Hello Everyone. I am not sure if this is where I post, but here I go, anyway. I stopped taking the pill in March and husband and I have been TTC since then. I know you are supposed to wait three months after you have been off the pill to start counting months, but it is so hard to do when you want a baby. Every month when I see that single line, I get so discouraged and feel a wave of sadness. Last month was horrible. I was 2 weeks late, which has never happened, I am like clockwork. We got so excited but kept getting negative tests, and then I started my period. I felt the worst case of defeat that I have ever felt. I started this next cycle with more determination than ever. Though I am not supposed to start until Thursday, I took an early pregnancy test today, and it was negative. Another month down, how many more to go?
I know I should not start worrying and getting tested until a year, but I can't help but to feel broken. I guess I am writing to get some support from women who know what I am going through. My mom got pregnant her first time trying and my two best friends had no trouble at all. They don't understand what it is like to try for a baby. I just feel like I am on this journey that will never end with a happy ending. Again, I know it is silly to feel this after only a matter of months, but support may help.