TTC 40 plus!! Lets share the ups and downs!

[Garnet]

Glowie gorgeous little one in there!!!

Spoomie im sorry the witch got you I also have recently gotten back into running I'm training for a 5 k in nov. Are you training for anything specific, or just fitness

Thanks pdmcd17. Having a cr*p day today; it always feels so much worse when one gets one's hopes up....note to self. Can't shake the feeling that this is just never going to happen for me again as it has been a whole year this month since I last managed to get pregnant and my efforts have been nothing short of heroic, pouring my heart and soul into it, leaving no stone unturned, so maybe that tells me something?

My running? I'm hoping it helps me to find myself again because I really miss my old self and don't much care for the one I've got now. I am, or rather was, a marathon runner and it pretty much used to define me. After giving birth to my son in 2008 I was sub-3hr marathon fit in 8 months but since falling pregnant in August 2010 and mc in November I have barely run. I try for a couple of weeks and then fall off the wagon when af knocks me sideways. I always thought I was an incredibly strong person but now I realise just how weak I am. I know that not running is contributing to my depression (tonight I googled 'am I sad or depressed'!!!) and it feels like time to stop putting the rest of my life on hold and to give ttc a place in my life as opposed to making IT my life.

Sorry pdmcd, you got the long answer!

 

[Garnet]

Aw Spoomie, I am fine. I am so sorry she got you.
Your temperature chart looked ridiculously good - maybe you should give it a miss next month. Having just charted for the first month in 3, I felt much worse on CD1 then if I don't temp. Maybe it's time to put our thermometers away post-O and just wait and see.
I hope you can get running and feel motivated. Wish I was there to really give you a hug x

Hey Reb, thanks for your lovely comments. Every month I try to give up temping post-O and every month I fail (except the one my DH recorded my temps in secret). I really, really must try though because you are so right, it would definitely help me to feel better and to remember that there is NOTHING I can do to determine the outcome by that stage anyway, so I should seize the chance to be a bit less miserable!!!

Feeling quite proud of myself that I have not resorted to a glass of wine or bar of chocolate tonight and will try to abstain from my monthly cup of coffee tomorrow morning! Gosh, my life is so dull......... Thinking of giving acupuncture a go because I read a really interesting Zita West article about failure to conceive and stress (you don't say) and I have heard from several people that acupuncture is good for both - if you see what I mean. Anyway, I spoke to an acupuncturist who I am thinking of starting some treatment with and he said that while ttc coffee, alcohol, chocolate, cheese and ice-cream should be avoided which is a real bugger because I enjoy all of them, especially cheese and chocolate!

aah Spoomie, I know how you feel. Back in Jul 09 I got pregnant after giving up eventhough that ended in MC. We tried for almost a year and I didn't use OPK and told hubby to forget it cause it wasn't happening and whamo I got pregnant... I've heard great things about Acupunture and it has worked for a lot of women. Good luck my friend...

 

[Reb S]

Hi Garnet,
Good to see you - how are things with you? x

 

[Miss_C]

only got a sec but just wanted to share a quick story, met a lovely lady at the Baby Show Today - 43 years old very overweight confined to a wheelchair since 15 or 16, met the love of her life 2 years ago at 41, decided to find out if they coud have children - told by her fertility specialist that she had 0% chance of conceiving with FSH in the 30's and an AMH of 0.06 that's right zero point zero six! That was 6 months ago, she got all depressed and said ah well well at least we know we are wasting our time trying, she is now 21 weeks pregnant with a healthy little girl on board!

 

[Spoomie]

aah Spoomie, I know how you feel. Back in Jul 09 I got pregnant after giving up eventhough that ended in MC. We tried for almost a year and I didn't use OPK and told hubby to forget it cause it wasn't happening and whamo I got pregnant... I've heard great things about Acupunture and it has worked for a lot of women. Good luck my friend...

Thanks Garnet. I know there is a lot of 'evidence' that ttc is successful once you give up and it is DEFINITELY to do with relaxing, I'm convinced. My story is similar to yours; last Summer, after just over 6 months of ttc no 2 I had accepted that it just wasn't to be and determined to be content with my beautiful DS. The next month I was pregnant. If only I could recapture that laissez faire approach then I am sure the rest would follow. But how does one MAKE oneself relax?! Now I'm like a dog with a bone who just can't let go and move on from mc, terrified that my happy coincidence of falling pregnant last year was last chance saloon. I know I'll be fine by tomorrow, cd3 the clouds usually start to lift. Plus, I have reflexology booked for tomorrow evening which is sooo relaxing and will start acupuncture in a couple of weeks. Onwards and upwards!!

 

[Jennjenn]

I'm so impressed with your marathon times, plus just being able to do it at all. My DH is training for one this December and it is hard work and a lot of focus. For me TTC became an overwhelming obsession to the point it hurt my job performance and relationship with DD. I hope you can find your inner peace and the focus to get back out there and run again!

 

[Spoomie]

Thank Jennjenn. Running will be my escape route, I am convinced. When I am running well, all else falls into place. The focus and hard work is what I love. I am terrified that this obsession will impact on DS, it is already frustrating beyond belief for my DH, who tries hard to be supportive most of the time, but doesn't really know what else to do to help me (aside from the obvious!)

