Wishing, wanting, waiting.....TTC for a year PLUS!

[Titi]

Lucie738210-
How did I not notice ever before that you are from SW Fl??? So am I???? do you mind if I ask where? We must be close!!!!! I'm in Cape Coral!!!! Jealous that you are having snow though for holiday-I haven't seen snow since 1996. : (

Titi I had no idea we were neighbors! I live in Lehigh Acres. I worked in Cape Coral my first year in Florida though.

As for the heat and humidity, my husband and I divide our summers between Michigan and Wisconsin, so we miss out on a lot of the hottest days. Hurricanes are a different story though. A little more than a month after I moved to Fl, I was in a house that took a direct hit from a Category 4 hurricane. Not fun! It was probably the scarriest moment of my life!

OMG!!! We really are neighbors!!!! I'm in Lehigh usually at least once a week for my work!!! That is so cool!!!!!!!!!!!! How did we not figure that out before, lol!!!!

I was here too during that hurricane season. DH and I and our only dog at the time were cowering under a mattress in our bathroom.......it was super scary too!!!

 

[Moondance]

I would have thought the bathroom would be the worst place to hide in a hurricane... too many heavy objects that if your house was torn to pieces, your body could be slammed into. Like toilets and bathtubs!

 

[Titi]

My chart is making me insane! I hate TTC!!!!!

 

[Moondance]

My chart is making me insane! I hate TTC!!!!!

You gotta link?
I'll show you mine if you show me yours, LOL

Mine is all over the place right now. I'm not even sure what exactly FF is going on to calculate when I ovulated. It keeps chopping and changing.
Wish I knew how it calculated the specific coverline. That bits got me beat.

 

[Titi]

hee hee. I just put my chart up......to get some feedback from you girls so I can stop driving myself crazy. There is NO way I'm pregnant after 2 stupid years trying with no bfps ever and two bfns already today and yesterday-but of course these temp rises when af is due today or tomorrow put that stupid spark of hope in me again........
I didn't chart for the first half of my cycle b/c I gave up charting eons ego-just wanted to see when the witch would be here for my last Clomid cycle so picked it up in my LP.

It does look like you may have Ov on cd19....I have been getting lousy sleep too this cycle. I'm not sure but I think the coverline is the average of your follicular phase temps-but I may be wrong.

 

[millybum]

Can I join the lucky thread ladies?

Come 15th December 2010, DH and I will have been TTC for 1 year.
I've only had 5 cycle's in the last 12 months. Cycles are ranging from 37 days to 84 days.
It's been hard for me to deal with this alone, but DH's work is so demanding.
Baby Dancing just simply hasn't been at the most optimum time for us to concieve.

Apart from last cycle ....
I ovulated 2 weeks before we went off on holiday. (lutea phase only 14 days)
When I got to my destination, I didn't even consider that witch hadn't arrived yet.
I didn't test for BFP/BFN, as it just didn't occur to me that it might be!
I hot-tubbed my way through the week, and on my last day of holiday, the witch arrived.

I've been beating myself up about this for the last 3 weeks.
DH says it obviously wasn't meant to be, and not to think I caused it, and said that as my cycles have been so irregular, maybe I didn't O when I thought I did.

DH is such an amazing guy.
We both work full-time, enjoy our holidays, and have made a wonderful home together.
A baby would just be amazing.
DH would make a wonderful father!

I'm now 30 years old and think if it doesn't happen soon, it'll never happen.
Both my elder sisters had at least 1 child before my age, and they just had to look at their partners to fall pregnant.

I pray DH and I can make our own little baby soon.
Our family would be complete! x

 

[SquirrelGirl]

Actually, the bathroom is the safest place to be. I think it's because of all the plumbing in the walls and because things are heavier/bathtub can help take the brunt of any flying debris. In a tornado, you should be in the lowest area of the house in an interior room with no windows. But I'm not sure about in a hurricane. With all the flooding, maybe it's not smart to be in a basement?

Lucie, which hurricane was it that damaged your house?

Hope everyone is doing well.

Titi.....

 

[Ejay]

Hiya Millybum, welcome, everyone here has been TTC for a year or more so your in good company.

Titi - I charted for a while but it drove me crazy too, my temps never drop properly till the day AF hits, and sometimes it showed a rise just before. I do have my fingers crossed that this might be it for you, but I know how hard we all try not to get our hopes up only to have the shattered when she arrives. xx

Moon - Hows your horse? I finally got out for a ride on Molly today for the first time since her accident, she had a huge smile on her face, one happy pony.

