TTC after Methotrexate shot

[pdxmom]

Hi girls can I join?
I'm in need of a place to kinda just write through the pain I'm experiencing right now...
Well my story:
mc=2008
ectopic:2010
ectopic2013
Well Friday I found out due to the pain I was experiencing on my right side and vaginal bleeding for about 4days and bhcg levels pretty low and staying the same they found the bean in my tube.
It took us 3 years to get another bfp to only end up another failure. I feel broken and less of a woman. I still have both of my tubes because both ectopics I received the mtx shot... Right now as of today I'm taking it one day at a time and just trying to let my body heal. But whats so weird even through all the pain emotionally and physically I'm ready to start ttc again even though I know I won't be able to for atleast another 3 cycles, and I'm scared to death of having another ectopic
My DH wants to try again as soon as possible and so do I, I am a true believer in miracles and God's love for me but I don't understand why this is happening to me and my hubby, it feels unfair but I guess that's how life is.
I guess I'm kinda just wondering is there really hope after 2 ectopics???
I'm just fishing for anything that might make me feel that me and DH can go at this again. We were NTNP for 3yrs after the 1st ectopic but the month we got pregnant was our first time "trying" actively to get the bfp...
What do you ladies think my chances are?.?.?

Hi saveme - im sorry uve found yourself in this position once again...i know it must b feeling liek the end of the world rite now but hang in there... i have also gone thro 2 ectopics...i lost my right to tube to the first one and i got the mtx shot for the second this yr in feb...initially the 3 mths felt like they would never end but it will get better with time...and ull b in a place to start trying soon again...as far as whether there is a chance to have a normal preganancy after 2 ectopics i would defly want to believe tht there is...bcos if we stop believing we've lost half the fight right there...im sure ur rainbow baby will come to u soon....ive felt better reading the cases of all these women who have had ectopics and now have their beautiful babies...it will happen hun...

 

[saveme]

Hi girls can I join?
I'm in need of a place to kinda just write through the pain I'm experiencing right now...
Well my story:
mc=2008
ectopic:2010
ectopic2013
Well Friday I found out due to the pain I was experiencing on my right side and vaginal bleeding for about 4days and bhcg levels pretty low and staying the same they found the bean in my tube.
It took us 3 years to get another bfp to only end up another failure. I feel broken and less of a woman. I still have both of my tubes because both ectopics I received the mtx shot... Right now as of today I'm taking it one day at a time and just trying to let my body heal. But whats so weird even through all the pain emotionally and physically I'm ready to start ttc again even though I know I won't be able to for atleast another 3 cycles, and I'm scared to death of having another ectopic
My DH wants to try again as soon as possible and so do I, I am a true believer in miracles and God's love for me but I don't understand why this is happening to me and my hubby, it feels unfair but I guess that's how life is.
I guess I'm kinda just wondering is there really hope after 2 ectopics???
I'm just fishing for anything that might make me feel that me and DH can go at this again. We were NTNP for 3yrs after the 1st ectopic but the month we got pregnant was our first time "trying" actively to get the bfp...
What do you ladies think my chances are?.?.?

Hi saveme - im sorry uve found yourself in this position once again...i know it must b feeling liek the end of the world rite now but hang in there... i have also gone thro 2 ectopics...i lost my right to tube to the first one and i got the mtx shot for the second this yr in feb...initially the 3 mths felt like they would never end but it will get better with time...and ull b in a place to start trying soon again...as far as whether there is a chance to have a normal preganancy after 2 ectopics i would defly want to believe tht there is...bcos if we stop believing we've lost half the fight right there...im sure ur rainbow baby will come to u soon....ive felt better reading the cases of all these women who have had ectopics and now have their beautiful babies...it will happen hun...

Your absolutely right to continue to believe...guesS I'm just scared of it happening again. Thanks for your support and I hope and pray that both of us get our rainbow babies soon

 

[jammers77]

saveme, I'm so sorry you've experienced an ectopic twice now. It's so heartbreaking. I'm not sure on the statistics for two ectopics, but I do know that many women have had HSGs done to see if their tubes have some kind of blockage. Sometimes in the case where there are blockages, having the dye go through with the HSG will allow the blockages to open. Talk with your doctor about your concerns and see what can be done the next time around. My thoughts are with you. Please don't hesitate to reach out to us when you need someone to talk to.

