JustMeNewMom
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Hi Alexp and all
Thanks for sharing your story and journey. It brought a lump to my throat and I got all choked up, remembering our baby angel. I'm sorry to hear your first husband treated you the way he did re a memorial and glad you found your own way to honour the memory of your baby angel. I'm not allowed to post links yet until I have ten posts under my belt and will share when I've reached my 10 post quota.
When DH and I got pregnant the first time after 15 months of unprotected sex, we had given up by the time we got pregnant ie weren't planning anymore and it just happened and it took us by complete surprise. We had been to a tantra weekend and only had sex like twice in two weeks before I ovulated.
My BBT was down today which I felt upset about though not sure if it was a real and valid reading as we went to bed early and I got up when the clock on the wall said 1am, thinking ok I have till 5am to sleep to take my BBT, then went back to sleep and when I woke up again the clock on the wall said 2am and then it said 2.20am when I looked again. By this time I was tossing and turning and couldn't sleep so I took my BBT and it was low. Then my 5am BBT alarm went off and I realised the clock on the wall was some 2 hours behind; and I'm not sure if I woke up and took my BBT within an hour of getting out of bed; and not sure if the temperature was valid.
Having said all that, I took two tests today and they are still BFNs. I am on Day 29; which is technically either on time or a day early to test; so there's perhaps hope left; unless my BBT continues to drop tomorrow in which case then AF is definitely on her way.
I however do feel pregnant (and wondering if my mind and body are playing tricks on me as it has done in the past). I feel like my period is coming, which I don't usually feel when my period is coming as it just turns up unexpectedly; and my stomach is very sensitive. It's the sensation of feeling your period is here already and I'm already in my flow and my stomach tingles. That is the sensation I'm feeling most of the time which makes me feel I have to be pregnant as that's how I felt when I was pregnant before throughout the pregnancy until then one day it stopped and I didn't feel pregnant (I wonder if it was around the 8 week mark when the baby died inside me). I'm just totally confused and just having to ride out the storm and wait and see what happens over the next few days. The next one to three days should be interesting as last month I was 2 days late ie AF came on D32. Usually my AF arrives on D29.
It would have been so nice to be pregnant this time round as we'd have our first scan just before Christmas. Hubby has six children with his ex wife (yup six as she used him as a sperm donor to have the kids to keep him in the marriage as he loves kids) ranging from 5 years to 20 years of age and who refuses to let him see the 5 kids who are still living with her (as she knows this hurts him where it hurts the most); though we recently after 15 months fighting with the Courts have got a Court Order for him to see his 5 year old son for an hour every fortnight with a view to a longer visit in 3 months. For us to have a child of our own would mean so much as his other kids have been alienated against him and he'll probably never see them till they leave home and are away from their mother's influence.
I'm glad I found this forum as it's nice to be able to share with those over 40 and be inspired
Baby dust to all ^i^
Thanks for sharing your story and journey. It brought a lump to my throat and I got all choked up, remembering our baby angel. I'm sorry to hear your first husband treated you the way he did re a memorial and glad you found your own way to honour the memory of your baby angel. I'm not allowed to post links yet until I have ten posts under my belt and will share when I've reached my 10 post quota.
When DH and I got pregnant the first time after 15 months of unprotected sex, we had given up by the time we got pregnant ie weren't planning anymore and it just happened and it took us by complete surprise. We had been to a tantra weekend and only had sex like twice in two weeks before I ovulated.
My BBT was down today which I felt upset about though not sure if it was a real and valid reading as we went to bed early and I got up when the clock on the wall said 1am, thinking ok I have till 5am to sleep to take my BBT, then went back to sleep and when I woke up again the clock on the wall said 2am and then it said 2.20am when I looked again. By this time I was tossing and turning and couldn't sleep so I took my BBT and it was low. Then my 5am BBT alarm went off and I realised the clock on the wall was some 2 hours behind; and I'm not sure if I woke up and took my BBT within an hour of getting out of bed; and not sure if the temperature was valid.
Having said all that, I took two tests today and they are still BFNs. I am on Day 29; which is technically either on time or a day early to test; so there's perhaps hope left; unless my BBT continues to drop tomorrow in which case then AF is definitely on her way.
I however do feel pregnant (and wondering if my mind and body are playing tricks on me as it has done in the past). I feel like my period is coming, which I don't usually feel when my period is coming as it just turns up unexpectedly; and my stomach is very sensitive. It's the sensation of feeling your period is here already and I'm already in my flow and my stomach tingles. That is the sensation I'm feeling most of the time which makes me feel I have to be pregnant as that's how I felt when I was pregnant before throughout the pregnancy until then one day it stopped and I didn't feel pregnant (I wonder if it was around the 8 week mark when the baby died inside me). I'm just totally confused and just having to ride out the storm and wait and see what happens over the next few days. The next one to three days should be interesting as last month I was 2 days late ie AF came on D32. Usually my AF arrives on D29.
It would have been so nice to be pregnant this time round as we'd have our first scan just before Christmas. Hubby has six children with his ex wife (yup six as she used him as a sperm donor to have the kids to keep him in the marriage as he loves kids) ranging from 5 years to 20 years of age and who refuses to let him see the 5 kids who are still living with her (as she knows this hurts him where it hurts the most); though we recently after 15 months fighting with the Courts have got a Court Order for him to see his 5 year old son for an hour every fortnight with a view to a longer visit in 3 months. For us to have a child of our own would mean so much as his other kids have been alienated against him and he'll probably never see them till they leave home and are away from their mother's influence.
I'm glad I found this forum as it's nice to be able to share with those over 40 and be inspired
Baby dust to all ^i^
I'm still clinging on to a little hope left for the next 24-72 hours that I'll get a BFP; though also am realistic and know AF could pop her head through any minute. 
Morning Beautiful Ladies! x
arrived or rather I started spotting early afternoon and there's me clinging to hope it'll just be spotting and ha ha nothing else though that's just the mind playing tricks and clinging on to hope and being in denial! So it's a two week wait then now till I ovulate again.
