ttc after a d&c

[xoxo4angel]

I hope they make the necessary changes that work to your advantage...now will the phone to ring

 

[horseypants]

I'm waiting for emails I think if i dont get a message within two hours, i will have to look forward to an answer tomorrow

 

[mommylov]

keep talking that cheers me up. im really ok - but just feeling freaked out about the due date coming up and no good news on my front since. it's like im fine now, but i know it's not gonna be a pretty month. it'll be so sad since i was supposed to have a baby by xmas. but keep talking and know im not as self centered as i sound lol.

Not at all!!!

 

[mommylov]

My childhood friend who was preg with me jus sent me an invitation to her baby shower. She lives in Cali and I now live in co. I know I just told her about the 2nd mc this past weekend and she probably sent out the invite before that but it broke me. Thought I was doing fairly well but really am not. I don't know that I can handle this.

 

[aaronswoman79]

My childhood friend who was preg with me jus sent me an invitation to her baby shower. She lives in Cali and I now live in co. I know I just told her about the 2nd mc this past weekend and she probably sent out the invite before that but it broke me. Thought I was doing fairly well but really am not. I don't know that I can handle this.

Amy, I just got on. So sorry about what you are going through. If it helps at all, I don't feel as joyous as I am suppose to, at times I am scared sh**less. But I am sorry about what you are going through. I am sure your friend didn't know about your miscarriage until after she sent the invite. I think what you are feeling is perfectly normal Amy, I think you are so so strong and I admire that about you. I am not nearly as strong as you. You have always been there for all of us and we love and appreciate you so much. If there is anything in any way any of us can do please tell me. I know words are not nearly enough, and I wish we could all be there for you. Now is a good time to really lean on your husband he really is your pillar of strength right now. Every time you feel very down, think about the strong love that both of you share, that strong love will get both of you a perfectly healthy LO, just have faith. I know it is easier said than done.

A little secret about me Amy.. I have no friends in real life, and I mean no friends. I totally isolated myself since having my daughters. I am a completely guarded person because of trauma I experienced in the past. I am slowly trying to get out there back into the real world and go to church and hopefully find some friends. But I consider all of you the most sincere and best friends I could have ever found. I virtually had no friends before all of you. So I cherish your friendship and all the support you have all given me. I am going to eventually open a Facebook account, so I can friend all of you. I don't want to lose all of your friendships.

 

[aaronswoman79]

Oh, and by that comment, "if it helps at all." I didn't mean it to sound like you would feel better if I felt like sh*t. I was just trying to relate to you, and tell you that I don't feel as happy as I am suppose to. I just don't want you to take it the wrong way.

 

[mommylov]

Awww Jess, I want you to enjoy this pregnancy. I hope you and your lo a healthy 8 months to bond in tummy and a lifetime outside. Thank you for your kind words... It made me cry but they were good tears. I feel the same way about you girls. I do have friends, a few I consider real friends, in real life but you girls too are very close to my heart. I just don't feel like myself right now. I feel like all I so is whine and cry and am such a downer to be around or talk to. I really thought I was ok but I think the invite just crushed me. I too don't think she knew at the time and she is a sweetheart but it just a reminder that our kids won't be a month apart. I would never want any of you to be sad, that would only make me even more sad. I truly wish nothing but the best for you all but I'm finding it harder and harder to think I will ever be a mom or to know what it feels like to feel my baby kick or have my lo arms around my neck hugging me. I just don't know anymore...

 

[aaronswoman79]

Awww Jess, I want you to enjoy this pregnancy. I hope you and your lo a healthy 8 months to bond in tummy and a lifetime outside. Thank you for your kind words... It made me cry but they were good tears. I feel the same way about you girls. I do have friends, a few I consider real friends, in real life but you girls too are very close to my heart. I just don't feel like myself right now. I feel like all I so is whine and cry and am such a downer to be around or talk to. I really thought I was ok but I think the invite just crushed me. I too don't think she knew at the time and she is a sweetheart but it just a reminder that our kids won't be a month apart. I would never want any of you to be sad, that would only make me even more sad. I truly wish nothing but the best for you all but I'm finding it harder and harder to think I will ever be a mom or to know what it feels like to feel my baby kick or have my lo arms around my neck hugging me. I just don't know anymore...

Amy, you never bring us down. I feel guilty in a way because of how everything happened. And every time I want to share news about whats happening I think about you and don't want you to hurt. Let me give you a good piece of advice. I didn't pay much attention to the ttc last month and things just happened. I don't even know if this pregnancy is going to stick. Sometimes I get scared because I am good at getting pregnant, but not as good when it comes to carrying the baby.

