TTC after Methotrexate shot

[chig]

Thank you so much for reassuring me! I am still very nervous every time I go to the bathroom. I keep looking for something every time I wipe...Still haven't seen anything, but I can't help but worry. I can't wait until Friday to come around! I really want to see my bean growing and see and hear that heartbeat!

At the moment, I just want to go home and sleep and rest so that I can get rid of this cough...

Presh - I am glad that everything is going great for you! I can't believe that you are 21 weeks!! That is awesome. I can't wait to be that far along!

grace - any word on what your latest numbers are?

baby_maybe - I know what you mean about the worrying thing...I won't relax until the baby is safe and sound in my arms!

 

[baby_maybe]

Great to hear your haemorrhage sorted itself out Presh

 

[grace10209]

Thank you so much for reassuring me! I am still very nervous every time I go to the bathroom. I keep looking for something every time I wipe...Still haven't seen anything, but I can't help but worry. I can't wait until Friday to come around! I really want to see my bean growing and see and hear that heartbeat!

At the moment, I just want to go home and sleep and rest so that I can get rid of this cough...

Presh - I am glad that everything is going great for you! I can't believe that you are 21 weeks!! That is awesome. I can't wait to be that far along!

grace - any word on what your latest numbers are?

baby_maybe - I know what you mean about the worrying thing...I won't relax until the baby is safe and sound in my arms!

Hi
thanks for asking, I go for bloodwork on Thursday - so 2 days, ughhhh i can't wait = i really hope that its low, last week it was 740 so im praying for it to be under 300, Today - I took a test and it was VERY VERY VERY light, barely there, I almost want to say it was negative but i'd be lieing
so, im hopeful that my number will be low.......because it was so light.
I am sooooooooooooo eager to start my prenatals again, start eating healthy again, start exercising and start preparing my body to ttc again. The hope of the future is all thats getting me by. I can't imagine what it will be like to come out on the other side, to be past 12 weeks! ughhhhhhhhhhhh sounds like heaven

 

[Renzalxx]

Hey Chig
I certainly know how scary it is to see brown spotting..I totally flipped out, but my lil banana is doing great as Im sure your little one is. My ob even said that orgasm can trigger a light bleed so we are super sensitive down there thats for sure... As long as it stops and doesnt accompany cramping you will be sweet hun... YAAAAY! Heres to Friday and counting!

 

[grace10209]

Hi guys
Im struggling today. I went for a walk/jog at the track on Sunday and Monday this past weekend and I think I did "too much" - I am a workout nut so having to NOT exercise since the shot on 8/23 has been tough for me. Plus, I can't drink alcohol, nor eat my normal salads, bananas, oranges, etc etc. So I "needed" to get out for a run/walk.
and now, I think I did too much. I have this dull ache is both sides, where my ovaries are.

Its not terribly bad but its there, I have stopped bleeding/spotting. That stopped a few days ago. I am going to bloodwork tomorrow so maybe its just nerves as Im really REALLY hoping my numbers have gone down a lot since last week. I went from 1865 to 740 last time.

I just feel like time is going by SOOOOOOOOOO SLOWLY. I want to move on and ttc again but I can't until atleast after 11/23 and that just seems SO FAR AWAY

How did you guys get through this part? any advice for me? i feel like ALL I DO is spend time online researching methotextrate, ttc after methotextrate, etc etc.

any words of encouragement would be awesome. feeling crappy today. boooooooo

 

[baby_maybe]

I know exactly how you're feeling grace and I won't lie it is tough. I did spend a lot of time online researching and chatting to the ladies on here just to try and make time pass a bit faster tbh. I don't have any real suggestions, but you will get through this and before you know it it will be time for ttc again. Whilst I was in the middle of it it felt never ending, so I appreciate how you feel, but since I got to 0 time seems to have gone past fairly quickly. Probably more agonising time wise to me was the first few weeks of this pregnancy, if I'm honest the uncertainty of a healthy baby was a lot more stressful for me to deal with than waiting for my numbers to go down. But that's just me you could find the whole experience totally different.

Lots of luck for your hcg draw tomorrow, I hope your numbers have plummeted since last time

 

[grace10209]

I know exactly how you're feeling grace and I won't lie it is tough. I did spend a lot of time online researching and chatting to the ladies on here just to try and make time pass a bit faster tbh. I don't have any real suggestions, but you will get through this and before you know it it will be time for ttc again. Whilst I was in the middle of it it felt never ending, so I appreciate how you feel, but since I got to 0 time seems to have gone past fairly quickly. Probably more agonising time wise to me was the first few weeks of this pregnancy, if I'm honest the uncertainty of a healthy baby was a lot more stressful for me to deal with than waiting for my numbers to go down. But that's just me you could find the whole experience totally different.

Lots of luck for your hcg draw tomorrow, I hope your numbers have plummeted since last time

Hi there and thanks SO much for responding. and you know, i think you are EXACTLY right. That once I do get a bfp again, that first trimester will be WORSE than what i am going through now. I think I'll always b stressing about:
what will my hcg be? then will it go up in 2-3 days? then will it go up again? and then if it does, will the baby be in my uterus? then will I make it to 12 weeks? and so on!!!!!!!!!!!

