Wishing, wanting, waiting.....TTC for a year PLUS!

forgot to say, looks like I am out again this month, having had no spotting yet this cycle, I now have a bit today. have been really grumpy too. January brings our next visit to the doctors and hopefully finally our referal to a FS or at least some more tests

awwww Ejay hun-we can console each other.......I got a bfn today. This is the SECOND xmas I've had to endure a bfn right before the holidays. I don't think it's EVER going to happen to me!!!!
I hate it when I know witch is showing and everyone says........well, you know what they say-so I won't say it to you, but still fx'd.
 
Well, like I replied above-I'm pretty sure I'm out. I know, I know, a bfn at 10dpo isn't always a certainty that you are not pg, but I've been doing this for two years now and don't see why this cycle should be any different. I don't have any symptoms either. I wasn't even sad to tell you the truth when I saw the bfn b/c at this point I DON"T EVER EXPECT IT TO BE BFP!!! How sad is that? Maybe it's just b/c its early, or b/c af hasn't showed I'm just deluding myself.........or I just am totally used to it by now.
So, out of meds and on to our NTNP break. I THINK the plan involves making some phone calls and going to some adoption orientations but will probably give IUI a few tries in 6 or so months before officially commiting to adoption, not sure just know we both REALLY need a break from this insanity moving into year 3 next month.

Jill-I TOTALLY want to write a ttc book! We will have to collaborate/co-author!

I'm glad my ttc scenerio got some laughs......and some of you can relate even though it's pitiful. You made me laugh outloud. I can so relate to the "how to tell dh" thing..and planning in your head. Last year he put an extra stocking up for "our bean" and I longed and fantasized day in and day out about putting a + HPT in that stocking...........it was so perfect I couldn't believe when I got a bfn........and now I've gotten another bfn a NOTHER year with a new little stocking for bean.

I also REALLY relate to your adoption thoughts-we'll have to pm on it........I can shake the thought lately that I won't get pg or can't get pg until I adopt. It's ridiculous karma weirdness, but I still can't get that out of my head. And I agree-if I was even to somehow miraculously get pg now, I'd feel like I still "owed" it to adopt someone.

Jules-miss you but hope you are having a good holiday and your family doesn't get too crazy on you!!!!

Soph-What are they talking about?????Are you PG???? Where are you??????????? TEST and get back to us LOL!!!
 
Hi ladies! I've been keeping up with you, just not had time to post. I hope everyone is doing well. Dh and I are at his parent's house in Wisconsin, and I'm freezing! I am waiting to O, which I think I am scheduled to on new year's eve. I have made my annual appt. for the end of Feb. Dh will have his follow up SA before then. Depending on the results, I may ask my dr for more clomid, or I may ask for a referral to a FS.
 
Wow Lucie-What a change in temps! I BET you are freezing!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT-it must be nice to have a "proper" holiday with snow!!! When are you getting back in town? It went up to high 70's today but is chilly again now tonight.
 
Titi- we are in Wisconsin until Christmas day, then we are driving to my dad's house (near Detroit). We are driving back to Florida on the 30th.
 
Driving?!?!?!? yikes! And I thought my travels were going to be long! Going from IL to SD to MO back to IL from Friday through next Sunday (1/2).

Hey, Jill!! My furbaby is doing well. He's getting seriously spoiled by both my OH and I. Think we're both treating him more like a real child lately...... :shrug:

:hugs: to Ejay and Titi, and anyone else expecting the witch shortly... :cry:
 
We drove up from Fl last Friday. We left around 6pm and drove to Toledo to drop off 3 friends. Then we drove to dh's parent's house. Total travel time was about 26 hours. We usually drive straight up each summer too. I wish we'd stay in a hotel and make the trip take 2 days, but dh would rather drive straight through.
 
oh Em-I'm glad you mentioned you'll still be on FB-I will miss you too much a whole cycle or more!!! oh no-just finished this sentence and saw you may be taking a break Jules! hope we can still keep up on fb/email, etc.

