Wishing, wanting, waiting.....TTC for a year PLUS!

[tryforbaby2]

Lucie!!!!!


Hope you are well!

 

[tryforbaby2]

Today is so frickin hard for me. I was on the phone paying on my miscarriage bills and my brother in law called during the mc call to say my neice was born 7lbs 7 oz 19" long.......I said congratulations I'll call soon but I am on the other line paying on my miscarriage bills......how rude was I?! Totally rude.
I clicked over to the hospital where I had my mc and my d&c and contined to make a payment. I told the guy sorry for clicking over but my sister just had her baby, we were due together.....he said 'congratulations' I said 'thank you' finished the payment and got off the phone and just started crying my eyes out......so not fair....she didnt want it I wanted mine......my baby would be due......

I just feel like shit

 

[Ejay]

Tryfor - sending you all my love, I can't imagine how hard it is for you xx

Soph - That is so shit about your ex

Group Hug all round for everyone xx

 

[tryforbaby2]

Thanks Ejay! I needed that big hug!

 

[soph77]

Oh Julia my heart is really going out to you right now
Life deals us some pretty f*cked up blows sometimes and I totally get the it's not fair feeling, but your chain of events wit the phone calls today seems particularly unfair and to top it all of the witch came. I am so sorry

AFM, I got crosshairs today so am 3dpo. I am soooooooooooo hoping this is our month. We have really put in an effort this cycle. I keep asking Dave what has gotten into him, he is so horny, but I think he just really doesn't want to spunk in a cup so he is trying really hard to knock me up. I also think that after my getting upset over his ex he realises a bit more how hard this is for me. Anyway we were not going to bd last night because we both said we needed a break and the window was closed but we did it again!!! It's like we just started dating again, I like it!

 

[soph77]

Oh crap and now it seems like I am getting thrush again!

 

[soph77]

Actually on second thought, it is my uti flaring back up again back to the doctor. I guess I will just have to have a break from all the hot sex


UPDATE: this is bad, 15mins til I can leave for the dr and I am in paaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stupid uti

 

[tryforbaby2]

Oh Julia my heart is really going out to you right now
Life deals us some pretty f*cked up blows sometimes and I totally get the it's not fair feeling, but your chain of events wit the phone calls today seems particularly unfair and to top it all of the witch came. I am so sorry

AFM, I got crosshairs today so am 3dpo. I am soooooooooooo hoping this is our month. We have really put in an effort this cycle. I keep asking Dave what has gotten into him, he is so horny, but I think he just really doesn't want to spunk in a cup so he is trying really hard to knock me up. I also think that after my getting upset over his ex he realises a bit more how hard this is for me. Anyway we were not going to bd last night because we both said we needed a break and the window was closed but we did it again!!! It's like we just started dating again, I like it!

Oh Crap Soph! A uti! They totally suck balls! I havent had one in 7 years or so.....painful is right!

I so think you did an awesome job dtd! You are making me sex jealous! I wish I could get that energy! I wonder if he does have the energy for that very same reason!?.......Thats what probably did it for me in april.....DH didnt want to do his sa, so he talked to his Boys.....and WHAMO!.....

No offense, but I am sick of seeing you here! Get the heck out of here and into first tri baby!!!!

Come on Soph, I have got the faith in you!


P.S. Thanks for the hugs.

 

[SquirrelGirl]

Oh, Tryfor, What a rough F***ing day!


Lucie -- wow, I've been thinking similar things lately -- bad of me I know. I dated a guy in college that I just was crazy in love with, but he didn't appreciate me. Never cheated on me (sheesh, that I know of anyway!) but he only wanted me around when he wanted me around, and otherwise ignored me. Not the best relationship. But I think about "what if".

Truth is, if that guy was cheating on you then, he'd continue to cheat on you, and he'd cheat on you when you had his kid. And then he'd probably leave for some younger woman that didn't have kids. THEN you'd be wishing you didn't have the kid afterall..... you know? It goes both ways. Better to be with someone you love who loves you back, and you'll make it through anything.

Soph -- UTIs are the devil! to the UTI! Have you tried cranberry pills? Over here they are generally sold under the brand name "Azo". I find they work fantastically. Or at least give me enough relief to make it to the doctor!

 

[Lucie73821]

Tryfor-sorry you're having a rough day. *sending you hugs*

Squirrel- I know I'm a million times better off with out him. It just sucks.

Soph- Sorry about the UTI. I used to have those all the time, so I took cranberry pills daily. It really helped.

 

[soph77]

Thanks girls. I just got back from my Dr. He was quite surprised to hear of my uti because I went to another Dr on Sunday with a mild bladder infection (discomfort at the end of the wee, not really painful, no blood in the urine), I should add that I have had them before and they were really bad, got one on my honeymoon for effs sake so I know how bad they get and this one was not much to speak of but the dr gave me antibiotics anyway. By the next day I was peeing freely and I still continued the antibiotics. Today was supposed to be the last day of the pills and I woke up to this!! Full blown uti, pain, blood in the urine. It sucks!! So my dr that I saw today says it is very unusual to have a flare up at the end of antibiotics so we will have to monitor this one a bit closer. I have different pills now. He also said that because I've had 2 rounds of antibiotics I will more than likely get thrush!! On a positive he said that a uti wont affect my chances of conceiving.

