Waiting to start IVF in January anyone else?

[MoBaby]

Lol aurora! I was trying to find my post!! Soo sorry!! I'll go erase it and move it.

BMW congrats! Yay! Rest up.
Amore sorry they didn't make it but hoping you don't need them.

 

[MoBaby]

I'll post this here now lol!

Hey guys been loving the updates although not commenting. I'm so excited for Lizzie and aurora and can't wait for scans!! Cmo, amore, star yay for transfer! First Wednesday is sooo close. BMW how are you?? Ec soon!

Hysteroscopy and biopsy tomorrow for me. It's cycle day 11 I think and he won't do the hysteroscopy last day 13 as lining is too thick. I've started bleeding again yesterday a small amount (probably last of miscarriage coming out) so if there is anything causing it he will know. They called this morning telling me to come in tomorrow so I had to scramble. I plan to work after so hopefully I'm not zonked out. I'll ask for very light sedation.

 

[lizzie78]

Amore sending lots of virtual cuddles sweetie, keep your chin up, tomorrow is another day xxxxx

Cmo and star woohooo PUPO ladies in m so chuffed for you both. Let the crazinessbegin!

Bmw amazing number well done you! Hope the groggyness wears off soon xxx

 

[Aurora CHK]

Congratulations Star and Cmo!! Pupo at last! That's fabulous news xx

Well my embies didn't make it, but I'm all right with that really. The embryologist was really positive on the phone and said they did grow and they put up a really good fight, which is great news for my tummy babies (my expression!)

I just feel really bummed today and emotionally worn out. It's stuff like talking to my friend who I've explained everything too, saying what a mix of emotions I have now there back inside, but the uncertainty and waiting is crippling, and she said 'so you're not just pregnant now then?'

It may be my return to working this morning, but I feel so emotionally and physically fatigued. Virtual hugs are appreciated!! I'll take anything you got!

Before I did IVF, I had no idea that it could possibly not work. So, I understand your friend's confusion. It no longer phases me that people who haven't experienced infertility don't have any idea what we go through.

It also doesn't bother me that they just have sex to get pregnant. In fact, it almost seems weird to me that you can get pregnant from sex Clearly, I've been at this too long!

Fingers crossed for your tummy babies!!!

I'm so all about this!! All of this!!

I remember back to the original days four years ago where we decided I'd come off contraception and it would just happen naturally. We didn't want to even think about when I might be fertile as that seemed 'unnatural' and frankly unnecessary - for neurotic people, not like us! We're hippies! I was like 'I don't like the idea of 'trying', as its not what creating life should be about'. Then when that didn't work, we got to charting but weren't going to be 'really crazy about it'. That didn't last long! Then when that didn't work I was like 'I don't know if I want an IVF baby but I might have to have one' - I didn't know I was born! Like the worst that could happen might be that I would 'need IVF'. It never occurred to me that even then I might not be able to have a baby even with IVF I just didn't know how lucky I was to even have the option.

At my first IVF appointments when they discovered we would need ICSI we thought 'that's a real shame as it takes out all the last bit of natural selection'. Then we discovered I had low reserve and falling PG might never happen and then when I kept miscarrying whenever it DID happen, I finally realised that actually I would happily take a robo-baby made out of recycled mobile phones if it meant the chance to DEFINITELY be a mother. I can't believe I used to be so picky! Now I'm keeping both donor eggs and adoption in mind (things I used to think would never be something I'd consider) but having to remind myself that even then, nothing is guaranteed. People keep saying to me 'can't you adopt?' like its a really easy alternative to just getting pregnant, like its practically the same thing, like we're still in a Victorian era of babies being willingly given up by healthy mothers. I have to politely say 'we might consider that but we know its a very different thing, almost a vocation, so that's quite far down the line at this time as the responsibility of adopting an existing child, likely to be significantly older and to have sadly experienced neglect, family breakdown or other challenges in their short life, is almost greater than having your own baby' or something like that.

Sorry for the essay

 

[star25]

I know what you mean aurora, never thought I would need ivf but thank god fpr the technology and all the clever people involved!