I don't blame anyone for wanting a break. I take them here and there and sometimes plan on never coming back but I just can't-I miss everyone too much. But I did tell dh today that I hate pregnancy tickers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jules-I agree about foster care. It's not for me..with not even getting my own baby or child, how could I then form attachments to other children just to give them up????? How much pain am I supposed to endure???
I am anxious to hear about your conversation though as I've not yet taken the next step to talking to anyone.

As for whether you should stop ttc-I remember reading in a thread that in order to adopt some agencies require you are not ttc b/c so many people start adoption process-get a child hopeful and then conceive miraculously on their own and then don't want to adopt anymore. I don't remember though if that was here or overseas.

If I had chosen a child no way would I back out just if I was blessed with our own baby! Sometimes I get a feeling like we aren't meant to have our own baby until we save someone else's-crazy but true.

I guess I'll be in the category of NTNP once we are adopting-only b/c if this cycle isn't sucessful-which at 9dpo it's not feeling like it is-we HAVE to give it up and turn it over.

:hugs:

You are thinking exactly the way about it as I am. No matter what I also feel as if I need to adopt, no matter what. Even though I want my own children that looks like us and are us, there are children out there that are not as fortunate as our natural children are/will be. I told the adoption lady all that we do, the places we go and that we want more children to share these experiences with. I am hoping to have a child by fall next year.....we are going to Disney World!!!!
I always say I need a break, but I only stay away for a bit, but I wouod like to break from it all!!! FB is loaded with pregnancies and annoucements lately!!! I have family here until later today so maybe later or tomorrow I send you the conversation.....pretty boring really and lots of tears from me....:cry:
oh my gosh titi!!! You are hysterical!!! ahahahaha :rofl:

You DID put a smile on my face!!!!

Honeybee, enjoy your break and come back with a bfp!!!!

ha ha then it's worth it....I'm so jealous of washing machine ttc! we only have good "ttc" the first night of the cycle.....then it drastically goes downhill from there!!!

Honey-Lots of love, will miss you on here but will keep in touch other ways!!!!!:hugs::hugs:
That kind of hot steamy :sex: doesnt happen often!!! We only dtd 3 times up to and during my fertile period....same as usual....blah.....I am only 3dpo and I feel out already....

First of all.... You can turn off viewing siggys if you want! It's a setting somewhere in your UserCP page. Maybe that will make it easier for those that don't like the preggo tickers and such?

second.... WTF to a bunch of spotting today on CD16. If I've already O'd there's zero chance for me this cycle. Wanna know why? Well, I jumped on OH last night and he was literally like trying to avoid me. Turns out he had "helped himself" in the shower earlier!! I was soooooo pissed I nearly cried. I asked him why he did that when he knows he shouldn't be doing that any time other than during my period. He said "I dunno but you usually don't want to do it on Mondays". WTF!


STUPID MEN! I tell you what.

Oooh that mademe mad for you!!!! Thats the stuff that ticks me off!!!
I sent DH a text message yesterday of the 'package' ZI got in the mail yesterday.....A 2 pack of formula for baby.... :( I said "another sad reminder" and he said "its ok" and I said "you runined it this cycle,my last cycle before my due date".....he then didnt reply.
He really ticked me off but I caved and gave in and dtd last night.....sneaky bd since his parents are here.

Oh my, so much to reply to. I'll start with the fun stuff, first.

Shoes. I have an obsession with them. Not really shoes in particular, but boots. I hate when my feet are cold in winter and have been doing some serious boot investing over the past couple of years. I don't just want my feet to be cute, but I want them to be comfortable. Which means, I've spent a lot of $ on high quality shoes. I'm a Zappos addict. If you haven't checked them out, try it. They usually ship overnight (and for free). La Cannadienne are my absolute favorite brand. They are not only cute and warm, but waterproof! I'm actually thinking about selling my Uggs at the consignment shop, though. They are so warm and comfy, but mine have laces on the sides that make them very hard to get on and off. It takes me 10 minutes to put them on, and then my hubby usually needs to pull them off. So, I was looking for some slip on Uggs, but have been spending so much money lately on shoes that I picked up a pair of Bear Paws, instead. They are basically Ugg knock-offs, but still warm and cozy with the shearling lining and got good reviews.