Hiya bbdreams glad your managing to hold things together right now, I hate the waiting for AF to arrive.

Well as for me, on to the next cycle, the witch actually arrived a day or two early, the cow! doing ok though.

Hope everyone is doing good x

 

[tryforbaby2]

Hey girlies!!!! Dont have time to read because company is still here, but wanted you all to know I love you all and miss you and will catch up soon!!!

 

[Moondance]

OMG, last night, I found out why my DP was hiding me from his kids from the previous relationship...
They're all grown up, late teens to early twenties.

His daughter went to his house yesterday morning and somehow last night figured out that he has a new partner, being me. She lost the plot, screamed at him, got all upset and said she never wants to speak to him again. Said she was leaving first thing this morning. SHe was so totally hoping he'd get back with her mother, that finding out he's found someone new has gutted her.
I felt so bad that his daughter yelled at him like that because of me, that I texted him saying "I understand if things have to be different with us now, because I know you love your kids and you shouldn't be fighting with them because of me"
He said I was too sweet and said "s**t happens, I've got my life, they have theirs. No other way to look at it"
I think he is upset by it though. But after they had the argument, he couldn't sleep until he spoke to me, which was sweet.

 

[Lucie73821]

Lucie, which hurricane was it that damaged your house?

Hope everyone is doing well.

Titi.....

It was hurricane Charley. I left Fort Myers and went to my Aunt and Uncle's house in Port Charlotte, which is where Charley ended up making landfall.

 

[Moondance]

I'm finding it so difficult to be optimistic about getting pregnant at the moment. It's hard every single cycle for me to actually care anymore about any of it.

 

[bbdreams]

Hello everyone! DH is working late tonight, so I am sitting here @ 1:00 am bored out of my mind... thought I would catch up and do some reading on the post.

I'm finding it so difficult to be optimistic about getting pregnant at the moment. It's hard every single cycle for me to actually care anymore about any of it.

I am right there with ya Moondance. I don't have any optimism anymore no matter how much I try to convince myself its all for the best... I know I am just lying to myself. I didn't even try this cycle... I just didn't have it in me. I only bd 2 or 3 times and I have no clue if it was around "o" which since af is not here yet I assume I did bd around the correct time, but I thought it would be easier this month if I knew I couldn't be pregnant, but it isn't. I still have that hope in the back of my mind that I have been blessed with a miracle. I know that God is fully capable of performing a miracle, but I also realize that God knows better than I do what is best for me.

Hey girlies!!!! Dont have time to read because company is still here, but wanted you all to know I love you all and miss you and will catch up soon!!!

I hope everything is going well with your company tryfor.


I hope everyone else is doing well and making some babies.

 

[SquirrelGirl]

I'm finding it so difficult to be optimistic about getting pregnant at the moment. It's hard every single cycle for me to actually care anymore about any of it.

YUP! Right there with you too! I think at some point the thrill of TTC makes way for dread and dispair every single month. It is so unfair that we are all going through this. Not fair at all.

 

[SquirrelGirl]

Lucie, which hurricane was it that damaged your house?

Hope everyone is doing well.

Titi.....

It was hurricane Charley. I left Fort Myers and went to my Aunt and Uncle's house in Port Charlotte, which is where Charley ended up making landfall.

Yikes!! That would be super scary. Glad you made it through ok!!!

 

[Moondance]

Moon - Hows your horse? I finally got out for a ride on Molly today for the first time since her accident, she had a huge smile on her face, one happy pony.

My boy at the moment is having his diet worked out, as to what is best for him. He was moved to a different facility where his paddock was full of clover, and he spent the first 2 weeks being demented. Now I'm trying to work out what feed is good for keeping on his weight, but not fizzing him out.
I want to start riding him, as I've only done it the once, but all too often, he's just in a stupid mood and wants to play silly blighters. Because I'm not the greatest rider, when he gets like that, nobody there will let me on him, as I'm more than likely to come off and get broken.
He needs to have his diet and then some work, to start calming down before I can start riding him.

He does love being ridden, but when he's being such a dopey thing, safer for everyone to just work him in the round yard and deal with it.

 

[Titi]

Hi girls.........