Every pregnancy I have had since age 19 has had complications. I am not sure if you saw a previous post I made ( don't blame you if you didn't, one day constitutes pages and pages of posts. lol.) But with my first pregnancy I was brutally abused, almost killed, and only God knows how my older daughter survived. I ended up with pre-ecclampsia at the end of that pregnancy. A week after she was born, she almost died right in front of me and stopped breathing. I was 19 years old with a 1 week old baby, who lost 24 ounces in that first week of life, she had dehydration, an irregular heartbeat and stopped breathing. I had to watch the doctors put and iv in her tiny little foot, it was horrible. But.. she did survive, she ended up being the healthy young woman she is now. Went from underweight and not thriving to almost 5'7'' tall, and healthy.

What I am trying to say with all of this, is that you will overcome this. These are trials, I don't know why we have to go through all of this, but this will make you stronger honey. This I promise you. Right now you feel very sad, and this is how you are suppose to feel. At times sad, maybe at times numb, and surprisingly at other times glimmers of happiness. You are mourning, but believe me it will get better. You will get pregnant, you will have a happy pregnancy, and you will have that little child wrapped around you. You have a lot of time on your side hon. You are young and healthy.

 

[aaronswoman79]

I am Going to bed now Amy. I hope you feel better tonight. Have some good cuddle time with your dh. Talk to him about how you feel. He sounds like such a good man and very understanding. You both are blessed to have each other. Goodnight and God bless you honey.

 

[TTCSecrets]

he dont like sports (thank god) i cant stand sports haha !! Think i might do vouchers this year n fancy soaps like you said so at least they got somethin to unwrap!

Horsey how do i get my chart to display like yours does instead of the link?

And girls you cant whine enough on here, thats what we are all here for! We all have ups and downs and i think we all feel more ocmfortable being sad/moaning/venting and discussing our problems on ehre because people *on the outside* dont relate to us as much! I know that this is the one place i feel like i can moan and be sad and despressing and i will be cheered up! Thats what we are all here for !!!!

Hope youre all doing well, i kind of had to catch up quickly because im still ill and meant to be getting ready for wokr but struggling to drag myself to do it i feel so ill (( WIll be back on later for catch up properly!

Amy i hope youre okay!!! I really do i just want this all to be over with soon for you!!

Jess hope youre okay sweetie!

Jen and Laura hope bumps are okay!!

Angel im hoping i dont have to count out the m and ms present yet!! It would be a very easy present to get DH and at least i wouldnt have to buy him anything else hehe

Hope youre all okay anyone ive missed!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[xoxo4angel]

My childhood friend who was preg with me jus sent me an invitation to her baby shower. She lives in Cali and I now live in co. I know I just told her about the 2nd mc this past weekend and she probably sent out the invite before that but it broke me. Thought I was doing fairly well but really am not. I don't know that I can handle this.

Oh Amy I know it seems hopeless right now, but hold fast...time is the only true cure for the ache in your heart. I know after my second loss I had a few days where I couldn't even get out of bed because I was grief stricken. Thankfully I found you ladies. I have poured over the threads and lurked around in those about recurrent miscarriages and it gives me hope! There is one called "Third Time Lucky" and I believe all of the original women on there are currently expecting. You have a fab Dr assisting you now...you will have your LO!

 

[xoxo4angel]

Tash ~ hope you feel better and your work day goes by quickly!

Horsey ~ any word via email yet

Hi Kaylee :wave:

G'morning ladies!

Perfect rainy, stay in bed day because AF and her cousin, Cramps, are here and not playing nice!

 

[mommylov]

Jess, share away hun! Hearing success stories is what keeps us going! Dont ever feel like you cant enjoy and share great news about your pregnancy just because of me.. I would hate for you to do that.

Angel, it really is so hard going through this for a second time. I cant imagine how those that have gone through this 10+ time do it but they seem to have the strength and go on to have lo. Makes me feel like such a wimp. I broke down last night and DH came upstairs and layed with me and held me and was brushing his fingers through my hair and kissing me.. he was very comforting but it just made everything come out. Thats how I fell asleep last night, crying in his arms. I told him that it makes me feel like I dont want to ttc anymore... not even "Lets not paying attention and if it happens great"... just dont want to go through this again, I just cant. It makes you start to ask yourself "Am I THAT horrible of a person? I was a kid once and told a lie here and there but who hasnt? We learn from our mistakes and become mature, responsible adults. As much as it doesnt seem so according to this post, I really am at a loss for words. A part of me thinks with this new dr that it will be a simple fix and she'll figure it out but then if I do go through all this testing and still mc it will be that much harder. I seem to fall pregnant pretty much on the first try (both times) but cant grow my baby. I just feel... defeated.

I have every confidence in knowing that you all will have healthy, beautiful little ones and pray that it happens soon for those that are still waiting!

 

[xoxo4angel]

Amy...I really did and sometimes still do feel the same. I often think, what did I do that was so awful that I can't have a baby? Or as I look at the pregnant couple that I know cannot stand each other, I think, what did they do right to deserve such a gift? These negative feelings about ourselves are normal. Don't give up yet...I like to think our little one is being picky and wants things for Mommy and Daddy just so...