Last time I signed on I was telling you how I thought I was PG and had a plan to tell DH. Well, my plan involved shoes. We got into a fight recently because I went out to get some winter boots (the Bear Paws) and came home w/ 3 pairs of shoes. They were buy one get one half off and the others were on clearance, so I didn't spend a lot, but DH just saw 3 pairs instead of 1 and was like WTF? He is very frugal, and I'm not. Anyway, I thought I was pg, so after the big fight the plan was, I was going to tell him I just had to get one more pair of shoes and then show him the bag and inside would be a pair of baby shoes. That was the plan, but sadly I had nothing to announce. In my crying fit I told DH I thought I was pg and even had a way to announce it, but didn't tell him what it was, so maybe will still get to use it someday.:haha:

Wow, I'm randomly blabbing and haven't even gotten to my replies, yet...saw the Ugg convo and got all excited.

Regarding adoption, my OB actually said she had a friend who was having trouble TTC and had a baby ready to adopt when she got PG and then decided not to take the baby. :growlmad: So, I guess that does happen a lot. I would still take the baby, though. I don't know if it's just that we've been having a hard time TTC, but I feel like maybe we're meant to adopt? I would like to be pregnant at least once, but I feel like we're going to adopt, either way. Not right now (I'm not ready to go through the process), but in a year or two if no baby of our own, and in our 40's when we're all settled in, I'd like to adopt at least 1 or 2 more. I don't know why I have that feeling. Is it weird?

Titi, you seriously crack me up!!!!!!!!!!! Someday I want to write a book about TTC...except I think I need to hire you for input. It's almost like you were looking in on my day/sad bedroom experience. :haha: Seriously, that totally cheered me up. Love the stories about your furbaby, too!

Squirrel, we've all been there, but the "you usually don't want to on Mondays" kind of made me laugh. :haha: I second the being thankful for what we DO have! Love it. Also, how is furbaby Jack?

Ejay That is the cutest little puppy ever!!

Lucky Merry x-mas to you, too! I was just thinking about you the other day...I can't believe you're so far along already! I was thinking "maybe some of LuckyD's luck will rub off on me in 2011?"

Tryfor - Thank you for your words of encouragement. :friends: Also, just have to echo the others that I'm so envious of the washing machine BD! My personal favorite is couch BDing with me on top. :blush:

Honey - I'll try to be on here more. It's been harder with my new job to sneak on BnB while I'm working at home and that's when I always got my best BnB time in (or when I'm procrastinating from my thesis, which I haven't worked on in a while). I met DH at the casino! Well, I was there with a friend for her b-day and he met up with us for a little while because he was friends with her then BF (who is now her husband).

The story of how we met: Kind of a random story how I met DH, actually. I guess I'll give the long version. So, I had recently moved back home and got a new job. Most of my friends had moved away, and the one that was left I stupidly started dating. Except, it turned out to be the best thing ever. I was thinking about our relationship one night and got this feeling like "there is someone else meant for me." So, I made a list of the perfect guy I was thinking of (his attributes and such...not really appearance, but personality) and broke up with my BF. The next weekend, it was my coworker's b-day. We had been friendly at work, but I still didn't know her all that well. Randomly at a work event I asked what she was up to that weekend and she said that it was her b-day and she was celebrating at the casino, then she asked what I was doing (probably just to be polite). My reply went something like "well, I just broke up with my BF, and my friends all moved away, so...nothing." Sounds like a sob story, but I was joking when I said it. :haha: Her reply was, "why don't you come to the casino with me?" And that is the night I met Joe. We didn't talk much that first night (we met up with him for a total of 5 minutes), but just had a feeling. When I saw him the next night, I pretty much knew he was the guy from my list, even though I didn't want to get my hopes up. Now, the coworker and I are very good friends and she and her husband were in our wedding, and Joe and I were in theirs. The end. :haha:

Love the story!!! :cloud9:

I really love the boots he got me! Where do you find those boots that are your favorite????
Hope you are well!!!

