Welcome to 'Trying To Conceive Over 35'

[jm1355]

Hi ladies!
I am new to this site so I thought it might be good to share my story mostly because if I don't get this off my chest I think I might explode.

I am 35 1/2 years old I feel that I need to try and start a family before it's to late.
I have a history that is causing me to fear that I may never get pregnant.
I started drinking and using drugs when I was 12 mostly to cover up the pains of being raised in an abusive family. However, my addiction progressed and spun out of control.
At the age of 22 I was full blown addicted to Heroin and homeless I did so many things I am not proud of and am so greatful that I was given a second chance at life.
I got sober 5/19/2007 I was 30 years old!
From the age of 22 thru 30 there were several periods when I did not have menstration for years at a time and then I would suddenly have periods so heavy that I would need to use three tampons and hour this would last for months and then suddenly stop.
Six months into sobriety I started having regular 30 day cylces which was very suprising to me.
At two years sober I was diagnosed with dysplasia and had a leep procedure done that removed what I think was a lot of my cervix.
At 3 1/2 years sober I was diagnosed with Hepatitis C and I underwent 24 weeks of the Interferon treatment. My viral load is zero and my doctor has given me the ok to TTC.
During my first four years of sobriety I met and had a long term relationship with a man who did not want children and we used the pull out method as BC.
One year ago I finally met the most amazing kind, compasionate, and just all around beautiful man. We decided to stop using protection and give fate to our higher power last month 4/2012 I did not fall pregnant in April and the first day of my cycle for May was 5/3/2012 here is my crazy symptom spotting and obssesions that I have been going thru since that day.
Ladies please be kind I know some may not agree with my past but please believe I have done everything within my power to clean up the wreckage of my past.
5/3/2012 first day of menstrual period
5/13/2012 Positive opk
5/16/12 I believe I ovulated due to pains and the fact that my LH dropped down to negative on 5/17/12
5/18/12 1 DPO breast so sore it hurts to walk fast lol
5/19/12 2 DPO breast sore feeling bloated
5/20/12 3 DPO breast sore/bloated/depressed
5/21/12 4 DPO breast sore/bloated/craving salt
5/22/12 5 DPO breast sore/back pain/pimple on cheek
5/23/12 6 DPO seems like my breast are not as sore today omg..
I am so confused I just don't know where to start I am loosing my mind.
I have had no CM since ovulation and I am so scared that I will never have a family.
My B/F and I BD every night from 2 post ovulation and have BD every night since so I am sure we had good timing.
Do any of you beautiful women have any encouragement or hope that you can pass my way?

Well, Soberbird...first let me say welcome. My name is Jessica (Jess). Your story is overwhelming. Abuse so horrible at such a young age that you would have to turn to drugs...it hurts my heart.
I am relatively new to this site as well, but I can tell you there are a few ladies on here that are absolutely wonderful. Just knowing that they read what I write and can relate to what I am going through makes all the difference in the world.
I don't know what to tell you about trying to conceive other than what I have done. I am 40 and have gone to a FS to make sure everything is working right. Given your history you might want to do the same. Most insurance will cover it if you get a referral from your OBGYN or your family doctor.

As far as the obsessing over symptoms, get used to it! We all do it. It comes with the sheer desire of TTC!! Today I am 10DPO...BBs are not sore anymore...a little spotting...no AF but I know she's coming... booo!

I wish there were something more I could tell you but I just had to send a reply after reading your story. Good Luck and I am here to talk to most of the time....
lots of baby dust for you!!

 

[jm1355]

Ali...why are you feeling Achey? Like you might have a cold achey?

 

[alicatt]

Ali...why are you feeling Achey? Like you might have a cold achey?

No I'm achey from cramps! At least I was this morning, but they are gone again?
The is out there.. going to get me soon I think.
No more spotting though, what is with me and spotting every 2-3 days? OH, and just for laughs I did another IC HPT, and of course it was BFN.