My poor husband, I just NEED to somehow accept that things are OUT OF MY CONTROL. I NEED to have faith somehow and come to grips with the fact that there is NOTHING i can do to control things.
I mean, I can take my vitamins, I can wait til its "safe" to ttc, but after that, its out of my hands. I wish i was more religious or more into "god" and feeling that he was in control. Maybe that would help?!


Thank you for responding. its nice to know im not alone, and that there is more craziness to come.

I guess its what we need to go through, for us to get to hold our little ones when the time is right. Maybe thats what I need to tell myself, that this is what needs to be done to get me to where I want to be.

 

[baby_maybe]

Glad I could be of help I'm actually the most control freaky person I know and goodness knows how I managed to make it through the 9 weeks of waiting for my hcg to go down! I often wonder how I would feel if I were more religious, it's an odd thing to think about sometimes because I don't go to church, but there have been several times in my life (mostly when I'm pregnant) that I have consciously prayed. This then leads me to wonder if I should make more of an effort with church etc.

 

[grace10209]

Glad I could be of help I'm actually the most control freaky person I know and goodness knows how I managed to make it through the 9 weeks of waiting for my hcg to go down! I often wonder how I would feel if I were more religious, it's an odd thing to think about sometimes because I don't go to church, but there have been several times in my life (mostly when I'm pregnant) that I have consciously prayed. This then leads me to wonder if I should make more of an effort with church etc.

Yup, I think the same thing too - and sometimes when I do pray, i feel guilty about it, like im not worthy, like i need to make a deal and say something like "i know i never pray or go to church and im not worthy BUT if you could help me with this situation, i'll be so good going forward"/ LOL

Those that are religious and do go to church and do know about god and the stories and such, they have complete confidence in him and that he will "take care of them" - I think i might take comfort in feeling that someone was going to take care of me, that i was protected. you know?

hmmmmmmmm - i've been researching positive thoughts for fertility, pregnancy and life. LOL

thanks for chatting, this helps

 

[JPARR01]

I will tell you, the day my hcg hit 0... I enjoyed a night of tons of cocktails and chips, pizza! What a nice night that was. It was a well needed night. You should do the same!

Hi guys
Im struggling today. I went for a walk/jog at the track on Sunday and Monday this past weekend and I think I did "too much" - I am a workout nut so having to NOT exercise since the shot on 8/23 has been tough for me. Plus, I can't drink alcohol, nor eat my normal salads, bananas, oranges, etc etc. So I "needed" to get out for a run/walk.
and now, I think I did too much. I have this dull ache is both sides, where my ovaries are.

Its not terribly bad but its there, I have stopped bleeding/spotting. That stopped a few days ago. I am going to bloodwork tomorrow so maybe its just nerves as Im really REALLY hoping my numbers have gone down a lot since last week. I went from 1865 to 740 last time.

I just feel like time is going by SOOOOOOOOOO SLOWLY. I want to move on and ttc again but I can't until atleast after 11/23 and that just seems SO FAR AWAY

How did you guys get through this part? any advice for me? i feel like ALL I DO is spend time online researching methotextrate, ttc after methotextrate, etc etc.

any words of encouragement would be awesome. feeling crappy today. boooooooo

 

[baby_maybe]

You know grace, we must think the same because that's exactly how I feel if I pray too. All I know is, someone, somewhere is definitely looking out for me

 

[baby_maybe]

Nice to see you in here jparr, Addison is gorgeous, how are you getting on?

 

[grace10209]

Hi guys
I am feeing SO much better today and am SO excited to tell you that my hcg went from 740 to 44 today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I was hoping for something under 300 and its 44! hooray for low numbers. Of course I go again next week to see how it goes but I just so excited.

Positive thoughts going forward. yay

how are all my pregnant ladies doing????????? please tell me so i can live vicariously through you.

 

[chig]

Tomorrow is my first prenatal appointment!!! Eeeeeek...I am so nervous that they won't hear a heartbeat or that I will get some other bad news.

 

[JPARR01]

Nice to see you in here jparr, Addison is gorgeous, how are you getting on?

Ask for asking! I am doing really great! My baby girl is growing so fast and will be 5 months on Tuesday. Where the hell does the time go?!?

 

[grace10209]

Chig,
It's going to be fine. Is this your first time hearing hb? Soooo excited for you!

It's going to be great! Think positive........you are protected.

Keep us posted!!!!!

 

[Renzalxx]

Yay Chig... good luck for tommorow hun, cant wait to hear your great news xx

 

[Laubull]

Fantastic news Grace, I hope it's zero by next week!

Chig, I have everything crossed for you today

Renzal you're almost into your second tri, ahhh exciting! Do you have another scan soon and will you find out the sex?

AFM I'm 7dpo, I'm really pleased I ovulated straight after a mc and if I caught that eggy then that would be amazing, but for once I'm not symptom spotting or getting nervous, if it happens yea but if not oh well!

Hope everyone else is well

X

 

[libbyloulou]

Tomorrow is my first prenatal appointment!!! Eeeeeek...I am so nervous that they won't hear a heartbeat or that I will get some other bad news.

I hope it goes well today Chig.......it will! Enjoy hearing the heartbeat x

 

[JPARR01]

Tomorrow is my first prenatal appointment!!! Eeeeeek...I am so nervous that they won't hear a heartbeat or that I will get some other bad news.

Good luck today!