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Ok, I get married in July this year and I have a 15month old son, I didn't get the labour and birth I wanted and resulted in a C-section, in fact I didn't get a labour at all, not a single contraction and had numerous nurses putting pessaries in places they weren't welcome. They attempted the spinal 7, yup 7 times and every one failed, I was black and blue when I finally saw myself in a mirror Now I haven't been well since a stomach bug in november, and it appears I have developed IBS, I don't want my son to be an only child and I don't want to be a pregnant bride either ( I will already look like a whale as it is) but the thought of the morning sickness and the possibility of another induction and C-Section absolutely terrifies me to the core. After he was born I couldn't bond with him properly I struggled so much it was unreal, I cannot think back to the 'newborn' phase without bursting into tears the first few weeks were the worst of my life up until getting IBS and feeling really ill 24 hours a day! Its taken me weeks to pluck up the courage to sit here and type this, I have saved everything from my son as I didn't find out the sex so all of the newborn and 0-3 are neutral, I know I want two children but getting my head around it after being ill is soo hard. I'm rambling now...anyone else feel the same?