I am going to my regular Dr for a checkup and to talk to him about what options I have for acid reflux, migraines etc. I have been suffering acid reflux for the past 2 weeks (almost constant), and I'm hoping and praying he has something that I can take that is safe during pregnancy. Plus about 4 months ago he put me on HBP meds, which I am not taking, and need to tell him so. He is not going to be happy, but the drug he put me on is something that can cause pretty severe issues if you are pregnant, so there is no way I am going to take it! I haven't taken it in over 2 months. The funny thing is that my BP is perfectly normal when I'm at home. I think I get stressed out when I go to the Dr's because I know he is going to look at it and get mad at me!
So when I am there I am going to have him do a blood test and see if I am pregnant but my levels are just too low yet to register on a HPT. I have been told that they can get the results the following day, which would mean that I'd have the results by Friday!!

I laughed out loud at your bold use of white pants today. Did you see that I did the exact same thing yesterday? It didn't work though Still.. that is so funny that we did the same thign!!

How are you feeling today? Still convinced that AF is coming? Or do you feel more confident that things are OK?

Ali

 

[Hoped]

Hi everyone..... My husband and me have been trying to get pregnant for almost 2 yrs I've been doing everything you're meant to be doin kits, no alcohol gave up smoking! I just turned 35 and I feel like theres no hope. When we talk about it it always ends up in arguments so we don't talk about it anymore. I've moved away from my family and friends and have nobody to talk to here so I'm so glad I've found this site.

Hope you don't mind me joining in

 

[MissusO]

Hi everyone..... My husband and me have been trying to get pregnant for almost 2 yrs I've been doing everything you're meant to be doin kits, no alcohol gave up smoking! I just turned 35 and I feel like theres no hope. When we talk about it it always ends up in arguments so we don't talk about it anymore. I've moved away from my family and friends and have nobody to talk to here so I'm so glad I've found this site.

Hope you don't mind me joining in

Hello there,

Am fairly new here too, so welcome. Plenty of people here you can talk to and who will understand what you are going through.

Look forward to getting to know you.

Missuso

 

[MissusO]

Hi ladies!
I am new to this site so I thought it might be good to share my story mostly because if I don't get this off my chest I think I might explode.

I am 35 1/2 years old I feel that I need to try and start a family before it's to late.
I have a history that is causing me to fear that I may never get pregnant.
I started drinking and using drugs when I was 12 mostly to cover up the pains of being raised in an abusive family. However, my addiction progressed and spun out of control.
At the age of 22 I was full blown addicted to Heroin and homeless I did so many things I am not proud of and am so greatful that I was given a second chance at life.
I got sober 5/19/2007 I was 30 years old!
From the age of 22 thru 30 there were several periods when I did not have menstration for years at a time and then I would suddenly have periods so heavy that I would need to use three tampons and hour this would last for months and then suddenly stop.
Six months into sobriety I started having regular 30 day cylces which was very suprising to me.
At two years sober I was diagnosed with dysplasia and had a leep procedure done that removed what I think was a lot of my cervix.
At 3 1/2 years sober I was diagnosed with Hepatitis C and I underwent 24 weeks of the Interferon treatment. My viral load is zero and my doctor has given me the ok to TTC.
During my first four years of sobriety I met and had a long term relationship with a man who did not want children and we used the pull out method as BC.
One year ago I finally met the most amazing kind, compasionate, and just all around beautiful man. We decided to stop using protection and give fate to our higher power last month 4/2012 I did not fall pregnant in April and the first day of my cycle for May was 5/3/2012 here is my crazy symptom spotting and obssesions that I have been going thru since that day.
Ladies please be kind I know some may not agree with my past but please believe I have done everything within my power to clean up the wreckage of my past.
5/3/2012 first day of menstrual period
5/13/2012 Positive opk
5/16/12 I believe I ovulated due to pains and the fact that my LH dropped down to negative on 5/17/12
5/18/12 1 DPO breast so sore it hurts to walk fast lol
5/19/12 2 DPO breast sore feeling bloated
5/20/12 3 DPO breast sore/bloated/depressed
5/21/12 4 DPO breast sore/bloated/craving salt
5/22/12 5 DPO breast sore/back pain/pimple on cheek
5/23/12 6 DPO seems like my breast are not as sore today omg..
I am so confused I just don't know where to start I am loosing my mind.
I have had no CM since ovulation and I am so scared that I will never have a family.
My B/F and I BD every night from 2 post ovulation and have BD every night since so I am sure we had good timing.
Do any of you beautiful women have any encouragement or hope that you can pass my way?

