I am still confused by her earlier post about her great reltionship with her own brother and happy acceptance of either sex that then turned into feeling she was carrying a demon spawn drug addict just like her evil brother.
I understand gender disappointment. Before I knew the sex of my LO I wanted and thought she would be girl and I have always wanted a girl and might get only one chance because I am older. When I found out boy it set me back because I felt just like well I don't know like my image of the future that i had bonded to was gone. But that is TOTALLY different to throwing and irrational tantrum about how horrible your sweet baby boy will be. Take some time to think rationally about it please. You can still be sad your baby is not the second girl you wanted and even afraid you won't know how to raise him to be a good little man but the way you are going to conclusions is not healthy for you or him and it is not based in fact and it is NOT consistent with what you were saying before you found out.
I don't want to insult you but I encourage you to stop and think rationally for a minute. Seriously also maybe you are suffering from depression etc I don't think it is typically to suddenly shift from thinking either sex is fine to wanting to give the baby away. I am not being mean when I suggest you get some help.
I understand your point of view here. For a long time, my brother & I did not have any relationship. He was quite rebellious toward his family. He went everything toward against us & didn't make our life easier. Yes, he is a good uncle to my daughter now. My father (who is the most loving & kind man) had a heart attack because he was stressing out so much with my brother, he stopped eating, sleeping, etc. He was very worried. I hated my brother for making so much troubles toward my parents. My parents did their very best in raising us with all of their hearts. Unfortunately, my brother wasn't easy at all. Now that he is an adult, he is good to my daughter & I am thankful for that. I didn't expected this. My mother also didn't have a good relationship with her own brother, who gave a hell to his parents & herself too. I guess we were unlucky here with some of the males we had in our families who were quite difficult to deal with. My father is just rare in my eyes. I am just scared that I will put all my energy in trying to raise my son well & in the end, he will become like my brother or that estranged uncle. I've been there & I've seen how much heart breaks he did to my parents. My father was praying that I would have a daughter when I was pregnant with number 1. His personal experience raising a daughter was so much easier.
I also very strongly wanted to give my daughter a sister that I never had. I wanted her to have this special bonding time with a sister. Is there something wrong in that??
I'm sorry if I am offending some of the people on here. I have receieved many supportive private messages here. These people are scared to admit their feelings on here & that they will get bashed too. For those here that want to judge & bash, clearly, aren't in my shoes & don't know why I feel this way. I don't say this out of my bum. I am stating from my own personal experience. Maybe pregnancy hormones are acting up and I am being emotional. I am not usually an emotional person. It just hit me yesterday. I just found out the news. In the back of my mind, I was really hoping a girl but never ever imagined that I would feel this strongly when I found out that I am having a boy. This is all new feelings for me.
I was hoping to hear some guidance on how to deal with it. If anyone went through something... maybe could give me some guides. I am getting plenty from the private messages (who are nervous to post on here). I don't blame them. I can see that I shouldn't have said openly here, stating my feelings on here. Clearly, some people will never understand & aren't in my shoes. Who are you to judge here? You don't know me. You take everything literally & making the devil out of me.
To the previous comment, with 2 sons & wanting a girl so badly. I am not in your shoes & I wouldn't judged you if you had your say on here. Everyone is in a different position here with different experiences.
Clearly, I can't say much here... I never shared my feelings out loud to anyone outside... I thought I should get my feelings out here... hoping to find some piece of guidance. Of course, I may say something irrational like "adoption"... do you think I'll intentionally do this??
I just found out yesterday & am still trying to digest all the new feelings now.