Hi ladies...I'm sorry but I must vent
First...I saw that KellyC lost her father? I am so sorry for your loss, I know that there are no words that can console when we lose someone we love...so I wish you the best and hope you can move through this time and enjoy the memories. My sister's 5 year D day is approaching (the 18th) so I'm going through my yearly breakdown. I made it through year one by talking about her alot and remembering everything I could...the good the bad and the ugly (we had plenty of each).
This year so far has been so overwhelming! I've had so many milestones, a sweet 16, high school graduation, oldest daughter announcing she's getting married, a premature daughter, 20 year wedding anniversary...with all that we've had house guests since mid-may. Today was the last day of house guests (mother in law left today....THANK GOD!) She's a wicked woman and I simply can't stand her. I've decided she is not welcome back after this visit. That may sound extreme but...today my MIL and husband took our middle daughter to meet w/her cheer squad to leave for cheer camp when they came back my husband accidently ran over our oldest daughter's puppy
We rushed her to the hospital. Ultimately we could have saved her w/a very expensive surgery...but they said the likeliness that Kaya would live w/o pain was very little. Her hips were shattered and her organs were all messed up. We had her euthenized and she died in my arms. My daughter was a disaster. Her Dad is so distraught...he's always complaining about the puppy and how annoying she is...so he thought our daugther would think he did it intentionally. Truth is that he loved the puppy...but he complains about all of our pets, just his way. He cuddles them all when the girls aren't looking though.
So, we're all sad by what happened. My MIL and I had to drive my oldest daughter to meet w/my mom and grandmother as they are going on vacation today ...great frikken timing. So during the drive there MIL tells Brittany, "Honey, this won't be the first time you get your heart broken so buck up." WTF ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I bit my tongue the rest of the way there. When we met w/my grandmother and mom they had tears and held Brittany....the MONSTER..in law said it was "cute".
So...after dropping Brit off MIL and I drove back and she told me she was happy to have been here for the the "incident"....it gave her the opportunity to see us as a family. Is it me or is that just sick? I've never cared for her and these things are just a few of the bizarre ways she treats me, my husband and our daughters.
Okay, so all emotions running crazy and I decided to do a pregnancy test. BFP. I know I should be happy...but I'm not. It isn't that I don't want to be pregnant, I didn't think it would happen so soon. I really thought that with our past conception issues that it'd take several months...so to conceive on my first cycle is just insane. Kenzie just turned 3 months! Ugh! Okay, I will be excited and overjoyed as soon as I recover from this week...but today has just been overwhelming.
Sorry for the rant ladies
Hope you will all join me w/BFP's soon! Also, its strange cuz I thought I was only 6dpo...I only tested cuz I purchased a bunch for next week and I'm a POAS addict.
gets you. 
I've had some more spotting today, and terrible cramping, so I'm pretty sure that AF will be here tomorrow or Sunday at the latest. She's a bit early, which makes it a short LF for me. I'm hoping this won't interfere with my fertility...
I've lost my mom 10 years ago, and it was the hardest thing I ever had to live through. I still miss her tremendously. I always will. But the pain does fade. It does get better. The first 3 months is the worst. Hang in there!
Thankyou
Fabian
i'm sure you'll be 
soon enough
to all!
tonight afterall 
