the states or not?

The dinner date would be after AF, but only 2 days after our fertility appointment. So we may be feeling raw from that.

DH told his parents that we have been struggling. I hadn't wanted his parents to know, but I can understand that he is wanting to reach out for emotional support, so I guess I can't be too upset with him. I think his mom understands somewhat. She tried for years with her first husband and never conceived (he refused to get tested), and then she conceived easily with her second husband. So I suppose she may understand the frustration. I still didn't want her to know though lol. Oh well

 

[puma1986]

Thanks Green - I seriously wouldn't be surprised if we were synced back up! LOL I've found preseed at walmart at at Riteaid and Walgreens! I also buy it off of Amazon.

Belle: Eep! That would be tough! It's a personal venture, and i doubt you want someone else continually asking and judging what you're eating/drinking and how you're living your daily life to determine a cause. I'm sure it provided DH quite a bit of relief though, so that's good!

 

[puma1986]

EEP! I need your eyes here ladies. Please!

Remember how on Thursday I told you that my OPK was almost positive, but not quite? I think it might have been positive! My EWCM has disappeared and has turned watery at best (but mostly dry!) and it looks like my OPKs are becoming lighter! What do you think? Do you think Thursday was a positive opk? Not to mention I had a second temp dip today which I think is normally indicative of ovulation?

 

[greenarcher]

Yes I think that you're right! Thursday looks Damn near positive enough! Let's see what your Temps do

 

[greenarcher]

I went to 3 different stores yesterday looking for preseed and none had it! Ugh