I might get dh to go out and get me some cranberry pills when he gets home, I didn't know about those so thanks for the heads up!

 

[Lucie73821]

Found this quote and thought you ladies would like it...

"When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on."*
— Abraham Lincoln

Soph- glad you got to the dr and hope you feel better soon!

 

[tryforbaby2]

Thanks Girls!

I am a bit better today. I cried my eyes out yesterday then got drunk in the comfort of my own home off of red wine!

I haven't been deemed infertile, dh stillhasnt gotten his sa done but one did make it last spring, and 7 years ago (before his problems came and went), so it just may be taking very very long. I will have the family I desire one day. Its the waiting that drives me nuts!

We will all have the family we want. We have been deemed infertile!

Starting my Soy tonight on CD2......ordered preseed for the first time, digi opks in the mail as well a long with 25 early hpt's!

 

[CelticNiamh]

Hello lovely ladies, just wanted to see how you all are and how you are all doing

Tryfor no words can describe how you feel, I know a little of that pain and I still felt it even though I was pregnant again when the due date passed for the baby I MC also due in January hope your ok how about MACA as well hun!

Soph oooh FX I was thinking of you today I will be watching and I hope the UTI goes quickly!

Moon what the hell is up with him weird or what, as the others have said you will find some one new and better and who will make you very happy and love your animals as well.


Ok sending you all sticky vibes and come 2011 I want this thread closed because its no longer needed!

 

[tryforbaby2]

Thanks Niamh.

I didnt know you mc'd when I did?......When was your due date with the January baby?.....Sorry to hear that.

I see you are progressing very well!

What us maca supposed to do again?......

 

[CelticNiamh]

Thanks Niamh.

I didnt know you mc'd when I did?......When was your due date with the January baby?.....Sorry to hear that.

I see you are progressing very well!

What us maca supposed to do again?......

Sorry hun, it was a few years ago! I was one of those who for the first time in my life got pregnant supper quick! so never got my AF back! I have a boy who is a march baby already he is 8 now!

MACA I think is what got me my BFP I was on it for 3 months it blances out the hormones so made OV sooner and my LP longer. DH was taking it as well other good side effects were more energy and better BD sessions

There is a thread on it here I still go on. good results as well you should check it out!

 

[Ejay]

Soph - hope that uti goes away quick. I agree with Squirrel about the cranberry, I usually find downing a couple of litres of cranberry juice really helps.

Hiya Celtic nice to see you, wow doesn't look like you have long left now, how exciting x

I think I am either at O day or just past, not really sure, OH and I have managed to dtd the past couple of nights in a row. Hopefully going to the doc on Monday am going to push for a referral or at least some more tests.

love to you all xx

 

[soph77]

Morning my beautiful lovely friends!

Julia I am glad you are feeling a bit better today hun

Niamh, it is so good to see you in here and I can't believe you are 29 weeks! Holy crap, where does the time go? I tried maca too for a while, I think it may have been what started making me O super early. I had a far more respectable O date this cycle.

Ejay, yay for O day and for good bd timing. I really hope this is your month and you wont need those referrals.

AFM, my uti feels about 70% better this morning and I'm going off to have my legs waxed. I am only 4dpo and can't wait to test! Is that crazy? I've had such good bding this cycle I am really hopeful. I hope I am not setting myself up for heartbreak. Oh well, if it doesn't work I'll just pick myself up, dust myself off and try again. I am going to the fertility clinic on tuesday for an information session and dh will go to the dr next week if I get a bfn for a sa referral.

 

[tryforbaby2]

My fingers are so tightly crossed soph it is crazy! You too Ejay! You guys are sex machines!!!





Pass on the advice on how to sex it every single night! Whats the secret????


Thanks Niamh, I have been meaning to check it out, but havent done so. maybe I could give it to dh? I already take soy, and it brings up my o date to CD13 - CD14.....much earlier than the CD18 and longer days!!!!

 

[Moondance]

hey all my darling girls!

*tacklehugclings*

love you all and miss you... I just don't feel right about hanging around here a lot now, when I'm not trying to have a baby anymore because I'm single...
still hurting from it too. The thought of being with someone new at this current point in time, just makes me want to cry.
and the ex sms'ed me yesterday asking if i want to come visit for a few days. today he starts texting about how much he used to like having sex with me.
Hmph.
and reckons "the invite was for a friend. Just was horny tonight, thats all. I did enjoy taking you to bed though. Not sure you did in the end."
Rightio...
He IS aware of the fact that I was molested at age 8 by my grandfather, that my cousin molested me at age 11 and that at age 19, I was raped by a guy I considered my good friend. He knows all that and he has to start making an issue about whether I enjoyed sex or not???
Oh. My. Gosh



I'm sorry you all are going through tough times with things too. I wish all of you could just get pregnant pregnant pregnant and get the hell out of here and into First Tri where you belong!!!




and PS: I has a new avatar!

And oddly, I am now on the longest cycle I've had so far. 69 days as of writing.
Had spotting just over 2 weeks ago, but all it was, that I spotted into toilet paper, nasty brown stuff. Really random. Know I'm not PG though, I've done lots of pee sticks.
Been irritable and depressed this week, so the witch gotta arrive soon!