I didn't think I would be taking this Christmas so hard, but it hit me like a bomb last night. I had a major breakdown. I know that everyone around me has moved on and probably don't understand what my problem is, but I just can't stop thinking about where I would be if either of my babies had made it. The first one I would be about a month away from giving birth, and the other I would be in my second tri. Just hard to read about all the moms and dads staying up late last night to get their presents ready for their kids knowing I might not ever have the chance to do that. I'm ready for this Christmas to be over....