Waiting to start IVF in January anyone else?

[Jaybo]

Thanks girls, only you guys could really understand the bitter sweetness of a loved ones pregnancy announcement. And the ability for them to be so perfectly timed!!

MrsW the house sounds perfect, I hope you can make an offer.

Beneath don't forget to get baby/low dose asprin (around 80mg) if you do. I started taking them after ET too.

 

[MoBaby]

BMW dont take aspirin unless you have been told to do so. Its not always indicated. It can result in lower pregnancy outcome if you dont need it. I would ask your RE first.

 

[Ilovetomatoes]

I think each RE is very different. Mine is a bit conservative . If you want to take aspirin, like Jaybo said, buy the baby aspirin. But, do consult your clinic before you take it, like Mo said. I've been taking it since retrieval time. The only effect I experience is that I bleed easier especially during PIO shots. I'm taking it until end of pregnancy to help with Pre eclampsia. I did hear good thing about aspirin and if that's something that you are interested of taking definitely consult your doctor first. supposedly, it promotes blood flow in your body including your uterus. It's also a blood thinner.

 

[beneathmywing]

Thanks girls!!

 

[Bumpsparkle]

Sorry I've not been around much today. Been wallowing in self induced misery as I've been convincing myself this hasn't worked again. I think it's the protection kicking in and I knew I'd get more like it closer to otd as I'm less sure whether embie is still there. Carried a heavy basket of shopping today and cried all the way home as convinced I'd just blown my chances.

I told myself not to test so that something else about this cycle was different, as if testing early was the cause of previous negatives. I'm thinking that perhaps I just need to test tomorrow to see whether I'm right to start building up my barriers or whether things are still happening. Just had a stern word with myself in the shower that testing is absolutely not going to effect the outcome, it's simply science and nature. I've avoided it so that I avoid the misery of a bfn, but if I'm feeling that way anyway, what have I got to lose!

Sorry really needed that rant today! x

 

[Aurora CHK]

Here's todays tests, hope you can see them better but my camera isn't great, much more obvious in real life than yesterdays

Fantastic progression!

 

[Aurora CHK]

Well had my call iv still 5 embryos one is actually behind but could catch up and the other 4 are on track with one fair and the other 3 good or top grade. So transfer is now officially put off till Tuesday at 1.30pm x

Great news!

 

[Aurora CHK]

Congrats, Star and Amore!

Amore: I understand how you're feeling. Only time will tell.

AFM, I woke up feeling very nauseated. And now I'm staring at a stark white FRER. It's 4dp5dt. I'm kind of bummed. If I don't get a BFP by tomorrow, I'm pretty sure that I'm out.

I've had four BFPs (four separate pregnancies I mean) but never before 10days dpo / 5dp5dt, and even those were real squinters. You're not out, honey

 

[Aurora CHK]

Thanks for asking after me. I'm really struggling this weekend but didn't want to fill up this happy thread with my misery! My brother announced his girlfriend is pregnant on Friday, due around the same time as I would have been had the ivf worked. It was so heartbreaking watching everyone try to hide their excitement from us. It's just floored me a bit, but trying to pull it together! xx

Bloody hell, Jaybo, that's the most horrid thing ever, I almost threw up myself for you there; I'm impressed you can even string a sentence together, you are incredibly brave and generous. I know this is wrong and you love your brother and possibly even his GF but I kinda wanna punch them both in the face a bit

 

[beneathmywing]

Sorry I've not been around much today. Been wallowing in self induced misery as I've been convincing myself this hasn't worked again. I think it's the protection kicking in and I knew I'd get more like it closer to otd as I'm less sure whether embie is still there. Carried a heavy basket of shopping today and cried all the way home as convinced I'd just blown my chances.

I told myself not to test so that something else about this cycle was different, as if testing early was the cause of previous negatives. I'm thinking that perhaps I just need to test tomorrow to see whether I'm right to start building up my barriers or whether things are still happening. Just had a stern word with myself in the shower that testing is absolutely not going to effect the outcome, it's simply science and nature. I've avoided it so that I avoid the misery of a bfn, but if I'm feeling that way anyway, what have I got to lose!

Sorry really needed that rant today! x

I don't know if you've seen the chart ILT posted once about what goes on after 5dt. I'll post it again.

1dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
2dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
3dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
4dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
5dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells &
fetal cells
6dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
7dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
8dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
9dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on
HPT


So technically it isn't until 6dpt that HCG begins secreting. You are not out! Everyone is just different!! Hang in there xx

 

[Aurora CHK]

Sorry I've not been around much today. Been wallowing in self induced misery as I've been convincing myself this hasn't worked again. I think it's the protection kicking in and I knew I'd get more like it closer to otd as I'm less sure whether embie is still there. Carried a heavy basket of shopping today and cried all the way home as convinced I'd just blown my chances.

I told myself not to test so that something else about this cycle was different, as if testing early was the cause of previous negatives. I'm thinking that perhaps I just need to test tomorrow to see whether I'm right to start building up my barriers or whether things are still happening. Just had a stern word with myself in the shower that testing is absolutely not going to effect the outcome, it's simply science and nature. I've avoided it so that I avoid the misery of a bfn, but if I'm feeling that way anyway, what have I got to lose!

Sorry really needed that rant today! x

I really relate, sweety. Be gentle with yourself and don't be afraid to try some escapism / distraction/ giggles with TV, books etc. Those of us who've had multiple disappointments have to do what we can to get through the uncertain, scary times. I'm sure there must be some kind of ICSI PTSD. Not trying to make light of PTSD, btw - I just mean that I'm sure there are psychological effects of going through this process and ending in failure (or even success) and we do start to try to anticipate pain in advance of it arriving as if that might help us cope, but it also does mean we have it longer, eh? I was trying to tell myself this today. Worrying/pessimism might make me feel I'm protecting my self, but if it's flooding my system with cortisol that might not be very nice for Bunny if they are still in there. So I am trying to distract myself with Charmed and Once Upon a Time just to encourage some nicer relaxation hormones to circulate xxx

 

[amoreamy]

Jaybo, I missed that post, I'm so sorry that's just the worst. So many conflicted emotions. It's an awful thought that someone would hide it to spare your feelings. Lots of love xx

Bump, vent all you like! That's what we're here for, and I think we all know exactly how you feel. All you're feeling is completely natural. xx

 

[Aurora CHK]

Amoreamy, great FRER - congratulations on your pregnancy!

And yours, BMW Bless your lovely nurse.

Mrs W, I'm so excited about your house situation

ILT, is the sickness really bad now? big hugs

Mo

Love to everyone else I haven't quoted or commented to who is currently active and of course to all our currently quieter members

Everyone, thanks for your understanding of my paranoia

 

[star25]

Thank u aurora

Bump, i've been convinced weeks ago this wouldn't work, ite like you said a barrier to protect ourselves, chin up and stay positive as you can, ive been waiting over ten years for this and probably wont ever believe it! It can and will happen xxx

 

[Mrs W 11]

Bump I feel the same. The end of the tww is hard! I'm constantly googling to find out if my 'symptoms' could mean early pregnancy or are progeaterone or something which ultimately is pointless as I always find some threads where people had the same and got Bfps and others where they didn't. I'm desperate to know and put myself out of my misery but at the same time I'm dreading bad news if this hasn't worked. I'll be so gutted. Yesterday I felt really positive but today I'm the opposite, really sure if I'll be out and will feel silly for getting carried away yesterday and letting myself believe it could be true. Ugh. In bed. Night girls xxx

Ps bump, only 4 more sleeps till our otd what time is your blood test? Xx

 

[Ilovetomatoes]

Bump, I'm sorry you are feeling down . I did carry furniture that weight at least 15 lbs 3 days after transfer. I don't think it can hurt implantation.

Aurora, I have a feeling that everytime the babies are growing my nausea turned into puke marathon. It happens every Friday and Saturday lol

 

[beneathmywing]

Here I go symptom spotting, and I am only 1dp5dt lolll.. but yeah, is it too early to be mildy cramping? Cramping scares me because I cramp before af!

 

[FirstTry]

Beneath: cramping is good. I've had it with every BFP.

Bump: against the nurses directions, I've been carrying my 23 lb son since transfer day. I just have to. He even kicked me in the belly a few times

But...that didn't stop my which I just got on a FRER!!! It's the faintest squinter ever, but it's there

 

[FirstTry]

Can you see it?

 

[MoBaby]

Congrats first! I knew you'd get it