Waiting to start IVF in January anyone else?

[lizzie78]

Aurora honey you are not a weirdo, I totally get it!!

Star I'm feeling good thank you, weirdly better than I have since my first buserelin injection at the start of the year cautiously optimistic but sssh I'm scared of jinxing myself! Xxx

 

[Aurora CHK]

Good luck Aurora

Thank you! And to you!

 

[Aurora CHK]

Hope it's ok to post my own update copied from my journal. As I don't have the emotional strength to type something new. I just woke up and went for first wee of the day, and I'm bleeding like the start of AF.

I then immediately wanted to test to see if it's a chemical again, or just regular AF and Flopsy and Mopsy just never implanted, so I managed to squeeze out a few more drops of FMU (sorry tmi) for a FRER (exactly as I was saying I would do, although that might not have been on this thread?). It's positive. So another chemical. I'm hoping against hope that the bleeding doesn't continue of course, that it's some kind of late appearance of implantation bleeding, but with my history that's hard to swallow. I'm numb.

 

[Jaybo]

Oh Aurora honey sorry you're going through this this morning. I really hope it's not another chemical. How heavy is the bleeding? I know you know this, but bleeding in early pregnancy is so common, so try not to think the worst yet. Is your clinic open yet, could you give them a call? Huge hugs xx

 

[Aurora CHK]

Thanks Jaybo . It's very light, not heavy (yet) but thats how it always is. They are open but I know they'll just say to wait and see if it develops. It's just that my temps were dropping over last couple days and now this type of spotting us exactly what's happened with my three chemicals so it all feels horribly familiar. I do so so so hope you're right and it's just part of early pregnancy, but that's what I've always hoped before too Thank you.

 

[Jaybo]

Everything about this process is so cruel. Hang in there praying that this all works out for you. Take it easy today if you can xx

 

[star25]

I'm so sorry aurora, I'm praying all turns out well though and thinking of you xxxx

 

[CMo]

Aurora I'm so sorry I so hope it's not a chemical. My friend went through ivf 2 years ago. She had 2 embies implanted and had a bleed so thought it had failed. Turned out one had implanted and not the other. She now has her little boy and is still convinced the bleed was from the second one that didn't implant. I know it's probably not what you want to hear but just more to say don't give up hope xxx

 

[CMo]

Back from my scan....all looking better and got a good few follicles between 11 & 15.5mm now. 7 look good but hopefully another 3 which should be ready aswell. EC hopefully on Friday!! Thank god things are starting to grow now. Beginning to feel a bit uncomfortable now aswell which is hopefully a good sign xx

 

[amoreamy]

Aurora I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. I'm praying it's just breakthrough spotting. Thinking of you xxx

 

[star25]

Good news on scan and EC Fri cmo xx

 

[lizzie78]

Cmo, great news from your scan!

Aurora, as i said on the other thread

 

[PRGirl]

Aurora I'm so sorry to hear your news
There are so many possibilities so don't give up all hope.

I would ring your clinic regardless and explain your concerns.
They may see you earlier than you expect if they know you have been through difficult times before.

Hoping it all works out for you.

Cmo that's great news about your scan. It's always a worry when things are out of your control but things seem to be progressing well.

 

[Aurora CHK]

Great news, CMo!

Thanks PR Girl. Unfortunately my clinic were crappy and unsympathetic, just seemed to be annoyed with me for testing before Otd next Monday & saying 'this is why we tell you not to test early cos we just won't know until then.' Not very supportive

At least I know both Flopsy and Mopsy have tried their best, as have I. It's the darkest FRER I've had, so the bunnies did good as long as they could. Just had a long talk with my mum and she's made me feel much better.

 

[PRGirl]

Hi Aurora, I'm so sorry.

I know exactly what you mean about the sensitivity side of things.

There was a slim chance that we were pregnant in Jan and we were so excited. The consultant suggested we test to be sure and the junior nurse - not consultant - decided to run in and laugh then say 'At least we know our tests as the same as yours, it's a negative from us!'.

