Waiting to start IVF in January anyone else?

[Comfycushions]

Aurora I'm so so sorry to hear your news. This whole process is just so awful and unfair.

Good luck to everyone with scans, collections, transfers and testing coming up.

Like Jaybo I feel at home on this thread and I'm so grateful for all the support you've given me-so you haven't gotten rid of me yet.

Afm I'm doing ok, albeit with a prescription for diazepam. GP said some form of post traumatic anxiety quite common and wants me to stay off for another two weeks. I'm going to try going back next week though as want to try and get back to normal. This whole anxiety thing has come as a bit of a shock.

 

[lizzie78]

Aurora, I am so so sorry. Take all the time you need, this may not be the healthiest or safest place for you right now but we are still here for you if you want us xxxx

Jaybo - good luck with your appointment today, be sure to tell us what they say (I always think WTF sums it up perfectly!

As for me, I was worried i was going to jinx things by talking about it and am now terrified that's true. Tested this morning and got a BFP on a clearblue, a clearblue digital and a FRER but the FRER was more like the line I had on 9dp3dt not the most recent one on 11dp3dt so now i'm scared and upset that it is still going to be a chemical but just a later one. I've tried to tell myself that maybe this batch of FRERs just has a different dye concentration but its hard to believe. OTD is Thursday so I guess I'll keep hanging on. I'm sleepy, still have backache and some mild cramping in my stomach and feel dizzy and a little tiny bit nauseous but am so scared that my HCG levels are going down not up. This is our last chance so i'm praying that minnie and/or mo is in there still fighting. Told DH this mornign, he seemed baffled that I took three tests lol. he isnt a wordy man or one who is comfortable with emotions but I did get multiple cuddles and kisses. i just so hope im not going to break both our hearts again on OTD.

https://www.flickr.com/photos/131430...4/16632634385/
https://www.flickr.com/photos/131430...4/16632635385/

 

[Comfycushions]

Lizzie so sorry you're dealing with this anxiety and uncertainty. Really hoping everything is ok for you.xx

 

[amoreamy]

That's amazing news Lizzie, I can't see your photos though, can you upload them here? I was literally just watching someone on yt with the same thing. They got their positive at 3 weeks and 5 days and at around 4 1/2 weeks her frer didn't seem any darker. She went to the doctor and her numbers had gone from 68 to about 650 so everything was fine. She's now 27 weeks. Hang on in there

 

[lizzie78]

Thanks Amoreamy, that's exactly what I need to hear today.

Argh thought I had managed the link ok. Not sure how to uplad as actual photos it wouldnt work when I tried.

try these:
https://www.flickr.com/photos/131430100@N04/16632634385/

https://www.flickr.com/photos/131430100@N04/16632635385/

 

[amoreamy]

OMG!!!! Lizzie!!! That progression is beautiful! I'm so excited for you! Your 11dpt is definitely darker than your 9dpt. It looks fab xx

 

[CMo]

Omg Lizzie congratulations!! I would say a def BFP and progression looks really good! Try to relax and enjoy. Is it thurs your official OTD? Xx

ILT your post just made me giggle so much!!

 

[lizzie78]

I know my 11 day progression looks great but if you look at the FRER in todays pic (the one with the clear blues as well) it looks like my FRER has gone backwards as it isnt anywhere near as strong as at 11 days. That's what is making me worry. Thanks Ladies x

 

[amoreamy]

I think it looks about the same. Try not worry (easy for me to say I know). I think it all looks good xx

 

[star25]

Lizzie omg! I can see good progression dont worry, otd is only 2 days away and I bet they'll be darker still and you have good symptoms, I'm excited for you xx

Ilt, that made me laugh, dh done that to me this morning I nearly got gassed out, my dog done the loudest one ever the other day, under my leg, she jumped up so quick and ran out he room and I nearly spilty tea everywhere!