Hope your husband has a great time and loves the experience. It must be hard to train in the heat of Texas for a marathon? I live in SW London and only ever competed in Spring marathons so that I could train through the depths of Winter! I find it so much easier to run in the cold than I do in the heat. Our household is quite funny as my DH is also a runner, but a South African. He spends all Winter complaining about it being too cold to run and I spend all Summer complaining about ti being too hot to run!

 

[Jennjenn]

LOL that is funny. We pretty much can exercise outdoors all year except for July, August and first part of Sept...we prefer after work, not early morning. And it is really hot after work! Good Luck!

 

[Spoomie]

Had first consultation with acupuncturist and an appointment proper booked for next Saturday. Slightly deflated as she said that running would not be conducive with acupuncture, rather more gentle exercise. I don't really 'do' any other exercise, especially not gentle exercise, I am a pure runner! But, if it gets me where I want to be then I am prepared to sit on my larger-than-it's-ever-been-in-my-life backside for a few more months and see if she gets results. So, my holistic program for the week ahead looks like this: tomorrow, fall asleep and feel chilled and at peace through reflexology, next Saturday, pay someone to stick pins in me. Hmmm, now I KNOW there must be things in my head that are not quite lined up........

 

[samiam]

Had first consultation with acupuncturist and an appointment proper booked for next Saturday. Slightly deflated as she said that running would not be conducive with acupuncture, rather more gentle exercise. I don't really 'do' any other exercise, especially not gentle exercise, I am a pure runner! But, if it gets me where I want to be then I am prepared to sit on my larger-than-it's-ever-been-in-my-life backside for a few more months and see if she gets results. So, my holistic program for the week ahead looks like this: tomorrow, fall asleep and feel chilled and at peace through reflexology, next Saturday, pay someone to stick pins in me. Hmmm, now I KNOW there must be things in my head that are not quite lined up........

I am so sorry to see that the witch got you, Spoomie. But look at that nice long luteal phase you had!! Acupuncture really helps me chill out. But I also run. Not training runs, mind, but long slow things that keep me from feeling depressed. And I was considering starting training again this fall (AZ is WAY too hot to ever do any races in the fall). I'm with you; I'd MUCH rather be cold when running than hot, which means that I train all fall and winter for Spring races. In the spring I even get up at 5 a.m. just to try to get my runs in before the sun comes up because once it touches your skin, wham-o, too frickin hot. Anyway. The point of all of my rambling is that you can do some gentle running--it increases the blood flow to the ovaries and uterus and that's something that older women need in order to ttc. But think of it more as that instead of training.

 

[pdmcd17]

Spoom Could you possibly do a slow 5 k run ie a nice slow pace maybe a 7-9 min/ k??? That would be a gentle exercise for you

Ironically the average runner is a 7 min/ km
Goodluck

 

[Spoomie]

Thanks Sam and pd... I had never thought of that! Doh. That sounds like a perfect approach instead of assuming everything has to be at 4 min/ks (or sub 7 min miling as we like to say over here!) My head equates running with training. It would incentivise me to get up early too so that no one I know sees me doing it!!! Vanity is a most undesirable quality.

pd.... I'm sorry to hear about your mum, but thanks for understanding exactly what I mean about the stop-start nature of it these days. It's tough when it used to be something that gave me such joy and now that I'm unfit it just feels hard! If I do decide to go with gentle running then I'd be happy to be your cyber training partner, and when we're both back on top I'm going to coach you to a sub 2 hr half marathon!

 

[Garnet]

Hi Garnet,
Good to see you - how are things with you? x

Well Reb S. I think I'm pregnant but waiting until Monday to confirm because I will be really depressed if I get a BFN. I used the Instead cups and Soy 68mg days 5-9. My body doesn't seem to respond to Clomid but Soy it does cause in February I got pregnant on Soy too. The only thing that is different this time is I'm also on progestone pessuaries(sp) Hoping that helps because I can defineatly tell the difference in during the last AF. I had more energy. Also if I am pregnant I seem to have way more energy then the last two pregnancies. The last two I was in bed by 9 pm and took a nap everyday. So I think the progestone is going to help. Wish me luck and best wishes to you too...

 

[amommy]

How exciting Garnet.. I have everything crossed for you!! May I ask what your symptoms are? or what gave you the inkling that you might be pg?? Inquiring minds would like to know hehehe!

 

[Reb S]

OOOOOh, Garnet, fingers hugely crossed!! That would be fantastic news. Let us know asap x

 

[Spoomie]

Crossing everything for you Garnet xxx

 

[Glowstar]

Sam, just wanted to say your charts are looking awesome. It's like something has woken up and been kick started!!

 

[Reb S]

Rashaa - sorry she got you xx

 

[Garnet]

How exciting Garnet.. I have everything crossed for you!! May I ask what your symptoms are? or what gave you the inkling that you might be pg?? Inquiring minds would like to know hehehe!

Well my first inkling was my sensitivity to smell. My husband does his business and sprays air freshener and over does it. I was about to take the can and bang him over the head. I also hot flashes and boobies are swelling. Hopefully it is pregnancy not AF being late. I have been known to have a cycle of 36 days twice in the last two years. I'm normally am somewhat regular 28-32 days... Sorry for bad typing job but have to bake a cake for picnic this afternoon. Good luck ladies...

 

[LLbean]

Garnett... Fxd for you!!!! Hope it is a BFP!!!