Hello soberbird

What a story and how brave of you to get your life turned around in the way that you have. Well done. I can't answer many questions as am new to this all too but am happy to give encouragement where I can. As someone else has suggested, it might be helpful to try charting which can begin to help make sense of what your body is doing at particular times of the month,

Take care

Missuso

 

[Grey Eyes]

Ladies please be kind I know some may not agree with my past but please believe I have done everything within my power to clean up the wreckage of my past.

Hi Soberbird! This comment struck me a little bit--it is obvious that you have changed your habits and for the better! Try not to be too hard on yourself about the past- it's back there 'cause that's the best place for it

Yep, good chance you could be pregegrs! Your BD timing is risky as you waited 2 days post-Ovulation--if I am understanding your post correctly. However, that being said some eggs can live that long but is not common. Your symptoms could either be very early pregnancy or hormone surges from AF. I got my fx'd for you though! Keep us posted!

Ali was right, try fertility friend they have an awesome charting service that makes keping track super simple! Also, if you are not prego this time around try bd'g about 4-5 days before suspected ovulation...doesn't have to be every day just every other day or so. Do you pay attention to cm (cervical mucus) as well?

 

[Grey Eyes]

Hi everyone..... My husband and me have been trying to get pregnant for almost 2 yrs I've been doing everything you're meant to be doin kits, no alcohol gave up smoking! I just turned 35 and I feel like theres no hope. When we talk about it it always ends up in arguments so we don't talk about it anymore. I've moved away from my family and friends and have nobody to talk to here so I'm so glad I've found this site.

Hope you don't mind me joining in

Welcome! Have you seen a Fertility Specialist? How about your dh (husband) - has he had an SA to determine if his sperm is active?

 

[Philomena]

Wow! Hello to all the new ladies!! Welcome!

Soberbird, I am especially glad you shared your story with us. Everyone has one, and everyone has 'something' they have struggled through, or had to overcome, whether they tell us or not. I found your story inspiring and you should be so proud of how far you've come! It is one of the most difficult things to turn your own life around, and yay for wanting to share your new life with a new bundle of joy!!

To all the new ladies, MissusO, Hoped, Soberbird and any I've missed, I wish you every happiness in your journey! I hope that you will find answers to questions here and loads of support and friendship! We are in the same boat, or have been, so any help or advice I can give, I'd be honoured.... and I know many of the ladies here feel the same way....

phil.

 

[jm1355]

Just wanted to say good morning to all...MissusO, Hoped, Soberbird --I'm so glad you have joined us! I hope you find this thread as therapeutic as I do!

Ali! Talk to me woman!! How are you today?

Coy---how are you feeling today?

 

[Hoped]

Hi MissusO and greay eyes thanks for the welcome. We both haven't had any tests done. We've moved abroad to live and the medical card takes a few weeks then we'll be making an appointment to see someone. So comforting to read the comments. Where we live has a swimming pool and it's got pregnant women and kids everywhere, just today I was reading my book and looked up there was a women heavily pregnant with someone else asking all about it. Had to turn away as I felt so happy for her but so jealous at the same time, tears tripping me. You feel so ridiculous! How are you two getting on?!

 

[jm1355]

Ali!! Where are you?

I wanted to let yall know...
Still no AF for me. She is supposed to stop in for her visit today. It is still early. I think I used my mind power and made her come late!! Lol! But I'm still pretty sure she is coming. I've had a little bit of brown spotting once or twice a day over the last three days. More than likely a sign of my impending visitor!! But I'm actually ok now. At least I know. It is almost a relief just knowing...even though it would have been fantastic for her not to come at all!!

