I actually used my new deck, I just had a feeling they were the ones to use. Let me know what you think when I post it all up as they are a new deck. For this reading, I actually closed myself off as your energy/spirit was just too much for me to take in. You have a lot around you and someone more experienced would probably be able to cope with that but I just felt flooded. It was all good energy, it was just too much energy. One energy was very hyperactive, child-like. So because of that it took me awhile to draw your cards. I did a 7 card horseshoe spread for you. Card 1: Your past The Emperor Reversed I get a feeling that something has shaken your foundations, and knocked your confidence in yourself. That you may have been trying to control things too much or over thinking things. I get a sense that you have sought help for a medical issue and you feel a need to be logical, methodical, and orderly about how you are managing your body and your health. This card also cautious you about putting too much faith into people around you who claim to be 'know it-alls' or 'gurus'. No one is perfect, and its important that you listen to your own thoughts and intuition no matter what others say or how highly they recommend someone to go to for advice. Take the advice of this person, this guru, listen to it and then make up your own mind about it. Listen to your inner logic, your intuition. The Emperor in reverse tells us that we are giving our heart more importance than what our mind and logic is telling us. It's important to listen to both, equally. Card 2: Your Present Seven of Swords There is a feeling that you need to 'escape'. That you wish sometimes that you could just step into a new situation and leave your current worries and frustrations behind. A feeling of being overwhelmed. However the Swords are very clear that you must make take action. Because you may be weary, feeling over-stressed and helpless, there is the temptation to do nothing which means you will only end up feeling more helpless. Sometimes the card will come up because we have such a poor view of ourselves. We start to believe that nothing we do could possibly make a difference to the unhappy circumstances we find ourselves in. Fear could be stopping you from moving forward. fear of doing something wrong, fear of taking responsibility, fear of being even more hurt and feeling worse than we already do. In the end though, you need to take a leap of faith. The Seven of Swords can also indicate movement in your life, in your career or moving house. You may finally find yourself ready to move forward in your life. Card 3: Your Near Future The Ace of Wands The Ace of Wands stands for new beginnings, fertility, power and energy. This card often symbolises the start of a new life, a pregnancy. The card tells of renewed vigour and positive change. A new path. Card 4: Your attitudes, feelings right now. Four of Pentacles You are dedicated and willing to work hard for what you want but you are also holding onto something to the point where you are neglecting other areas of your life or maybe not spending as much quality time with others as you should. You aren't seeing what is around you as clearly as you should be. This card tells you to ask yourself if the way in which you are clinging to something is healthy for your wellbeing. You need to let go of old wrongs and wounds in order to move forward. In saying that though, the card is also very positive in saying that you have solid foundations around you and this will help you be successful. Financially and relationship wise, you are in a good stable place. Card 5: Circumstances and environment around you, other influences Four of Wands Celebration, happiness, hope, joy, stability. Expect a period of stability, security and a happy home life with your partner. This card shows a celebration of things accomplished, of goals finally being reached and all your hard work paying off. There is a sense of a new life journey, pregnancy and/or moving home. Card 6: Obstacles Death Death doesn't actually mean death, don't panic. In this deck, the death card is a beautiful phoenix rising again, with the old phoenix beneath him. https://www.shadowscapes.com/Tarot/cards.php?suit=0&card=13 This card shows going through a transition. Leaving behind your old life to start a new path. In a few decks, the death card actually depicts a pregnant woman. As for it being an obstacle, I'd refer you back to the second card, the seven of swords. The feeling of being overwhelmed and feeling that you will never get to this happy place that you've been trying so hard for. You need to take that leap of faith, trust in your own inner judgement. You are focusing so much on getting pregnant that you are becoming highly energised and stressed. Take a deep breath, let your energy flow. Take a step back from trying to control everything and once your inner energy has calmed you will overcome your obstacles. Card 7: Your outcome, how things will develop Nine of Cups joy, happiness, dreams coming true. Success and triumph. When this card appears in a reading you should think about what you truly desire and make a wish. The Nine of cups assures material gain and comfort. It often is associated to endings, particularly with important projects or a cycle of work. Now it's time to reap the rewards and take it easy. The card urges you to take some time to have some fun and enjoy yourself because god things are coming your way.