Mobaby, so sweet to be thinking of us, hope all goes well for you xx

Typically ive got a sore throat and a cold starting, hoping it doesnt come to anything, ive already worried myself cos I got too hot sitting by the window in the sun on the ferry and had to quickly get dh to get me an extortinately priced bottle of orange juice haha

 

[CMo]

Aurora completely understand and can relate to everything in your post. It's amazing how different life turns out from what we picture xxx

 

[FirstTry]

I'm totally feeling ya, Aurora! "Robo-baby"

I started out thinking it was possible we would have trouble, because I had just turned 37 when we got married. But I was convinced I was PG the first month we tried. Five months later, when we did our first IUI, I was sure that I was overreacting (by jumping into IUI) and that there was no way it wouldn't work.

Anyway, before we got married, we agreed that we would become parents by any means necessary. So, there's never been a question about whether we would move on to the next available method.

Plus, I've always thought about adopting a neglected child (having been one myself). That's still on the table, but not right now.

Anyway, good luck to you!

 

[amoreamy]

Thank you so much. You're all incredibly wonderful. I've never been on such a caring thread before

Beneath congratulations, that's utterly amazing! I can't wait for your fert report!

I'm so amazed how your stories relate so much. I completely get it. Aurora, i loved your essay! I remember talking with the very same friend about ivf about two and a half years ago saying it was invasive and so many drugs etc etc. Our first choice was adoption, and we had started the application for foster care. I had already mourned motherhood, it was one of darkest periods of my life. We weren't eligible for ivf funding and we just couldn't afford it so it was completely off my radar.We've made a choice to live in a very unconsuming, humble low key life, so we both have wonderful jobs, spend all our time together, live in a small house, but have very little money. We found out our house was too small to adopt or foster (we have 2 beds but needs need another bedroom). Then my Dad and I went to visit his family in Devon together. He was extremely emotional and said he would want nothing more than to have his own grandchild and said he and my mum would fund our cycle. I actually didn't accept at first because i had already grieved, i wasn't sure I was able to put myself back on the roller-coaster. It wasn't long before I realised that of course i wanted to do that, that all i have ever wanted was to be a mum. That was a year and half ago and here we are. I guess it explains why i feel like i do right now. My advice to anyone who wants to try to start, do it now because you never know how long it's going to take. My friend became pregnant with her first month trying and i couldn't be happier because it's one less couple or person who doesn't have to go through what we all have had to.

 

[star25]

Beneath amazing news! Xx

Amore, thats so sweet about your dad helping, im sure he wouldn't have wanted you to turn it down, it does take ages, my first ivf appointment was in June and here I am
Just having transfer in march! Never would have thought that it would take so long xx

 

[Mrs W 11]

Ladies totally get how you all feel about being where we are. I was obviously ridiculously lucky to fall pregnant with my dd first month trying and had no idea what a miracle she was. It just never occurred to me that I might not be able to have another, not even for a second. It has been a huge shock and a very steep learning curve. I was expecting to have issues concieving the first time, but never the second. I know it's slightly different for me as I already have a child but I am absolutely desperate to give her a sibling and to experience the magic with a second baby/child.

Amo I feel you, I am feeling a bit down too today. I've taken today and tomorrow off work but I think being at work would be more relaxing, I've still got the washing, ironing, washing up, cooking, bathing dd and put her to bed, get her up and to nursery etc to do. Plus I know I will be ridiculously lucky if the one egg that made it was good enough quality to go all the way. I'm sorry your 2 embies didn't make it to freeze but the others are right, you have such a good chance with 2 blasts on board especially at your age, ill be shocked if you don't get a bfp!! I'm sure you will.

BMW wow congrats!!! That's fantastic! Can't wait to hear how many fertilise!

Star - glad it all went well lovely!! Enjoy your week off getting officially preggo!! I've got a cough so obvs been madly googling coughs after transfer and found lads of people who got bfps so it's a good sign hehe!!

Hello everyone else!!