 

[TTCSecrets]

Hey ladies,

Amy so sorry to hear you are so upset but at the same time im glad that you are grieving and getting it all out if that makes sense I completely understand you saying you dont even know if you want to ttc anymore, i go through phases of that, like all of a sudden ill wake up and be like FUCK THIS scuse my french but i do, some days i just think i cant hack it anymore, all the opks and taking my temps and checking cervix position and cervical mucus etc ! It just gets too much sometimes!!! Completely understand, just know we are all here for you

Angel work was crap, like crappier than crap, they do not appreciate my work and do not understand how mentally challenging it is to sit on the phone for like 9 hours and be shouted at constantly, and having to talk to girls as young as 15 who are geting pregnant just so they can call me and ask how much extra benefit they will get..E.G i had a girl today who was pregnant, did not know who the father was ( she states she slept with a lad and his best mate within a 36 hour period and doesnt know which one :/) and she had called me today to find out , and i quote * So now im pregnant who do i call to chose a house that i want? And if i have another baby after this one will i get a nice bigger house?*

i was literally on the phone like
Like seriously?? And i had to grin and bear it and just give her the relevant numbers for her local council housing office... and i just sit there like, i have my own house ( rented mind but still its my own home* me and dh love eachother with all our hearts, we support ourselves, we both work... Yet girls like that deserve to carry a child and i dont? I too end up thinking maybe its punishment, i dont wish harm on these girls babies obviously i would never do that, but i sit there like lol!! xxx

Hope all u girls are okay xxxx

 

[aaronswoman79]

I'm spotting... Doesn't feel right, uterine cramping and burning in uterus area. It doesn't look good for me. Amy,Angel I think I will be on the other side of this very soon. I think I'm going to mc. I knew not to to get excited or happy with my pregnancy. I started getting use to being pregnant yesterday especially with the hcg levels, now this is happening? The spotting was very light, just once light brownish and a little pink, and it went away. But this is how it all started last time. I am going to get checked. My appmnt is at 3:30pm west coast time. This is not going to end well. I don't think I can carry babies anymore. Sorry so negative, but if by some miracle I don't miscarry, I will try my hardest to try and not get too attached because when I get attached it gets taken away from me.

Amy, glad you let all of that pain out, its hard to do, but in the long run it will help you emotionally. Don't hold it all in like I did. I ended up in the er 3 times for chest pains and anxiety because of it. The best way to move on is to let it all out. I love you all and I will keep you updated later.

 

[xoxo4angel]

Tash ~ what a painstaking job! In the end we will be rewarded with LO's...you are a good woman to be so courteous and to point those unfortunate women in the right direction!

Jess ~ spotting can be quite normal. Sending peaceful thoughts your way! Let us know how your appointment goes. Fx!

 

[mommylov]

Jess, spotting can be normal so dont fret just yet. Try and stay calm hun until your appt. I am sending well wishes your way hun. Try and rest up! Did you say the appt is today? Please keep us posted.

Tash and Angel, thank you girls. Trying to really get it together.

Angel, do you mind if I ask if you got preg those 2 times right away? Just wondering since we miscarried at the same time, maybe we have even more similarities that I should bring up with my dr.

Praying for us ALL for strength, peace, and healthy LO's.

 

[xoxo4angel]

Amy ~ I don't mind the questions at all. Anything you need to know feel free to ask.
#1 First month trying we fell pg #2 conceived after 2nd cycle
My RE said it's good that we can conceive on our own, my issue is obviously my egg quality. Not much they can do for that! I think yours seems to be progesterone...I really hope she will give you a prescription to take after ovulation from here on. Did she have you stop taking them already? (In addition to my prenatal, I take a B Complex...thought I read somewhere Vit B is good for progesterone)

Laura & Jen hope you and bumps are well today! xoxo

Going to finish making applesauce (found apples in fridge...had to find a way to save them before they spoil! I'm having a Bethany moment! Miss you girl!)

 

[mommylov]

Amy ~ I don't mind the questions at all. Anything you need to know feel free to ask.
#1 First month trying we fell pg #2 conceived after 2nd cycle
My RE said it's good that we can conceive on our own, my issue is obviously my egg quality. Not much they can do for that! I think yours seems to be progesterone...I really hope she will give you a prescription to take after ovulation from here on. Did she have you stop taking them already? (In addition to my prenatal, I take a B Complex...thought I read somewhere Vit B is good for progesterone)

Laura & Jen hope you and bumps are well today! xoxo

Going to finish making applesauce (found apples in fridge...had to find a way to save them before they spoil! I'm having a Bethany moment! Miss you girl!)

Thats the same as me.. wow! #1 was first month and #2 was after my second cycle. I too am worried that its my eggs. I mentioned that to my dr and she said that she would worry if I was over 40 but not at 32. I have heard of women being told they have bad eggs in thier 20's so you just never know. I know that I have a progesterone problem but Im terrified that there is something else wrong and that it will take more mc's and time to figure it out
Your dr told you there is an issue with your eggs?