I'm terrified to post this for fear its going to jinx me..........but I don't think I'm pg but I'm being toyed with soooooooooo badly by this cycle that I just need to get this out there for some support and extra love.
Witch didn't show yesterday (temp drop day) and hasn't come yet. No spotting either...and temp back UP. But some light cramping. I don't think I'm late-my chart was so goofy I think I just must have ovulated later than ever and am just not really due for af yet...but I've been up for two hours and all I've done is browsed charts on fertility friend. I don't want to make myself crazy for the next two days and get period-this one will be worse then ever.........but I can't distract myself.

 

[tryforbaby2]

OMG, last night, I found out why my DP was hiding me from his kids from the previous relationship...
They're all grown up, late teens to early twenties.

His daughter went to his house yesterday morning and somehow last night figured out that he has a new partner, being me. She lost the plot, screamed at him, got all upset and said she never wants to speak to him again. Said she was leaving first thing this morning. SHe was so totally hoping he'd get back with her mother, that finding out he's found someone new has gutted her.
I felt so bad that his daughter yelled at him like that because of me, that I texted him saying "I understand if things have to be different with us now, because I know you love your kids and you shouldn't be fighting with them because of me"
He said I was too sweet and said "s**t happens, I've got my life, they have theirs. No other way to look at it"
I think he is upset by it though. But after they had the argument, he couldn't sleep until he spoke to me, which was sweet.

Awww Moon love, that totally sucks. Some daughters are very protective over their daddies, no matter what the age.
And yes, he is so right. They are living their own lives, why should he stop living his?......What he said to you was soooo sweet and I am very happy your relationship is finally out in the open with his kids and that maybe everything else will fall into place for you.

Hi girls.........

I'm terrified to post this for fear its going to jinx me..........but I don't think I'm pg but I'm being toyed with soooooooooo badly by this cycle that I just need to get this out there for some support and extra love.
Witch didn't show yesterday (temp drop day) and hasn't come yet. No spotting either...and temp back UP. But some light cramping. I don't think I'm late-my chart was so goofy I think I just must have ovulated later than ever and am just not really due for af yet...but I've been up for two hours and all I've done is browsed charts on fertility friend. I don't want to make myself crazy for the next two days and get period-this one will be worse then ever.........but I can't distract myself.

I have stalked your chart and it looks like you could have Ovulated CD16, the same day as your opk, which if you are "average" like me (with a lp of 14 days) then af would be due today.

I seen you took hpts a few days ago, have you saved them that you can tilt and look at???

I also am trying not to get too excited for you yet until you give me the go ahead to go nuts!!!!!

Fingers Crossed for you Love!

 

[Moondance]

Hi girls.........

I'm terrified to post this for fear its going to jinx me..........but I don't think I'm pg but I'm being toyed with soooooooooo badly by this cycle that I just need to get this out there for some support and extra love.
Witch didn't show yesterday (temp drop day) and hasn't come yet. No spotting either...and temp back UP. But some light cramping. I don't think I'm late-my chart was so goofy I think I just must have ovulated later than ever and am just not really due for af yet...but I've been up for two hours and all I've done is browsed charts on fertility friend. I don't want to make myself crazy for the next two days and get period-this one will be worse then ever.........but I can't distract myself.

Don't you hate it when your cycle messes with you like that??? Mines done it so frequently, I go insane!!!
Best thing is to get away from the computer and the FF Charts and do whatever you can to distract yourself, otherwise you zone in on the thinking "maybe" and it shatters your world even more if/when AF shows up.

 

[Titi]

I have stalked your chart and it looks like you could have Ovulated CD16, the same day as your opk, which if you are "average" like me (with a lp of 14 days) then af would be due today.

I seen you took hpts a few days ago, have you saved them that you can tilt and look at???

I also am trying not to get too excited for you yet until you give me the go ahead to go nuts!!!!!

Fingers Crossed for you Love!

oh Thank you for stalking me.... I really need some feedback on this. It doesn't make sense to me....Do you think it was possible for me to have ov on cd16 with the spike so high that day? And also would my temp have gone up today if AF is going to show?

I was thinking maybe I didn't ov until cd17-the day after opk and also a temp dip. Which would put me due for af tomorrow which I suppose makes sense b/c my temp could drop down tomorrow. Although historically it drops for a few days before af. And that would have meant I ov'd even later!

in all my time ttc before Clomid I've always oved cd 11-13. The last two Clomid cycles I ov'd on cd14.

How are you hun?

Moon-sorry to hear about the trouble with your dp's children..........Glad he stuck up for you.....