 

[beneathmywing]

Thanks, ladies! I am doing well. EC went really well. One of the nurses said it actually was "textbook." I remember me repeating that a few times when I was still out of it... textbook textbook! LOL I was expecting a few more eggs, but four more than last time is always an improvement so I am happy! Hope we get a good fert report now. FX!!


Star & Cmo -- Woohoo Your girls are PUPO! So exciting!


Amoreamy -- Sorry your embies didn't make it to freeze, but focus on the ones inside you!!! xx It's sad that some people don't know the whole process of IVF. Don't feel bad about what your friend said. My MIL brought me baby-related items after my first transfer. I was MORTIFIED and felt like she jinxed the whole process, really! But can't really blame them.. people who don't have to go through this just don't know it's not that easy! So nice of your dad helping you fund IVF. After my first IVF failed, I was crushed.. close to $16,000 down the drain including meds. DH and I just couldn't afford that again. Luckily I have three sisters, two of which went through infertility as well, they chipped in along with my mom and funded my current cycle. I am so forever grateful!!!

 

[beneathmywing]

I survived my first PIO injection not as bad as I anticipated! woooohoooo

 

[Jaybo]

Congratulations Star & CMo on being pupo!!

Amore - sorry your embabies didn't make it to frosties, but I've got a good feeling for the ones you have on board! Huge hugs it's all so emotionally draining! How sweet if your parents though. xx

BMW - yay congratulations!! That's a fantastic number! Definitely looking into moving to NY hope you're recovering well.

MrsW - Hope you're doing ok too hon xx

Bump - is it ET today? Good luck!

So excited for everyone! Bring on the BFPs!

First - I know what you mean about forgetting that people get pregnant just by having sex, it just seems impossible to imagine!! My mum thought I was having a MC after our treatment didn't work, couldn't understand otherwise, it is confusing! But actually was really sweet as she kept telling me to go to bed and rest. Are you booked in for ET?

Aurora - I can so relate to everything you wrote, our stories are so similar. DH and I even discussed getting a robot the other day, we thought it would be cheaper and might even do the hoovering! Seriously though I can actually remember saying I'm not sure I want to conceive through IVF, without even considering that I wouldn't be able to or that some clinics might actually not even want to treat me. Clueless!! Anyways, how did you get on calling the clinic? Do you have a date for a scan? Sorry if I missed your update.

Mo - hi! :wave: sounds like things are moving nice and quickly for you.

Hi everyone else, Comfy, Libby hope you're hanging on in there girls

AFM - just waiting for the appointments with private clinics to start.Feel like I'm in TTC limbo! DH and I had a loooong chat about adoption over the weekend, so going to do some more research into that before deciding whether to start another round of IVF.

 

[star25]

jaybo, glad to hear you are feeling upbeat, its always limbo land when were waiting , I think that's the worst part of any of this, I'd take extra injections any day over waiting!
It's good your DH is up for discussing adoption, hope you can find some good info to help you come to a decision. xx

Beneath, well done on the injection, its always good when they're not as bad as your expecting, I hope I had my one last one yesterday, buserelin which the nurse done, was nice not doing it myself xx

Bumpsparkle, happy transfer day!!! so excited xx

AFM, been looking at the ivf success thread and seeing when people got bfps. Im leaning towards testing just because I don't really feel pupo at the moment so I don't mind not being pupo for as long as possible. I'm not sure if that even made sense lol I just thought I would feel different, hoping my little one is hatching well today, it had already started to before transfer so it's on its way
throat is like sandpaper and not feeling good which is worrying me but nothing I can do apart from drink lots and rest
its a lovely day today so if DH comes back from work soon I might walk the dog with him for some fresh air and later I'm going to make a lamb stew but that's all my plans are for today
I don't actually think I've got many symptoms from the progesterone either apart from achy boobs but not horrendous until I take my bra off so hopefully this will make it easier to symptom spot, but then tiredness and ill feeling won't!

how is everyone else today? xx

 

[Mrs W 11]

When are you going to start testing star?

Bump good luck today!!