I was both annoyed and devastated.
I could have slapped her for being so stupid but instead just looked at her and shook my head.

I hope that things turn around and that by Monday you have some good news. Is there any chance?

My fingers and toes are crossed for you!

 

[amoreamy]

cmo = I forgot to sounds good news! It's definitely happening now!

aurora, I hope you're okay, I'm sorry your clinic was so insensitive, I feel like once they're put back it's not their deal anymore and its either this way or that way and you to deal with it. Actually it's far more difficult than it's possible to imagine.

I will just do a quick one for me.

My retrieval is booked for Wednesday at 9.30am so trigger tonight and no more buserelin or merional hooray! The downside is I've had a strong reaction to the antibiotics and have barely had any fluids or food for 36 hours, so I feel dreadful. My body aches all over and I'm pretty dehydrated. Luckily the clinic isn't forcing me to take it and just said stop immediately, so I'm hoping by Weds I'll feel more human again.

I clearly looked horrendous at the hospital because the normally very aloof radiographer was really sweet to me today.

The scan result after 12 days stimming

endo lining; 13.6 mm triple line

left ovary; (the main ones) 22,19, 17, 17, 17, 16, 15.5, 11mm
right ovary; 20,19,18.5, 11mm

Hope everyone else is well xxx

 

[beneathmywing]

Aurora -- I'm so sorry to hear this

Cmo -- great news on your scan!!

 

[Mrs W 11]

Hi everyone,

Aurora - I'm so sorry for everything you are going through Hun, I know the limbo and not knowing whilst worrying and hoping is just awful. How is the bleeding now? Don't loose hope, as others have said early bleeding can be normal, with my dd I assumed my period had come when I had a bright red bleed but it then disappeared and I discovered I was pregnant. I am thinking of you and hope and pray for good news for you. If not..... Will they do tests for you now that you have had so many chemicals? I know many things can cause early mc and many are easily treatable.

Amo - great news! Sounds like you've lots of lovely eggs ready! Excited for you.

Cmo - same, brilliant news!! Good luck for your collection on Friday!

Prgirl - gosh can't believe how insensitive that nurse was!! How are you feeling lovely?

How's everyone else?

Update on me.... I had a scan today and lining was 11mm and there were either 6 or 7 follies on my ovary looking good. A bunch of smaller ones unlikely to have eggs in them. 2 were ready and the rest nearly ready. She did say though that all follicles don't have eggs in and so to expect about half of them to have eggs - is that right?! I am sure she knows best but I thought most had eggs in.

Anyway.... The outcome is that we will have a run of egg collections this week as I will trigger tomorrow night and my egg collection is Thursday!! Can't believe it, so excited/nervous/emotional/hopeful/worried/ etc.....

Does anyone else almost not want the journey to be over I case it's not good news?! I'm enjoying all of the hospital appointments, scans and all of the hope and possibility ahead.

Thank you all so so much for all of the advice on our dilemma. In the end, because the local schools were not good, we decided to keep looking and not to offer on the house we love. Tough choice but ultimately I wouldn't be happy with my dd going to school in the closets few schools and she could easily be made to so I just couldn't do it. I love the advice about never looking back and regretting what you didn't do and I do agree with that so much! Thank you all.

Xxx

 

[star25]

Aurora, sorry about the response you got from the clinic, you would think they would be more supportive, how is the bleeding now?

Aurora, great news, bad news about feeling ill hope your better for weds

Mrs w, great news for you too! I had 35 follicles and 22 eggs, I think the follicles just have eggs if theyre above a certain size, sounds like your all good though!

Afm? Fretting about tomorrow's scan, keep telling myself all will be ok but dont want to be disappointed

 

[Mrs W 11]

That's what I thought too star but we will see. Good luck tomorrow, hoping your lining is nice and thick!!

If I were to get to 5 day transfer (unlikely, it will probably be 3 day) we would be having transfer on the same day!!