TTC after miscarriage before AF

[ttcnumber2ky]

Thanks TinyLynne. I think I just am not letting myself get excited because of the cramping. With my LO, I never had any cramps whatsoever, but with both mc's, I had cramps from day 1. Even with the pregnancy I carried to 11 weeks (baby stopped growing at 7 weeks), I had cramps pretty much the entire time. So I think I'm just waiting to see if the lines get darker and if the cramps stop.

I bought ic's the other day. If this one turns out to stick the next few days, has anyone ever monitored progression with ic's? Thoughts??

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

Thanks Mssk. I'm glad you ladies can see it too and I'm not just going crazy staring at these tests.

Sometimes I sit there and think "I wonder what I look like right now holding this test fifteen different ways and squinting like I'm staring into the sun".

 

[mssk]

I felt that way last time Tinylynne, I knew it was over and I was just waiting for my body to realize it. Unlike my first loss where I spent the week trying to convince myself that everything was still okay. What a horrible feeling being in limbo. I really hope you get darker positives. It's completely normal to feel like you just want it to be done if it is already over.

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

TinyLynne- it is absolutely not horrible. I felt the exact same way with both of mine. Once I felt like it was over, I just wanted to move forward and that was hard for me to do until things began. I either wanted that or for the Dr to call me and say that my betas looked great and everything was fine.

 

[mssk]

ttcnumber2ky- I know nothing anyone says can help shake the worry but I just thought I'd share a little bit about my pregnancy with DD with you.
With our daughter we tried and thought that we failed to conceive. We tested with blue dye tests and an FRER (now that I look back at my journal) around the time AF was due. All 3 tests negative-though I remember throwing the FRER away right after the 3 minute mark because I just felt it was over. I had horrible cramping and began bleeding bright red blood and turned into AF or so we thought. I had horrible cramping and could barely make it through work for 2 weeks after. It was so bad that I went to my OB (at the time) as an emergency visit and got a whole physical and blood work up (this was on a friday). On Monday to my utter shock they called and told me that I was pregnant. After all the cramping and AF like bleeding she was in there.

 

[TinyLynne]

That is such an amazing story Mssk!

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

mssk - that is an amazing story! and thank you because it does help!!! It lets me know that it doesn't have to be ominous. i hope i can have an equally wonderful outcome. here's hoping for progression tomorrow morning.

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

No real progression this morning, and the cramping continues. Guess it's a wait and see. I was hoping for a brighter line to put my mind at ease. Oh well!

 

[TinyLynne]

It hasn't been 24 hours yet, it will take a little time to darken up. Ease your mind for a little bit lady! I know it is hard though. Fingers crossed for you!

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

Thanks TinyLynne. I'll try! Sometimes it's hard not to assume the worst. The cramps are lightening up a little bit now, so that's good.

How are you doing?

 

[TinyLynne]

Still haven't started bleeding, but I feel it's coming today and tomorrow. Boobs have lightened up, dull ache of AF has began and my knees are hurting (weird I know, but this has always been an AF sign for me).

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

Not weird. Whenever I have cramps, they always travel down into my legs.

I hope you are able to get some answers soon. I know how hard it is when you feel it's over and you are just waiting for your body to fully catch up.

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

On an unrelated note, someone that I haven't seen in awhile just said to me, "hey, it's about time you start thinking about number 2 isn't it?" I know I've probably said things to people in the past but I can promise I NEVER will again. It stings every time.

 

[TinyLynne]

I hate hearing those things! I have been unexpectedly cool so far with responses. But I always feel like the next time will be the time I explode. Mostly with my Dad's girlfriend.

 

[mssk]

I get pain in my legs to. But, I honestly wish I took detailed notes on symptoms during pregnancy, miscarriage, and AF. I always feel like I am straining to remember if there were any differences in the cramping or pains.

I hate when people say those thing. It is so insensitive. You never know what really is going on in someones life and to assume is just inconsiderate. I am so sorry I know we all have heard these comments at some point. For me it is my mom and a close friend who always bring thing up to me. It hurts and they just keep doing it. I think the next time someone says something to me I might lose it to.

 

[mssk]

Tomorrow is my last day of Provera . Hopefully I get AF soon after. Then we can get back to TTC!

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

Awesome Mssk. I hope AF starts soon for you!

 

[ttcnumber2ky]

OK so better signs this afternoon. I took this test exactly 24 hrs after the first one I posted and it's definitely darker even though still light. And cramping seems to have stopped for now and my boobs are definitely starting to get sore. So I'm feeling a little better about things right now!

 

[TinyLynne]

Yay ttc! That does look so much better!!!

I did start bleeding as expected. I'm just in the dumps, as if 4 mcs aren't enough to deal with, my mother and step dad are moving in for a couple of weeks and borrowed more money yesterday. And then today she said that he needs surgery and will be out of work for a couple of weeks after that and can they stay with us and can we HELP them then. So I have no idea what is going to happen or how long they are staying. I just don't think that it can possibly end well.

Oh, and also, seems like my insurance won't cover any testing now either.... We meet with the GP next Wednesday to discuss. My insurance specifically excludes infertility and everything about it. And it sounds like rpl is considered infertility.

So now I get to pay for my parents, my tests and any treatments out of pocket, still paying our student loans and on top of it, I'm not happy with my job, it is unfulfilling. But for now, I'm stuck.

Sorry again for the negativity, I'm just at such a loss for what to do right now and honestly, I'm scared.

 

[xanzaba]

Hi ladies, mind if I join?

ttcnumber2ky- congrats, that's def a line!

TinyLynne I know it's hard when all you want to do is be pregnant again.

I will spare you the gory details but I have had 2 2nd trimester losses in November and again at the end of June. They are both for different reasons, neither supposed to repeat. I want to put it all behind me and get pregnant again, but I'm not sure I'm going to ovulate this cycle. I've had way too many days of EWCM and no temp rise I just wish I'd ovulate or AF would come. I want my body to be back to a good starting phase...