Afm I'm feeling a bit like the underdog. I know it's silly and I still have a chance, but because only one egg survived and had a 2dt compared to lots of you having one or two blasts transferred I'm feeling so nervous. 3dt 2dt today. Praying my embie is still growing strong and becomes a blast today. Xx

 

[star25]

you have every chance mrs w, I've only had one transferred and was worried a lot of people have 2 but they wouldn't do it if it didn't work, stay positive you will have a little blastie in there today

I was thinking maybe sunday 6dp5dt but I might get too scared by then, how about you? xx

 

[lizzie78]

Mrs W I know what you mean but remember mine were only 3dts and hopefully one of them is still clinging on. What I have learnt so far about IVF is that actually the odd pessimistic day doesnt have any effect on the outcome. Someone told while i was in my tww that the result of a positive thought lasts 3 times longer than a negative one so you can afford to have some negative ones every now and then and relax knowing your positive ones are still in credit We are only human and have been/are on a cocktail of drugs so its very difficult to feel optimistic all the time. Its also difficult not to measure yourself by other peoples cycles but try not to as much as you can, we really are all different so what equals success for one of us wouldnt necessarily be the same outcome for another. This could be the best way for you to get your BFP

Bump - good luck today

Jaybo - i agree with Star, I'd take injections over waiting any day of the week and twice on Sundays! It's great that you and DH are talking about adoption though and seem to be on the same page about things. Its so much harder is one of you violently disagrees on one of these sensitive topics. When is your first clinic appointment?

BMW - looking forward to your update today glad the PI0 injection wasnt too bad too!

Star - Aurora had a cold in her tww and someone told her that actually it can help implantation as your body is busy with the cold and doesnt have time to worry about the embie(s)/blast(s). I'm sure she will be able to give you the more scientific explanation! All that said, I hope the cold buggers off soon and leaves you able to enjoy being PUPO at long last

First - how are you doing today, so sorry I cant remember, when is EC?

Amy hope you are feeling a bit better today?

CMo - how is being PUPO? If you re keeping away from the boards for your mental health I hope all is going well x

ILT how are you? Can I be cheeky and ask you when your morning sickness kicked in please and whether you had a sort of rtavel sickness before you started actually being sick?

Aurora - hows tricks hon?

Hope everyone else is ok?

Afm not much to report. Openedn a new box of clexane last night to find the robbing eejits who had filled the box (presumably at the manufacturers?) have only put 5 not 10 syringes full in there. havent had the guts to ring my clinic about it as i'm scared ill get the nurse who was horrid to me last week. I'm guessing there isnt anything that they can do anyway. It leaves me with just enough to get to my scan date plus two doses so as long as i dont mess any up between now and then it should be ok i guess. Felt sick all day yesterday although less so so far today so hoping that is good news for my bean(s).

 

[star25]

yay for feeling sick lizzie! thank you for the advice on the cold, its made me feel better, what a pain about the clexane though. I had trouble after ivf in oct as my cetrotide didn't get delivered that I needed to keep the ohss at bay, these things don't help our nerves! xx

 

[CMo]

Hey Lizzie I'm good thanks, still here! Can't help but google constantly which will drive me crazy!

When is your scan?


I know what you mean about not comparing to other people but I can't help feel I'm onto a looser here. Think I had it in my head that I would transfer 2 embryos but they only let me do one. I just can't believe that I would ever be lucky enough for one to work, especially first time even though it was a perfect embryo.

And.... My best friend went through her 1st icsi in oct which unfortunately didn't work and my cycle is so similar to hers. First we're both best friends, both male factor (although mine is due to DH having a vasectomy so can be explained), we both got 4 eggs, both transferred 1 embryo in day 3 and I was on holiday when she got her negative results and she'll be on holiday when I get my results. It's like we're going through exactly the same thing just roles reversed. Just can't help but think mines will end the same as hers!

 

[star25]

sorry to hear your friends didn't work cmo,I don't think I'm feeling either positive or negative at the moment, I'm leaning towards positive but just don't want to get my hopes up too much. You have every chance of this working though so many success stories, a lot of them on this thread, chin up your little one will be snuggling in nicely xx