I would love to have a girl with my first. If it turns out to be a boy, I might be like, "oh.. ok well!" When you get pregnant, you take the gamble. There is nothing wrong with having a preferance but to be soooooo negative and horrible AND WRONG about boys is just mind boggling. If you don't want him and feel like you are going to be a horrible mother to him, which seems like it from the first post, then give him up for adoption. I do think you will fall in love with him the minute he is born. Start buying some baby boy items and try to bond. There is no point in dwelling and being hysterical because that baby is what it is now. A BEAUTIFUL BOY. Get used to it.