Hey ladies so sorry I've been a bit quiet the last few days, just been struggling a bit, will explain x
Celine I'm so glad you're feeling so rubbish! And that you had a lovely weekend and kelt quiet, I'm rubbish at it. 3 of my friends and one if their dad's knows already!
Rachel glad you had a good holiday, sounds like you might not really be out??
Jalanis yay for a positive opk! At least you know where you are now and when AF or bfp might appear, that first cycle is a total bitch!
Linny hope you're feeling nice and calm about tomorrow. I'm sure everything will be brilliant xx thanks so much for the advice. An audiobook might be a great idea. Something to stop my inner monologue wittering on! And thanks fir the thoughts, it dies feel a bit like you want to trust your 'instincts' but they're just too scary! Nice to think my instincts bear no relationship to reality x
Literati sorry about the bfn, but you do now how stupidly early it is don't you?? When are you testing again?
Garfie so sorry. Total stinker. It's so hard when you're convinced you're pregnant. What were the 1-3 bloods to show? What's your plan this month?
Boodley yay for going for it! If it's meant to be it will be
I had a short lp the first cycle so I know my body wasn't ready so I'm sure your body will let you know if it's not xx
Sorry if I've missed abyone out, I miss a couple do days and lose track! AFM I've not been sleeping well since my bfp which is really normal but the last 4 nights I've barely slept, it's been 1-2 hours a night max and I've been going crazy. I was literally screaming with frustration thus morning at 2am and I eventually fell asleep after taking a codeine tablet in desperation at about 3.30 then I was awake at 5 panicking
in the cold light of day I'd never have touched it but I was desperate. I spent the morning crying and googling and then called my friends dad who is the head of pharmacy at my hospital.
He said the codeine would have done nothing to hurt the baby but that it isn't a good sleep supplement. He couldn't guarantee anything was safe but said lots of women take anti emetics for morning sickness and they are extensively tested so suggested that and I found a sleep remedy OTC that is an antihistamine used for morning sickness, researched it on the nhs and NICE websites and there is no evidence of negative effects. My friends dad said the danger of falling down stairs or having a car crash is much higher than the tiny unheard of risk of taking antihistamines. So tonight I've given in and taken a tablet and praying for sleep, I just couldn't carry on like that.
I'm peed off because since my bfp I've done everything perfectly, not touched a drop of caffeine and taken all my vits and eaten well but the risk of an accident in my state is too high, and it's really dangerous for my mental state. I hope you don't judge me for it xxx