Comfy, hope you feel lots better soon xxx

Afm, transfer is Monday at 10:45!! First measurement was 7something so I panicked, she measured a few different angles and the next one was 8.11 and the third one 8.49 so we're all good, she asked if could do weds next week then said Mon was free so I quickly said yes before dh could say anything different, im not waiting another 2 day's! Start progesterone gel tomorrow night, so relieved!

 

[star25]

Will be a 4ba blast, cannot wait x

 

[Jaybo]

So my manager just walked in to my office whist I was holding my phone up to the light to look at your frers Lizzy!! As if that makes a difference on a photo!

There is definitely great progression there, although I agree there's more between day 9 and 11 then today's, but you would expect that because it's two days worth of hormone. Today's doesn't look to me as light as 9dpt. Try not to worry. I'm going to reserve my yays and congratulations for now because I know how (understandably) cautious you feel at the moment. I hope the line gets darker and darker. Your DH sounds just like mine he was great when it came to jabbing me with needles but when I was a blubbering mess on the floor he had no idea!

Comfy - good to hear from you. Sorry you're struggling. I feel more anxious the ever since finishing treatment, so you're not alone. I hope you're getting support and the diazapam helps

Star - so excited for you and your blast!! It seems you've been waiting forever! Roll on Monday xx

 

[lizzie78]

well it was worth you getting caught holding the phone up to the light jaybo because 1) it made me laugh which is not easy today and 2) I now believe you because you put so much effort into looking at it for me.

So sorry for being a mentalist everyone I had managed not to believe it was true right up until yesterday when I started to feel happy so this is hitting me hard today

 

[Ilovetomatoes]

Lizzie!! That's a definite BFP! Like Jaybo, I am going to reserve my congrats until your OTD but I am very hopeful for you . I see your concern but wondered if the test was actually still wet. It does take a few hours for it to dry and when it is completely dry...it gets darker. I think the cramping and light nausea are certainly good signs . Fingers crossed tightly for you Lizzie!

Cmo, How are you doing?

Comfy, I just want to give you a hug

Star, hello future PUPO!! . It's finally almost here!

Everyone else...Hi :wave:

 

[beneathmywing]

Jaybo-- thanks Hun! I am on a Femara antagonist protocol with low/mid stims. Seems to be working well so far!! Please update us on your wtf appointment tomorrow!! Don't be silly, we want you to hang around

Star-- thanks!

ILT-- your post made me LOL too!!!!

Comfy-- so sorry to hear about the anxiety. Hope you feel better soon!

Lizzie-- really hoping it is not a chemical, Hun!!! Keeping my fx for you!

Star-- yay!!!! You must be so excited that you transfer is almost here.

AFM: Took my last for Femara last night and started Gani this morning. Things are moving along!!!

 

[Jaybo]

Glad it made you smile Lizzy, honestly I'm not quite sure how I've got a job left at the moment!

Beneath that's interesting that you're responding better to a milder protocol. There's a clinic near me that offers natural and mild IVF that I was looking at. Less meds and cheaper too!! Not long left for you now either!

Hi ILT - hope you're doing well. How long left till your next scan?

 

[Ilovetomatoes]

Jaybo, next scan is tomorrow. A bit anxious and just want to get it over with.

 

[Jaybo]

Wow tomorrow, for some reason I thought it was further away. Time seems to do it's own thing in this ivf vortex!! Best of luck, I hope everything goes smoothly. Let us know how you get on. xx

 

[beneathmywing]

Glad it made you smile Lizzy, honestly I'm not quite sure how I've got a job left at the moment!

Beneath that's interesting that you're responding better to a milder protocol. There's a clinic near me that offers natural and mild IVF that I was looking at. Less meds and cheaper too!! Not long left for you now either!

Hi ILT - hope you're doing well. How long left till your next scan?

Yes, my doctor really believes that low to mild stims is the way to go, especially since my last IVF I was on the highest dose and my follicle stopped growing and had to cancel. I really believe that the high dose burned them out. Apparently my assumption was right and so is my doctor!! Definitely responding better with lower meds. I definitely think you should look into it.

 

[beneathmywing]

ILT-- good luck at your scan tomorrow. I can't wait to hear all about it!!!