Megg33k
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So, I didn't want to post to my old thread anymore, because it's basically deceased! LOL It went to a farm where it can run in a field with other threads!!!
The conclusion to my drama:
I went to my ob/gyn today. I told her what was going on and asked to be more closely monitored on this month of Clomid (CD12 u/s, CD21 b/w... to confirm O). She didn't have much to say about the spotting/light bleeding. She basically believes that I O'd with the Clomid, but my hormones are off still and it's causing the random bleeding. I definitely got the impression that she didn't want to mess with the monitoring of my Clomid cycle, but she definitely makes up for that by the time this is over.
Honestly, I expected her to give me progesterone supplements for after O, and send me on my way. I really lucked out by getting Clomid on our first proper month of TTC since 2007, where as most people have to wait a year. Here's the shocker though... instead of telling me that she didn't want to do that monitoring, prescribing me some stuff, and sending me away... She referred me to a fertility clinic. After 1 month of properly trying, she's letting me move on to people who might actually be able to get me my ! That's the exciting part!!! My first appt is Sept 23, which isn't so bad really!
The depressing part? They will require me to take BCP for at least one month, possibly two months... So, she started me on BCP today. Granted, it will put me ahead of the game when I get there in a month... might even be able to start TTC with them straight away on Sept 23 instead of the 2nd month of BCP. However, I have a month of Clomid in my purse, refills of my Prometrium, and a local health store that sells non-prescription progesterone cream. Instead of taking Prometrium to bring a proper AF, Clomid to O, and progesterone cream to fix my random bleeding after O... I'm taking BCP... so I can have a baby. WTF?
Following my doctor's orders instead of doing something that might have gotten me a month closer to my ... So hard! I'm 28 years, 5 months, and 28 days old, and I took my first BCP of my entire life yesterday... all in an effort to get pregnant. I feel like I'm betraying everything I want and hope to achieve in the near future. I'm doing the EXACT OPPOSITE of what you're supposed to do when you want a baby. I get it... I do... It's not a lack of understanding... I'm just so sad that I'm being completely counter-productive at this exact moment. Unfortunately, I'm not getting any younger, and wasting time isn't a very good idea for me. It makes me just typing it. I hate this! I hate it so much! I don't want to... I want to take my Clomid and try again... but I know it's not for the best this time.
Even if I took the Clomid and stuff... even if everything works perfectly... I'd get, at best, a 30% chance of conception. That's a 70% chance of failure. If I failed this cycle, I'd have to start BCP for at least one, maybe two, cycles on 9/23. So, I'd be done with my BCP at the end of November probably and not TTC until close to Christmas. Skipping this cycle to take BCP, I might have to take it through the end of Oct, but at least that would be it. I might be able to start TTC again ASAP after my appt. I believe I've made the right choice, but I don't know anymore!
I'm sorry this is so long, but I'm feeling really down and up at the same time. Getting infertility specialists so early in the TTC game is definitely on my side. But, this feels like such a set-back until then! And, I refuse to move to the WTT section... it's barely a month... I can't bear to put that title on myself, because it's utterly against my will. Well, I guess I'd move to that forum if I have to or its requested that I do... but I still feel like a TTC'er, dammit!
If you read through that, thank you for listening. If anyone has ever been in a similar situation or know anyone who has, and it's worked out for the best... I'd really appreciate hearing about it right about now.
all around! I really hope you all get your s while I'm waiting!
~*BABY DUST*~
The conclusion to my drama:
I went to my ob/gyn today. I told her what was going on and asked to be more closely monitored on this month of Clomid (CD12 u/s, CD21 b/w... to confirm O). She didn't have much to say about the spotting/light bleeding. She basically believes that I O'd with the Clomid, but my hormones are off still and it's causing the random bleeding. I definitely got the impression that she didn't want to mess with the monitoring of my Clomid cycle, but she definitely makes up for that by the time this is over.
Honestly, I expected her to give me progesterone supplements for after O, and send me on my way. I really lucked out by getting Clomid on our first proper month of TTC since 2007, where as most people have to wait a year. Here's the shocker though... instead of telling me that she didn't want to do that monitoring, prescribing me some stuff, and sending me away... She referred me to a fertility clinic. After 1 month of properly trying, she's letting me move on to people who might actually be able to get me my ! That's the exciting part!!! My first appt is Sept 23, which isn't so bad really!
The depressing part? They will require me to take BCP for at least one month, possibly two months... So, she started me on BCP today. Granted, it will put me ahead of the game when I get there in a month... might even be able to start TTC with them straight away on Sept 23 instead of the 2nd month of BCP. However, I have a month of Clomid in my purse, refills of my Prometrium, and a local health store that sells non-prescription progesterone cream. Instead of taking Prometrium to bring a proper AF, Clomid to O, and progesterone cream to fix my random bleeding after O... I'm taking BCP... so I can have a baby. WTF?
Following my doctor's orders instead of doing something that might have gotten me a month closer to my ... So hard! I'm 28 years, 5 months, and 28 days old, and I took my first BCP of my entire life yesterday... all in an effort to get pregnant. I feel like I'm betraying everything I want and hope to achieve in the near future. I'm doing the EXACT OPPOSITE of what you're supposed to do when you want a baby. I get it... I do... It's not a lack of understanding... I'm just so sad that I'm being completely counter-productive at this exact moment. Unfortunately, I'm not getting any younger, and wasting time isn't a very good idea for me. It makes me just typing it. I hate this! I hate it so much! I don't want to... I want to take my Clomid and try again... but I know it's not for the best this time.
Even if I took the Clomid and stuff... even if everything works perfectly... I'd get, at best, a 30% chance of conception. That's a 70% chance of failure. If I failed this cycle, I'd have to start BCP for at least one, maybe two, cycles on 9/23. So, I'd be done with my BCP at the end of November probably and not TTC until close to Christmas. Skipping this cycle to take BCP, I might have to take it through the end of Oct, but at least that would be it. I might be able to start TTC again ASAP after my appt. I believe I've made the right choice, but I don't know anymore!
I'm sorry this is so long, but I'm feeling really down and up at the same time. Getting infertility specialists so early in the TTC game is definitely on my side. But, this feels like such a set-back until then! And, I refuse to move to the WTT section... it's barely a month... I can't bear to put that title on myself, because it's utterly against my will. Well, I guess I'd move to that forum if I have to or its requested that I do... but I still feel like a TTC'er, dammit!
If you read through that, thank you for listening. If anyone has ever been in a similar situation or know anyone who has, and it's worked out for the best... I'd really appreciate hearing about it right about now.
all around! I really hope you all get your s while I'm waiting!
~*BABY DUST*~