ttc after a d&c

[xoxo4angel]

 

[xoxo4angel]

 

[mommylov]

For sure Angel! When I told my mom about the 2nd mc she was so sad and wanted dh and I to come see them asap so we were going to book for that weekend and then prices for flights went up to over $1000... we were like um not worth it for just a weekend so we booked it for this weekend at $400 which was much better She hasnt see us since Juky when they came out here when we first moved into our house and I was preggers then. So Ive had 2 mcs since then and mom time just sounds wonderful

 

[TTCSecrets]

:'( Why are people so cruel to me, im trying my damned hardset to get over this and i can't what the hell is wrong with me

 

[mommylov]

On a lighter note Amy, tomorrow is your appointment, right? Will DH be going with you?

Edit: After hitting reply, I quickly realized this may not be a lighter note, but my intentions were meant to point in the direction of answers are coming to you via your new Dr.

hehe I know what you mean No my appt isnt until the 5th so next wed... so far away

Natasha..... WTH?!?!?!??! Someone needs to set this girl straight TRY and not let her get under your skin hun

 

[xoxo4angel]

:/

 

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[TTCSecrets]

But i dont see her often and i thought she got the message on Saturday, and texting me about seeing a heartbeat :S As soon as she said it i literally relived the whole experience of my last scan, down to the fact that the scan nurse actually held onto my arm and said i am so sorry.. And then my whole world came down in the matter of seconds, does she realise what this is doing to me? Ive just text her and told her to fuck off, i didnt mean to but how else can i put it? Ive tried being nice i tried being short sharp , direct is the key...

And to top it all off i think im having annov cycle, i mean i put in fake temps for a few days and it shows ov on sunday, so now its gonna be a hella long cycle and AF wont be here until about 10th december, so im constantly waiting and shes just there like oh yeah look at my pride and joy that has a heartbeat... Fucking bitch... Sorry for language...

AND i have SINCE used my amazing expert TTC information to figure out that the baby she is carrying cant be the married mans baby....xxxx

 

[TTCSecrets]

Sorry AMes i feel so selfih, hope your doctors apppointmen goes well xxxx

 

[xoxo4angel]

 

[xoxo4angel]

 

[TTCSecrets]

i know.. i actually feel like i can't do this anymore you girls will understand me when i say this, but i dont think anybody (obv apart from u guys ) actually understands how hurt i am anyway, with the whole mmc and ttc journey, let alone how mad i am with the whole cousin situation, and its got me on edge, i snap at everybody for the silliest little things, even dh said i needed to calm my ass down ...

This christmas is going to be one of the worst christmasses ever.....

Yeah the married man cant be baby daddy.. so who else was she sleeping with , my my she really was desperate to have a baby first wasnt she xxx

 

[TTCSecrets]

yeah ive tried everything angel, keep playing about with it as i did have loads of ewcm about the cross hairs time, but i just dont feel like i od if that make sense, the only other indication i have that i have already o'd is that...

my cervix has gone to high firm and closed... which i imagine means o has happened? And im quite dry down there, a bit creamy but that could be the BD ew lol...

And also, i am always constipated the week of ovulation, and i have been constipated for about two weeks and it "loosened up" yesterday and i am no longer constipated, so im hoping for one of two things, im hoping i have o already so that af turns up before christmas, or im hoping that i havent o but af will still come soonish xxxx

 

[mommylov]

Tash, youre not being selfish at all babe! THis is a tough time for you and I really wish I could shake this chick for you. I mean, she is an ice princess... no heart.

Angel, it DOES feel like forever but Im hoping this weekend makes things fly by too!

 

[TTCSecrets]

You know how i text her saying fuck off, well the bloody text didnt deliver did it :/ And she has sent me a message saying... The scan went well i am so pleased! She said that everything looks good and fine.. I also asked if i was at risk of miscarriage because my cousin lost hers and the doctor said that 1 in 5 pregnancies end in miscarriage and that just because my cousin lost one, doesnt mean i will, you must have been the 1 in 5.........


YOu do realise as soon as she has had this baby im gonna beat the shit out of her dont you? xx

 

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And she put how are you at the end.. SO i just sent back saying, Look im really struggling with this all and ive even had to take today and tomorrow off work because i cant deal with it sammie...

And she has just text back saying Oh babes you will be okay! Its ging to be really hard for you watching me with my belly growing i know it is. We will have to have a cup of tea and a catch up soon, I didnt want to tell you to be honest cos i felt really bad about everything. We can have a catch up soon, love you...

Fuck it

 

[TTCSecrets]

i actually feel like i want to lock the door, turn my phone off, and just ignore the world til im pregnant, how awful is that, i shouldnt have to feel like htat, i htought i was slowly coming to terms with the mmc and just getting to grips with ttc number 2, and now i feel like im right back in that ultrasound office being told my baby had died xxx

 

[mommylov]

She is such a worm! I wouldve resent the "F*** off!" text and made sure it went through!

 

[mommylov]

All this stress isnt good for you ttc... you really need to tell her that you cant talk to her and dont want to be in communication for a while or ever! Shooo ice princess and leave our tash alone!

 

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Im in utter despair :/ xx