P.S. I also love couch bd with me on top!!! For me its real quickl that way! hehe!
 
I am analyzing sophs FF chart, she has not posted anything in there in a long time!!!....It looks as if she had some spotting 7DPO!!!!

SOPH???!!!
 
:hi: honeybee!

:hi: Lucie!

Ejay and Titi, huge hugs from me to you, but my fingers are also crossed!!!
 
Yeah-Soph's camping so I doubt she's updating fertility friend,. lol....what am I talking about I have actually brought along opks and my fertility monitor on vacations!!! But she might not have internet.

SG-I don't know if I remembered to comment on hour dh's "Monday" comment. It cracked me up so much-I'm sorry he DTD by himself :rofl: but that is sooooooooooo something that my hubby would say to me!!! Sometimes my dh says "well, you didn't seem like you wanted to".....it's like REALLY? You REALLY thought after over 24 cycles of going through this together that I would EVER want to miss a chance to snag that egg!!!!!!!????????? I hope you have safe and enjoyable travels.

Tryfor-I know you are busy with holidays and family-I can be patient on the conversation. I would probably still like to give IUI a chance at some point before officially adopting but would probably like to start the adoption process anyways-I know that the homestudy and all that costs money!
 
Yeah-Soph's camping so I doubt she's updating fertility friend,. lol....what am I talking about I have actually brought along opks and my fertility monitor on vacations!!! But she might not have internet.

SG-I don't know if I remembered to comment on hour dh's "Monday" comment. It cracked me up so much-I'm sorry he DTD by himself :rofl: but that is sooooooooooo something that my hubby would say to me!!! Sometimes my dh says "well, you didn't seem like you wanted to".....it's like REALLY? You REALLY thought after over 24 cycles of going through this together that I would EVER want to miss a chance to snag that egg!!!!!!!????????? I hope you have safe and enjoyable travels.

Tryfor-I know you are busy with holidays and family-I can be patient on the conversation. I would probably still like to give IUI a chance at some point before officially adopting but would probably like to start the adoption process anyways-I know that the homestudy and all that costs money!

I wonder how long she is going to be gone for??? I really hope af didnt visit her! I have to admit I would like to try a few rounds of IUI/Clomid and have my hsg done first to at least say I tried, but like I said my church gave me a hard time,BUT there are other women inmy church who have done it....so I dont know?.....:shrug:
The lady at the adoption place said it can take up to 2 years to get a child with foster to adoption, but wasnt very clear on just straight adoption. You also cant browse and pick your kid either. You give a broad range of what you aqre willing to take or deal with and they pick one for you. I kindof dont like that idea.....but I guess beggers cant be chooser's huh?.....It starts with and information meeting then they schedule you for training. Every six weeks they do training. They have a fee free adoption topic but I am wondering what that is about. Wont know too much more until the information meeting. I am being picky, I can't help it.
So how are you on your cycle???
 
Yeah Jules I know for sure IVF is out for us with church-they don't like the idea of discarded of frosty embies since life begins at conception they say that's people on ice, etc. but so far as I know they are undecided on IUI. I'm just praying now, all I can do.

Our state has a website where all the foster children can be viewed-photos and basic info. It is my understanding that once you have met the requirements you can "pick" a child. I really don't think I could take a child into my home without having some say over which one we were getting if they were older. If they were an infant or toddler, it would be different-but most the children in our system are about 8 years old.....they could have some serious issues! I think it takes about 8-9 months if you hall ass through the orientations, background check, homestudy etc. I dunno it's all crazy overwhelming to me. It's also frusterating because it's like no matter HOW I'm meant to get a child its obviously going to be such an ordeal compared to how 99% of the women of the world have one!!!!

Cyclewise I am 11dpo-waiting on the SRKM.

