Wishing, wanting, waiting.....TTC for a year PLUS!

[Titi]

I seen you took hpts a few days ago, have you saved them that you can tilt and look at???

I also am trying not to get too excited for you yet until you give me the go ahead to go nuts!!!!!

Fingers Crossed for you Love!

Forgot to mention this. What do you mean tilt and look at? These are the weirdest hpts I've ever used-I got them at the dollar store and you can't pee on them, you have to collect pee with a little syringe add a few drops into a sample hole. Well I didn't know how much to drop in (no directions) and put too much. When I pulled it out of the trash the next day I almost burst with joy seeing a faint second line............then I realized it was a STAIN (you could clearly see a ring and discoloration) from too much pee overflowing out of the sample hole I swear the stupidist meanest stuff happens to me.
So back in the trash that one went.
When I tested with the next one I kept it out for a couple of hours and took it apart daring it to get even get a hint of the faintest second line. When it didn't I tossed that one too.

 

[tryforbaby2]

I have stalked your chart and it looks like you could have Ovulated CD16, the same day as your opk, which if you are "average" like me (with a lp of 14 days) then af would be due today.

I seen you took hpts a few days ago, have you saved them that you can tilt and look at???

I also am trying not to get too excited for you yet until you give me the go ahead to go nuts!!!!!

Fingers Crossed for you Love!

oh Thank you for stalking me.... I really need some feedback on this. It doesn't make sense to me....Do you think it was possible for me to have ov on cd16 with the spike so high that day? And also would my temp have gone up today if AF is going to show?

I was thinking maybe I didn't ov until cd17-the day after opk and also a temp dip. Which would put me due for af tomorrow which I suppose makes sense b/c my temp could drop down tomorrow. Although historically it drops for a few days before af. And that would have meant I ov'd even later!

in all my time ttc before Clomid I've always oved cd 11-13. The last two Clomid cycles I ov'd on cd14.

How are you hun?

Moon-sorry to hear about the trouble with your dp's children..........Glad he stuck up for you.....

When I look at your chart, your one day of watery cm and your temps, to me, suggest maybe an Ovulation of CD15. But your opk is only positive CD16 and neg CD17, which could most definitely suggest Ovulation CD17 at the latest (in my opinion).I am by far no expert, as I am new at it, but just by looking at your chart thats the idea's I have gotten.

I am good. Busy and anxiously waiting til I am able to test early! I have been praying for a Christmas BFP with a healthy, happy ending result!

I seen you took hpts a few days ago, have you saved them that you can tilt and look at???

I also am trying not to get too excited for you yet until you give me the go ahead to go nuts!!!!!

Fingers Crossed for you Love!

Forgot to mention this. What do you mean tilt and look at? These are the weirdest hpts I've ever used-I got them at the dollar store and you can't pee on them, you have to collect pee with a little syringe add a few drops into a sample hole. Well I didn't know how much to drop in (no directions) and put too much. When I pulled it out of the trash the next day I almost burst with joy seeing a faint second line............then I realized it was a STAIN (you could clearly see a ring and discoloration) from too much pee overflowing out of the sample hole I swear the stupidist meanest stuff happens to me.
So back in the trash that one went.
When I tested with the next one I kept it out for a couple of hours and took it apart daring it to get even get a hint of the faintest second line. When it didn't I tossed that one too.

I save my tests until af shows or doesnt. I always take hpt every cycle just because I am too anxious. When I got my bfp in May, the first hpt I took was CLEARLY a BFN. Even after several hours.....zilch, nada, nothing. Still I saved it until my cycle would have been up and continued to take one every day (dollar tree ones, just like you are describing----4 drops of pee thats it! hehe!). And the next day I looked at it while I waited for the new one I took to finish and I swore I seen a thin faint line (no thicker than one strand of hair)! I didnt get a clear pos for a few days before I was actually able to say I really had a bfp.

 

[SquirrelGirl]

Hi girls.........

