I rang the hospital again today and the lady in Patient Affairs sounded surprised that the Chaplain hadn't rung me yet. She said that he was supposed to notify her by end of day yesterday if any of the funeral slots she had arranged were a problem so we can now assume that the date she gave me, 1 February at 10:00, is fine. That doesn't ring with absolute clarity for me but if she says so, I guess I'll just have to go with it unless notified otherwise. She said she was going to ring the Chaplain to make sure all it okay just in case there was a problem with him receiving the emails she has sent him. Again, not smacking of certainty. Sigh.
When I've talked with my partner about what I want to do for Gerri's funeral (photos, letter, flowers, maybe a little music if it is allowed) he just sits quietly and listens and says that sounds nice. I'm not sure if he wants to add anything himself or if he can even get his head around it right now. I don't want to force him to talk or think about it if he doesn't want to, I just don't want to make all the decisions if he wants to add anything himself. I suggested we go down to the flower store the day before and each of us picks out a flower, including my son who won't necessarily know what it's for, and then take them with us in the morning.
I didn't even realise until today that the funeral and cremation are not done at the hospital, but at the crematorium nearby. I'm glad of that. It will make visiting the garden of remembrance nicer I think, kinda like where Suze can go for Joe I would guess.
Well, I'm off to try to get out of bed now. It's 12:30pm and I've only been out of bed to go to the toilet so far today. At least I am getting up earlier than I did yesterday. That's a start, right? And I haven't taken any co-codamol since yesterday morning either. I didn't sleep as well last night but it wasn't as bad as it could have been. I'm just gonna go with it and try to stay off the tablets unless I actually need them for my back.
Here I go. Wish me luck facing the day! xox