DH is in the kitchen right now NAKID in a cupcake print apron singing xmas songs and baking a Croquembuch (sp?)-a tall cream puff xmas cake tree shaped dessert......maybe it's time to move on from the ttc babymaking...............
 
oh my goodness, Titi!!!! lmao at your hubby making a dessert while naked and in an apron! LOL!!! You should totally do it on the kitchen floor..... or the counter.... or where ever, I guess!

Bow chicka Bow Wow!!!!
 
ha! SG!!! The things we share huh? I went in the kitchen and told dh I had told the girls he was in the kitchen singing.......and naked in my apron! He looked horrified for a moment and then just laughed. I'm at least so lucky he knows that the ttc girls are special and there is nothing sacred with us!!!!
 
oh, i'm sure my hubby would be upset if he knew I'd told you all about him DTD in the shower! :shrug: Oh well, what he doesn't know won't hurt him! :haha:
 
ha ha! My DH would KILL me if I told "other" people these things........but it's like he has a connection to my ttc girls in a way b/c he knows how much you all have helped me.......he just goes with it now!!!!
 
Ok I'm back!!

First, let me just quickly let you all down, the witch got me on wednesday while camping. Bitch.

Had an awesome camping trip. The island was amazing and it was turtle nesting season so every night there were up to 200 turtles coming ashore to lay their eggs. There was a group of turtle researchers also camping on the island and we went out with them on two nights and they taught us all about the turtles and we got to watch them dig and lay their eggs and touch the turtles and hold some eggs. It was truly an amazing experience i will never forget. We even had turtles trying to come into our tent and dig a hole! The snorkeling was amazing. Everything was great except on our last day the weather was really bad. There is no communication on the island or phone reception or anything but the turtle researchers had a radio. they contacted the boat and got a weather forecast which said the boat was going to come an pick us up. We packed up all of our stuff and lugged it to the other side of the island in the pissing down rain, sat their waiting for the boat for 3 hours and then got word through the researchers that the boat left in the morning but hit a storm cell and they had to turn back. So we got stranded for an extra night with no food and water and had to lug our stuff back and put the bloody tent back up. The researchers gave us water and we ate noodles. The next day was beautiful and the boat came.
Just made it home today on Xmas eve and am trying to clean up the mess! Kids have just gone to bed and now I have to wrap all the pressies. My mil got released from hospital again today after her shoulder reconstruction and she has came to stay with us again. I feel like I need a holiday to get over my holiday!

One thing has happened that has really upset me is this: When Jai's mother came and dropped him off 2 weeks ago I thought that she looked a bit pg but wasn't sure and didn't say anything. Today she came over to take Jai out for some shopping and she totally looked pg. I even had a friend here and she saw it too. I told Dave and he noticed when she dropped him back off. That really really hurts. We do everything right: get married, wait, try and try and try and she has a revolving door for men and gets pregnant. Either that or fat! So it got a bit upset and Dave says 'well I guess it has come to the end of the year, must be time to spunk in a cup.' I was so happy that he remembered he promised that and I dont have to bring the subject back up.

I've missed you all, but am typing this so fast because i need to wrap gifts and get to bed. Have a killer headache and am SOOOOOOO TIRED!!!

Love you all so much!!~~!!!! Tomorrow is Christmas, I hope you all have a wonderful day filled with love and kisses xoxoxoxox
 
Yeah Jules I know for sure IVF is out for us with church-they don't like the idea of discarded of frosty embies since life begins at conception they say that's people on ice, etc. but so far as I know they are undecided on IUI. I'm just praying now, all I can do.

Our state has a website where all the foster children can be viewed-photos and basic info. It is my understanding that once you have met the requirements you can "pick" a child. I really don't think I could take a child into my home without having some say over which one we were getting if they were older. If they were an infant or toddler, it would be different-but most the children in our system are about 8 years old.....they could have some serious issues! I think it takes about 8-9 months if you hall ass through the orientations, background check, homestudy etc. I dunno it's all crazy overwhelming to me. It's also frusterating because it's like no matter HOW I'm meant to get a child its obviously going to be such an ordeal compared to how 99% of the women of the world have one!!!!

