TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[StarGazerRose]

Well I'm gonna take another round of the same dosage and see if that's what it was -- stress or just a fluke.
If I don't get results from November then I'll see about a higher dosage. But Now I'm taking it one cycle at a time.
Also since my cycle stared in its own I'm curious if I didn't produce enough natural hormones to create a follicle.
Urgh once again too many different aspects affect our bodys.

 

[mnelson815]

Green I did aspirin back in the summer had to quit as digestive system couldn't tolerate it. I took it for 2 weeks before O and my AF was still only 2.5 days long so I don't think it did anything for me. Hope it's helpful for you though!

The article indicated I believe that it was supposed to help in the second half of the cycle when the lining is thickening with the help of progesterone after ovulation, so perhaps that is why it didn't help since you had to stop before O? But yes, if stomach problems caused you to quit, I definitely wouldn't try it again as those "stomach bleeding" issues they mention in the article definitely sound like no joke!

Its good to see you back, even if it isn't for long Hope you're feeling better!

 

[greenarcher]

I think it's a little column A and B. Lining develops about a week before O to about a week after. I'd probably take it all month (but stomach problems do not sound fun).

I of course have forgotten all about it, and don't have any aspirin, baby or otherwise. I'm just gonna ride out this cycle and think about it in the future. 3 or 4 dpo, ish. So ready to be done with this cycle.

 

[BelleNuit]

I hear you green. I'm ready to be done too. I'm 9/10 dpo today. Will start lightly spotting tomorrow or Sunday.

On the other hand I don't think I'm ready to start cycle 15 in a couple days either.

I decided I won't start femara until January. Things will be crazy this next cycle with moving, boston and having our puppy Zola move in with us, so I don't want the added stress of medicated TTC. So we'll try naturally for the next 2 cycles, potentially take a break over the Xmas holidays for my 17th cycle so I can get my drink on and not worry about it (holidays are bad enough as it is without ttc) and then we'll start femara on our 18th cycle in January Take it until the 20th cycle and potentially start medicated IUIs on our 21st cycle (but might wait till June to start IUIs as bros wedding is in May)

In the meantime our plan is to save up our pennies. January 2018 we'll do IVF if no success over this next year

 

[greenarcher]

I... didn't think the medication would add stress? Do you mean that it would throw your cycle out of wack or maybe get your hopes up, which would add stress? I take daily pills anyways, so one more pill wouldn't be a big deal, to me at least.

I guess I don't see the point in waiting to try medicated cycles. In fact, being busy would help me forget that I was TTC. Can you clarify for me what the added stress would be? Also, is OH aware of the costs associated with IUI and IVF? Maybe seeing those numbers laid out, and how much you would have to put away between now and then, would get him off the weed for good. I'm not sure what's covered with the Canadian health care system.

 

[mnelson815]

Sounds like a really solid plan! Sometimes its nice to know there is a plan in place for the future, so the stress can be a little lighter day to day. I really hope it doesn't have to get to any of those later stages for you though Belle!

 

[mnelson815]

Green - A whole bunch of nothing is covered in my province. Everything fertility related is out of pocket. There are a few provinces that will offer one cycle, or a tax break or something. Currently though, anything IUI, IVF, medicated cycle monitoring, etc. is not covered. Things like HSGs, some blood work, some ultrasounds (non monitoring ones) are covered. Oh, and anything surgical, like polyp removals or surgery for endo.

 

[BelleNuit]

Green medicated cycles would be stressful for me personally. Emotionally I am not ready. I am so fucking angry that I am in this position in the first place. So no I'm not excited at the prospect at starting medicated cycles. The idea of it makes me recoil. I am disgusted that this is happening to me.

And on top of it all medicated cycles do squat all for unexplained infertility anyway. It gives you the same success rate as trying on your own!

Furthermore since Im set on delaying the start of invasive fertility treatments (the cost of which is NOT covered at all) I don't want to be in the position of having failed 3 medicated cycles only to go back to regular TTC. While I know logically that it offers the same success rate, emotionally it's worse to have failed medicated cycles.