 

[saveme]

saveme, I'm so sorry you've experienced an ectopic twice now. It's so heartbreaking. I'm not sure on the statistics for two ectopics, but I do know that many women have had HSGs done to see if their tubes have some kind of blockage. Sometimes in the case where there are blockages, having the dye go through with the HSG will allow the blockages to open. Talk with your doctor about your concerns and see what can be done the next time around. My thoughts are with you. Please don't hesitate to reach out to us when you need someone to talk to.

Yeah I know about the hsg I had it done last year because I thought maybe something was blocked but nope both tubes were clear, at that time I thought "what the heck is wrong with me, why am I not preggos then?" and after this time around I'm just at a lost as to why this has happened twice. I asked my doctor when I'm ready to ttc again what should I do and he just told me wait 3-6 months and roll the dice...ugghh(seriously dr. has no understanding). But I'm thinking before we start ttc again I'm going to go to a specialist and see what he advices... And thanks for letting me know it's ok to if I need vent or just reach out, it's nice to know I'm not alone and you ladies are so supportive; it really does make a difference.

 

[jammers77]

Maybe seeing a specialist would give you the peace of mind (and maybe some answers too) that you need. My doctor told me that sometimes these things just happen, for no real reason at all.

 

[summer2011]

Sorry to hear you're in this position again No one should have to have this experience! I've had one ectopic from my first iui and plan to try the iui route again next month. If no bfp or if another ectopic I plan to move on to ivf next year. You still have options. Maybe keep ivf in mind as a last resort. Don't give up hope!

 

[ladyluck8181]

I am so frustrated, AF arrived 6th Aug, she stayed for 5/6 days which is about standard for me although it was light. Stopped bleeding and ever since I've had pink on wiping. It's making me feel so low, like my body has just decided to stop working properly or something. Did anyone else get this or do I need to go get it checked out?

 

[summer2011]

My first af was long and light. Second was long and very heavy. Third was light and maybe a little longer than typical.

Has your hcg returned to zero yet? I spotted off and on from bfp till my hcg hit 0. Then finally a real af. Took 33 days for my hcg to reach 0 after the shot!

It may take a while for your body to normalize after all it's been through.

 

[allforthegirl]

Mine too were a bit different, the cycle before my BFP I barely had a flow. Maybe four days. They were all over the place too. I think it is our bodies just trying to get back in the groove.

 

[ladyluck8181]

My first af was long and light. Second was long and very heavy. Third was light and maybe a little longer than typical.

Has your hcg returned to zero yet? I spotted off and on from bfp till my hcg hit 0. Then finally a real af. Took 33 days for my hcg to reach 0 after the shot!

It may take a while for your body to normalize after all it's been through.

Thanks ladies, its been at 0 for a few weeks. Hopefully it's just everything sorting itself out, I keep stupidly convincing myself that I will never get to have another baby

 

[allforthegirl]

My first af was long and light. Second was long and very heavy. Third was light and maybe a little longer than typical.

Has your hcg returned to zero yet? I spotted off and on from bfp till my hcg hit 0. Then finally a real af. Took 33 days for my hcg to reach 0 after the shot!

It may take a while for your body to normalize after all it's been through.

Thanks ladies, its been at 0 for a few weeks. Hopefully it's just everything sorting itself out, I keep stupidly convincing myself that I will never get to have another baby

Just have to try and stay positive. The law of attraction will take what you say and make it true. So if you Never, it will never happen(or take you years for it to happen), if you continually say it WILL, then it will happen.

 

[saveme]

Maybe seeing a specialist would give you the peace of mind (and maybe some answers too) that you need. My doctor told me that sometimes these things just happen, for no real reason at all.

Sorry to hear you're in this position again No one should have to have this experience! I've had one ectopic from my first iui and plan to try the iui route again next month. If no bfp or if another ectopic I plan to move on to ivf next year. You still have options. Maybe keep ivf in mind as a last resort. Don't give up hope!

Thanks ladies for the suggestions... I think I will see a specialist before we start to ttc again, I did ask about IVF and my doc told me its the best possible route to exclude my tubes. What's frustrating is they don't have a reason as to why my tube won't allow the baby to move through it as it's supposed to I still have both and it seems my right tube the one I've had both ectopics in is my dominant side
Also I had a question about bleeding. How long does it take for it to stop? I have been bleeding not heavy since I left the hospital.. but have been bleeding a little over 2 weeks, like 4 days after my +hpt...
I go to the dr tomorrow to find out what my bhcg are at, but I'm so over the bleeding.
With my 1st ectopic after the mtx shot, 4 days I bled then 3days of spotting and when I went back to the dr's my level was like a 4. And my levels were high the 1st time. This time I had really low levels but I've been constantly bleeding. I think it will help me start to get past what has happened yet again with trying to have a baby, this time around it's been hard thinking about anything else I'm always crying and sad, with my 1st I kindda was numb but it didn't get to me as much as this one has
Anyways girls thanks again...