I'm terrified to post this for fear its going to jinx me..........but I don't think I'm pg but I'm being toyed with soooooooooo badly by this cycle that I just need to get this out there for some support and extra love.
Witch didn't show yesterday (temp drop day) and hasn't come yet. No spotting either...and temp back UP. But some light cramping. I don't think I'm late-my chart was so goofy I think I just must have ovulated later than ever and am just not really due for af yet...but I've been up for two hours and all I've done is browsed charts on fertility friend. I don't want to make myself crazy for the next two days and get period-this one will be worse then ever.........but I can't distract myself.

Don't you hate it when your cycle messes with you like that??? Mines done it so frequently, I go insane!!!
Best thing is to get away from the computer and the FF Charts and do whatever you can to distract yourself, otherwise you zone in on the thinking "maybe" and it shatters your world even more if/when AF shows up.

I agree with Moon's advice. Not that I know how you can truly distract yourself, but............ just try to stay prepared for SRKM as best you can....... Then if it never shows, it'll be the best surprise ever! Oh, how I wish it wasn't messing with you like this! Either show up or give you a second line -- obviously we prefer the latter!

 

[Titi]

Tryfor-thanks for the insight. I agree with your exact sentiments about my chart. I will also have to start saving all my pee sticks-I did save the FRER from today... Not that I didn't go back and keep double checking so many times already! No hint at all of a 2nd line. I KNOW I'm not pg but it feels so good to almost know what it might be like : ( (but also feels sooooooooo bad when af shows)

praying for a sticky xmas bfp for you too!!!!! And everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Squirrel/Moon-I am the WORST at distracting myself when anything is going on. THE WORST. I just want to sit around and think about it.

 

[honeybee28]

Hello

thought I'd drop in and see how we all our? ahhhh titi, my fellow limbo land gal. Feeling for you.

for those of you that dont stalk me i thought id let you know Ive been spotting, and had an emergency scan, they put me at 5 weeks (when my dates said 7 weeks). had two hcg tests done and my levels increased only 30% in 48 hours. Got another scan next week to see if this is progressing, if not i may well be back TTC before the end of the year

xxxx

 

[Titi]

ohhh Honey-you can't even compare our limbo lands hun!!! I'm just mopey b/c the witch is around the corner when I don't want her to be.......it's not anywhere near the fright and restlesness you must be going through!!!! I'm so sorry. When you spoke with the Dr. did he say it's possible alls perfectly normal with those levels? I don't know anything about HSG!

 

[honeybee28]

It is comparable sweets, that feeling when the witch is just around the corner is unbareable.
only 15% of healthy pregnancies have levels that take this long to double. So it's really not looking good, but im trying to remain positive. At least it's 15% it could be 0%!!

anyway, i shouldnt really be posting about my probs in here. i think about you guys all the time, and cant wait for you to all have sticky babies.



xxx

 

[SquirrelGirl]

Honeybee!!....... You are welcome in here any time! You are one of us, so stop with that talk of how you shouldn't be posting in here. We are your friends and we want to be here for you just like you are here for us. You will be in my thoughts and if you need anything at all, you just let me know! I can try my damndest to distract you by any means possible!

 

[Titi]

I agree 100% with Squirrelly!!!!!!
Will be praying so much that you are one of the 15%-anything is possible!!!!

 

[tryforbaby2]

It is comparable sweets, that feeling when the witch is just around the corner is unbareable.
only 15% of healthy pregnancies have levels that take this long to double. So it's really not looking good, but im trying to remain positive. At least it's 15% it could be 0%!!

anyway, i shouldnt really be posting about my probs in here. i think about you guys all the time, and cant wait for you to all have sticky babies.



xxx

As I have been telling you all day my BNB bestie and my love.....I hope you are one of those lucky ladies and that you have nothing to worry about. Thinking of you since last night, I cant stop thinking about you and wondering how you are. Fingers crossed for you xXx

Tryfor-thanks for the insight. I agree with your exact sentiments about my chart. I will also have to start saving all my pee sticks-I did save the FRER from today... Not that I didn't go back and keep double checking so many times already! No hint at all of a 2nd line. I KNOW I'm not pg but it feels so good to almost know what it might be like : ( (but also feels sooooooooo bad when af shows)

praying for a sticky xmas bfp for you too!!!!! And everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Squirrel/Moon-I am the WORST at distracting myself when anything is going on. THE WORST. I just want to sit around and think about it.