With unexplained infertility the road to acceptance is a long one because it could always just happen randomly at some point. There is no reason why it shouldn't happen so it makes it that much harder to accept and tolerate fertility treatment. Frankly I need more time and I'm young enough to take it

 

[greenarcher]

Okay, that made sense to me. I feel you, and I'm hoping for the best for you.

This isn't your fault, keep that in mind. You are an awesome person and DH is better for having met you. You will get pregnant, whether it takes a few month months or a few years, it will happen.

(I'm still hoping this cycle post-HSG is your lucky one)

 

[BelleNuit]

Thanks Green, I hope so too. I guess I'll know what's up in the next day or 2 as I'll start spotting. Spotting is pretty much the reason why I can get away with not pregnancy testing lol.

 

[StarGazerRose]

So much crap going on this month, huh ladies ...

Belle, good to here you have a plan and can focus on other things for a while.

Well, I'm gonna be off til the next week. Gotta get some packing, shopping and cleaning done before we leave.

I hope that you all have a good week!

 

[greenarcher]

Keep us posted these next few days, Belle. Or rather, just update your FF chart, cause I'm totally stalking.

Star - Sounds like an exhausting week! See you soon!

 

[BelleNuit]

Whelp, I started spotting and right on time. The last couple cycles its started at 11 dpo right around noon, today was no exception. At least now I know I can enjoy Halloween guilt free and I'll be able to enjoy some drinks in Boston.

DH and I have been in screaming matches all week (after I caught him smoking weed again). Today I was finally able to have a calm conversation with him. I explained the plan.... meds in january, IUI in June, IVF in January 2018, and then I explained the risks and the costs of all the procedures. I explained that IUI with injectibles has a higher success rate than IUI with femara, but that the risk of twins or triplets is also higher and that if we had triplets that he would be a full time stay at home parent (I earn over double what he does and have a professional license to maintain so its not an option for me). I also explained what happens with ovarian hyperstimulation and how it can be FATAL. But for whatever reason the fear of triplets seemed to do it for him and he's agreed to quit weed (again) starting now and that we would both renew our efforts for healthy living so that we can put our best foot forward in January when we start meds.

Cycle 15 here I come

 

[greenarcher]

Fuck I'm sorry to hear belle, but at least dh is finally seeing sense.

I know you always spot before af, but please test if you're going to drink tonight. Spotting is common in early pregnancy too.

 

[BelleNuit]

I didn't test but also didn't get drunk. Had 2 glasses of wine so I'm not worried about it.

The spotting stopped completely and was just very light yesterday. It's possible I'm only 11 dpo today so the spotting will likely start to pick up later today and tomorrow. Not bothering to get hopes up as have been disappointed so many times before

 

[greenarcher]

That's good, 2 drinks should be fine. Interesting that spotting stopped.... I will keepmy hopes up for you

 

[BelleNuit]

Spotting started up again so time to just accept my fate :/

 

[sil]

Star, good luck with the pack and move!

Belle, sorry about the spotting and about dh. Hopefully this time he really tries to quit and things go in your favor. Come on bfp!

Green, how are you?

 

[mnelson815]

I am definitely out again this month as well, and right back to hating Femara. My luteal phase had been increasing month after month from 11 days for my first cycle off birth control to 14 days. Then last month it reverted back to 12 days - and I just started spotting at 7dpo this month. I am just absolutely frustrated at this point. My spotting was also decreasing from 7 days pre AF to about 2-3, so either my Femara caused my spotting to go back to it's old ways or it has SEVERELY shortened my LP, both of which are causing me to go insane.
All I keep doing is hoping that AF holds off to at least 11 dpo so I can still have an okay luteal phase.
Ugh. I am so sick of this. I am sick of the spotting and that NO doctor seems to even think its an issue. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

 

[BelleNuit]

mnelson I can completely relate. I always spot 3-4 days before AF, I don't think thats normal but the docs don't seem to care! Mass doses of B6 reduced the spotting to only 2 days before AF (never completely got rid of it) but you can't continue to take such large doses of B6 all the time as its not healthy!

I'm feeling big time frustrated too. AF will likely show this evening. Sorry that femara doesn't really seem to be doing the trick for you I'm holding off on starting it until January. I'm not terribly hopeful that it will do anything though.