 

[Soberbird]

Good Morning
I worded my BDing wrong
I meant that I BD every day pre ov and continued for a week after (and still going) lol
I have started using fertility friend and I have started using BBT but I think temping is driving my even more crazy. Here are my temps for the last four days I started temping 3 days past ov so I am sure I can't read to much into them yet.
Four days ago I started taking BBT's (I am sure that I should not read to much into my temps because I have no previous temps to judge by but I am still letting it consume my every waking moment.
BBT day 1 97.07
BBT day 2 97.88
BBT day 3 98.07
BBT day 4 97.59 (today)
WHAT DOES THIS MEAN I am going crazy

 

[alicatt]

Good Morning
I worded my BDing wrong
I meant that I BD every day pre ov and continued for a week after (and still going) lol
I have started using fertility friend and I have started using BBT but I think temping is driving my even more crazy. Here are my temps for the last four days I started temping 3 days past ov so I am sure I can't read to much into them yet.
Four days ago I started taking BBT's (I am sure that I should not read to much into my temps because I have no previous temps to judge by but I am still letting it consume my every waking moment.
BBT day 1 97.07
BBT day 2 97.88
BBT day 3 98.07
BBT day 4 97.59 (today)
WHAT DOES THIS MEAN I am going crazy

OHH.. OK! That makes more sense
Glad to see you are doing all the right things. I'm a novice at the BBT thing, so I may not be the right person to talk to about it. However depending on your DPO, a temp dip can mean implantation, or that AF is on its way. Or it could just be an anomaly. Hopefully someone that is better at reading BBT charts can help you!

 

[alicatt]

Ali!! Where are you?

I wanted to let yall know...
Still no AF for me. She is supposed to stop in for her visit today. It is still early. I think I used my mind power and made her come late!! Lol! But I'm still pretty sure she is coming. I've had a little bit of brown spotting once or twice a day over the last three days. More than likely a sign of my impending visitor!! But I'm actually ok now. At least I know. It is almost a relief just knowing...even though it would have been fantastic for her not to come at all!!

Hey Jess!

I took the morning off to go to the Dentist and the Doctors. I have bad news though I'm almost 100% positive that AF has arrived. It is either that or more spotting. I did make my Dr do a blood HCG test and I should get the results tomorrow. OH well, in a way it is good. I will go do my Day 3 blood work on Saturday, and have my tubes examined sometime late next week. Then we will know what I'm dealing with.
Sending you in hopes that your spotting is due to implantation!!! HUGS!

 

[alicatt]

Just wanted to say good morning to all...MissusO, Hoped, Soberbird --I'm so glad you have joined us! I hope you find this thread as therapeutic as I do!

Ali! Talk to me woman!! How are you today?

Coy---how are you feeling today?

Yes.. welcome The more lovely ladies the better! So nice to have other to discuss these issues with. Men just don't get it, at least not as well as another woman

 

[Hoped]

Hi all, just read some comments and it's nice to be able to laugh instead of always feeling deflated! Btw gonna try the white underwear approach lol

 

[marathongirl]

Good morning Ladies!! Welcome to all of the newbies!
Sorry about AF Ali. WE have all been there so we know your pain. The good thing is there is always another month! That's what keeps us all going.
Grey Eyes- How are you?
Phil- I'm not sure if you saw my other post but I decided to wait 2 more months before trying the IUI. My FS is very supportive and sees no reason why we shouldn't get preggo on our own. I will give it 2 more cycles and then jump in with both feet if nothing happens.

 

[jm1355]

Hi all, just read some comments and it's nice to be able to laugh instead of always feeling deflated! Btw gonna try the white underwear approach lol

I should have done the white underwear with my white pants!! I'm still waiting!!! Bahahahahahaha!!!

And is there a joke in the use of the word "deflated"? Lol! My belly is looking pretty deflated right now!! This is the only time in life where an inflated belly is a welcome site!!!

Sorry...I must be in a really silly mood today!!
...Jess

 

[jm1355]

Good morning Ladies!! Welcome to all of the newbies!
Sorry about AF Ali. WE have all been there so we know your pain. The good thing is there is always another month! That's what keeps us all going.
Grey Eyes- How are you?
Phil- I'm not sure if you saw my other post but I decided to wait 2 more months before trying the IUI. My FS is very supportive and sees no reason why we shouldn't get preggo on our own. I will give it 2 more cycles and then jump in with both feet if nothing happens.

Marathongirl...what is the story behind your name? Do you run?