I agree with Squirrel with being prepared for the SRKM just in case. It makes it so hard when we get too excited just to be let down. I really really really really would love for you to have your bfp. Would be lovely!

 

[tryforbaby2]

Oh yea, and honeybee.....please dont think YOU arent welcome here. You are very welcome here. You are one of us and have been for a very long time. I would love to hear your progress, hear from you once in awhile and would even love to see the newborn baby pictures!!!

 

[tryforbaby2]

I have gotten a bloody nose......is it odd I am excited about it?



The last time I had a bloody nose, and on both sides of my nose was when I first got pregnant.

Ugh.....I read too much into everything.

 

[Titi]

eh......spotting now.

 

[SquirrelGirl]

so sorry Titi!

 

[honeybee28]

awwwww titi im sorry. im gonna get that nasty kootch monster

xxx

 

[honeybee28]

thanks for your support guys, love you.xxxx

 

[soph77]

Oh no Emily
I am hoping against hope that everything will be ok for you. I want to give you a huge big hug right now. I hope that you know how much I want you to keep that precious baby of yours.

Please please please, don't break my friend Emily's heart!


And Titi, I am so sorry for you too hun
Why does this have to be so effing hard?
I am going to shed a few tears for both of you now.
Titi, I hope you get your christmas wish and Emily, I hope your bun is a sticky bun.

I love you both

 

[Ejay]

Honey - posted in your journal last night, sending you loads of huge

Titi - sorry hun, just wish that god damn witch would stay the hell away!!!!

Going to see our new puppy again this weekend, she will be comming home in a few weeks time, promise to post loads of cute puppy pics xx

 

[Titi]

Thanks girls for all the support. Can you believe that the witch has come on my BIRTHDAY??? That is surely an all time low-esp. after all the hype! I HATE HER!!!!

What do you think? I've already switched over my status to NTNP and have been (sad about it being 'over') but relieved for a break and to try and get our lives back. This was my 24th (I think-maybe more I've lost count) cycle ttc and third round of Clomid (5-9) after an HSG in Aug.

Was totally prepared to break for holidays and now I've seen that my dear ttc buddy RebaRezzelba has gotten a bfp after 3 years ltttc with no bfps ever..........(congrats again btw!!!!).....at, get this-FOURTH round Clomid. So, of course now I'm terrified that if I give up NEXT cycle would have been my month!

Of course.........that is the thing that sucks about leaving ttc-you are always going to worry that "next cycle would have been it"............

What should I do???? My doctor said if the Clomid didn't work this month nothing else she can do and no sense coming back....BUT she did give me a script for Femara in addition to my Clomid. She gave me both for last cycle b/c she said I could switch if I wanted to for the last month, but if it was too expensive I could just refill the Clomid. Well it was a lot more money so I just refilled the Clomid but now I have a script still for Femara.

What if, I just went ahead and filled the Femara and switched days 3-7? Like a renegade self fertility specialist?

and tried one more month????

has this last period letdown made me insane???????????????????????????????

 

[Titi]

Tryfor-fingers crossed for you! I know what you mean, about taking every sign so seriously -but your symptoms do sound good!!!!!!! I have a feeling too you are going to get a bfp around the holidays-hope it's true!!!!!

Honey-still praying for you. I love what Megg wrote in your journal that those statistics are only from women who've had blood done and so many don't get it at all and never know and have wonderful healthy pregnancies.

EJ-new puppies are the best cure to disapointing ttc! I "met" my baby Frenchie a year ago today and Thank God almost every day he put her in my life for this last 2nd year ttc.......