Cyclewise I am 11dpo-waiting on the SRKM.

DH is in the kitchen right now NAKID in a cupcake print apron singing xmas songs and baking a Croquembuch (sp?)-a tall cream puff xmas cake tree shaped dessert......maybe it's time to move on from the ttc babymaking...............

Sounds like its different for different people in our "R" if you ask me. It must just be the opinion of others. :shrug:
I was looking forward to actually seeing the children and kind of being choosey and picking one based on our needs and their background. I feel totally selfish doing that but if I cant have any say I think I will stay a mom to one and a pet owner! :lol:

I so cant believe your hubby is baking naked! Love it! Now thats when I would be pouncing on my DH!

I hate even saying this because I do hate hearing this myself, HOWEVER, TITI, you will be a mom one day. I dont know if it will be your very own or adopted or both or a dozen of kids but you will be a mom one day, and a great one at that.

The waiting process sucks, but it will be meant to be for us someday. Hopefully someday soon.

I dont see too much wrong in going to a doctor, there is more people out there that do it but are not as open as we are about it.

xoxo

ha ha! My DH would KILL me if I told "other" people these things........but it's like he has a connection to my ttc girls in a way b/c he knows how much you all have helped me.......he just goes with it now!!!!

Thats awesome! :winkwink:

Ok I'm back!!

First, let me just quickly let you all down, the witch got me on wednesday while camping. Bitch.

Had an awesome camping trip. The island was amazing and it was turtle nesting season so every night there were up to 200 turtles coming ashore to lay their eggs. There was a group of turtle researchers also camping on the island and we went out with them on two nights and they taught us all about the turtles and we got to watch them dig and lay their eggs and touch the turtles and hold some eggs. It was truly an amazing experience i will never forget. We even had turtles trying to come into our tent and dig a hole! The snorkeling was amazing. Everything was great except on our last day the weather was really bad. There is no communication on the island or phone reception or anything but the turtle researchers had a radio. they contacted the boat and got a weather forecast which said the boat was going to come an pick us up. We packed up all of our stuff and lugged it to the other side of the island in the pissing down rain, sat their waiting for the boat for 3 hours and then got word through the researchers that the boat left in the morning but hit a storm cell and they had to turn back. So we got stranded for an extra night with no food and water and had to lug our stuff back and put the bloody tent back up. The researchers gave us water and we ate noodles. The next day was beautiful and the boat came.
Just made it home today on Xmas eve and am trying to clean up the mess! Kids have just gone to bed and now I have to wrap all the pressies. My mil got released from hospital again today after her shoulder reconstruction and she has came to stay with us again. I feel like I need a holiday to get over my holiday!

One thing has happened that has really upset me is this: When Jai's mother came and dropped him off 2 weeks ago I thought that she looked a bit pg but wasn't sure and didn't say anything. Today she came over to take Jai out for some shopping and she totally looked pg. I even had a friend here and she saw it too. I told Dave and he noticed when she dropped him back off. That really really hurts. We do everything right: get married, wait, try and try and try and she has a revolving door for men and gets pregnant. Either that or fat! So it got a bit upset and Dave says 'well I guess it has come to the end of the year, must be time to spunk in a cup.' I was so happy that he remembered he promised that and I dont have to bring the subject back up.

I've missed you all, but am typing this so fast because i need to wrap gifts and get to bed. Have a killer headache and am SOOOOOOO TIRED!!!

Love you all so much!!~~!!!! Tomorrow is Christmas, I hope you all have a wonderful day filled with love and kisses xoxoxoxox

Oh Fudge Soph! I was so excited for you too! :(
I am glad your trip was amazing! Andsorry about the bad weather and no food or water but thank Goodness for the researchers!!!!!

Grrr.....I hope for your sake she is NOT pregnant. That would totally kill my spirit too. Lets just hope is fat from the holidays! :winkwink:

:hugs:

Missed you girlfriend!
 

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