 

[Rachel613]

Maybe seeing a specialist would give you the peace of mind (and maybe some answers too) that you need. My doctor told me that sometimes these things just happen, for no real reason at all.

Sorry to hear you're in this position again No one should have to have this experience! I've had one ectopic from my first iui and plan to try the iui route again next month. If no bfp or if another ectopic I plan to move on to ivf next year. You still have options. Maybe keep ivf in mind as a last resort. Don't give up hope!

Thanks ladies for the suggestions... I think I will see a specialist before we start to ttc again, I did ask about IVF and my doc told me its the best possible route to exclude my tubes. What's frustrating is they don't have a reason as to why my tube won't allow the baby to move through it as it's supposed to I still have both and it seems my right tube the one I've had both ectopics in is my dominant side
Also I had a question about bleeding. How long does it take for it to stop? I have been bleeding not heavy since I left the hospital.. but have been bleeding a little over 2 weeks, like 4 days after my +hpt...
I go to the dr tomorrow to find out what my bhcg are at, but I'm so over the bleeding.
With my 1st ectopic after the mtx shot, 4 days I bled then 3days of spotting and when I went back to the dr's my level was like a 4. And my levels were high the 1st time. This time I had really low levels but I've been constantly bleeding. I think it will help me start to get past what has happened yet again with trying to have a baby, this time around it's been hard thinking about anything else I'm always crying and sad, with my 1st I kindda was numb but it didn't get to me as much as this one has
Anyways girls thanks again...

First, I'm so sorry to hear about your losses! Secondly, I saw a fertility specialist after I had my first miscarriage, and he saw my through my ectopic as well. RE's are SO much better than regualar ob/gyns, so much more understanding that you def push to get the job done asap! After my first RE on my right side and a clear HSG, my doctor had a plan for us to start on clomid and he would monitor me throughout each cycle. If I was ovulating through my right tube we would not try that month and if from the left then we would try like crazy, and if I ovulated from both sides then we would take our chances. I thought it sounded like a good plan to try before IVF! Anyway, just wanted you to know that there is a lot more things to do and try, so don't give up!!!! Also, like the other girls said.....go to a specialist ASAP! They can get all this started for you as soon as your ready.

 

[Rachel613]

Allforthegirl....when is your gender scan?????

 

[allforthegirl]

Well my next scan is on the 27th, I will be 17 weeks then, but if we don't get a peek then i have another every two weeks after so I am sure we will see soon enough LOL

 

[saveme]

First, I'm so sorry to hear about your losses! Secondly, I saw a fertility specialist after I had my first miscarriage, and he saw my through my ectopic as well. RE's are SO much better than regualar ob/gyns, so much more understanding that you def push to get the job done asap! After my first RE on my right side and a clear HSG, my doctor had a plan for us to start on clomid and he would monitor me throughout each cycle. If I was ovulating through my right tube we would not try that month and if from the left then we would try like crazy, and if I ovulated from both sides then we would take our chances. I thought it sounded like a good plan to try before IVF! Anyway, just wanted you to know that there is a lot more things to do and try, so don't give up!!!! Also, like the other girls said.....go to a specialist ASAP! They can get all this started for you as soon as your ready.[/QUOTE]

Thanks so much Rachel613 you give me so much hope I hope your pregnancy is going smoothly and that you get to hold your sweet baby in your arms soon.
As for me I am def going to go and see a specialist. I figured that they could tell me what side I am ovulating on this actually makes me more hopeful, when I went to the ER the nurse told me "all you need to do is get pregnant on your left" if I could I would...
I just wish this was already over with so I can start ttc already...

 

[saveme]

Well my next scan is on the 27th, I will be 17 weeks then, but if we don't get a peek then i have another every two weeks after so I am sure we will see soon enough LOL

GL on your next scan hope your get to see if your team/
I can't wait till it's my turn... You ladies give me hope and make me excited for my future of having my miracle baby...

 

[jammers77]

Well my next scan is on the 27th, I will be 17 weeks then, but if we don't get a peek then i have another every two weeks after so I am sure we will see soon enough LOL

Good luck on your scan!! Make sure you share a pic with us if you get one!

 

[allforthegirl]

Absolutely!!

 

[summer2011]

Good luck