jm1355
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Hoped, MissusO, and Soberbird, hello and welcome to the board! We are happy to have you with us. The ladies here are very sweet, friendly, and knowledgeable.
I'm sorry I disappeared again for a few days. May's period has me concerned and confused because of all the health issues I've had along with it. Also, DH did something which really hurt and upset me. I haven't had a chance to talk it out with him yet, but he knows he is in the doghouse with me.
To top it all off, late Sunday night, the fan in my desktop computer failed. One of the Information Technology staff at the college, took it to work on for me. I just got it back Wednesday evening. He said that the fan was fine, so now I'm hoping the hard drive isn't getting ready to crash. Fan failure messages but no real fan failure is what happened when the original hard drive crashed 2 years ago. (I've had the computer since the middle of 2007.)
I hope to get a chance to post more tonight or tomorrow. Wanted to check in with everyone and say, "Hi!"
(My name is Shannon. )
Hello Shannon! Why has your May AF got you concerned and confused? Hope you get things straightened out with your dh. That can be one of the toughest challenges because dh's are our second half--when they do something to upset us it really really hurts
Grey Eyes,
All of us ladies know what it's like when you have been trying to conceive and you have any sudden change in your health which has been classified as a pregnancy symptom; you automatically start to get your hopes up that you might be pregnant. Even if you know in your heart that you just can't be, you want it to be true.
This last period was strange. I've had light periods with just brown blood or very little red blood, especially since I stopped taking the birth control pills my old RE so desperately wanted me to be on for PCOS. I've always had regular periods, but she wanted me to be on them, so I finally gave in. I stopped taking them in 2007.
This period though started with a couple of days of bad indigestion and lots of gas. I've been so exhausted that I really have had problems staying awake. I even lost my appetite and felt a little queasy. I was extra moody and my sense of smell seemed sharp. (Hubby can tell you that my sense of smell isn't very good.)
Right before I started I had very sore breasts and nipples. As I've mentioned before, it is rare for my breasts to hurt as part of PMS. They were also very full and heavy for a few days. Usually they are swollen for only a couple of days.
I started wondering if I might be experiencing implantation bleeding. I told myself it couldn't be because I started on time. I knew it was silly but that little bit of hope started rising in me. I feel like a fool because of it.
I knew I didn't have a chance this month since I never saw a positive result on the ovulation strips.
I wasn't able to get the Clearblue digital OPK after all. The price has gone up, but I'm watching to see if it will go down during the Memorial Day holiday.
I've never been a person who thinks about being sick. I've always gone to school or work when I'm sick. I have to be feeling really bad to be still. Trying to have a baby can make you feel like a hypochondriac - especially if you are having trouble getting pregnant. Every gurgle or slightly different action your body makes, leaves you dissecting what it could mean. If you try to discuss it with anyone who isn't going through the same struggle, that person just dismisses you as an hypochondriac.
I am thankful to have you ladies to talk with.
Hi Shannon,
You seem to have a little stress going on right now. I'm so sorry. I understand what you mean when you try to talk to someone about it. They truly don't understand unless they have or are currently going through the same thing. My sister-in-law has three beautiful boys with my brother and when every month she asks me if I PG yet, and when the answer is no, it's almost af if she looks at me wondering what is wrong with me...like I am some sort of disfunctional person...or less of a woman in some sort of way. She doesn't mean anything by it. She is a sweet person and I lover her dearly. But she just doesn't understand. She got PG the first time they tried each time!!
As far as the symptoms go...I am so with you on that too. I disect everything from gas (probably caused by Mexican food ) to getting nauseated in the ladies room at work (because it STINKS in there...not because I am PG). But everything waking moment I spend wondering if I will ever get PG. So then I want a glass of wine or even a shot of tequilla!! But I used to drink socially, but quit all together when I decided I wanted another baby.
I keep wondering what I am doing wrong. I love working out. I am a fitness competitor. So I even wonder if I am working out too much. But I taught aerobices through 8 months PG during my first preganancy fifteen years ago.
I try so hard to take good care of myself. But still no baby...
All this to say, I will listen and resopnd in a positive manner to you everytime because I completely understand what you are going through. I wish I could make this process easier for all of us in here who have yet to get our BFP.
But perhaps just being here to listen and respond will help in some small way. I know it helps me.
~~Jess